had sort of a weird day that felt like nothing really happened. i did some cleaning and reorganizing in the pocket studio; i took a long walk through campus; i talked to a few people. maybe i'm just feeling strange and dull because this was the first day in a few weeks that i gave myself to step back from work altogether and take a breather. i'm really close to finishing up a bunch of stuff so i can get into having my summer leave. i don't ever want to stop moving. `---` sometimes i'm tempted to dump a bunch of lines here about ttbp development, but then i just started trying to keep a better changelog and commit messages. i'm scribbling down little thoughts i have here and there while i'm working on this, because i want to remember what working on this feels like. ~jumblesale asked me about writing a piece for the zine, and i'd like to do that in the near future once i hit all my goals for v1.0 release. `---` i started reading <i>the cuckoo's egg</i> by cliff stoll and it's pretty fantastic. if you've read it, i'd love to gush about it to you! (i mean, i'd love to do that anyway, but i don't like hyping/spoiling stuff for people, so just take this as my recommendation to read it and get back to me later, i guess). my partner recommended it to me as topical reading for all the thoughts i've had about the internet, computers, and tildeverse recently. `---` sometimes it's suddenly 2am and i didn't notice because i've been blasting music through my headphones, sipping whiskey, pounding on a keyboard. i notice that my fingers are sluggish over the keys, and that sometimes a blink lasts for minutes at a time while little packets of data are pushed out of my machine. go to bed, ~endo.