Date: Thu, 16 Dec 1999 21:00:31 GMT
From: Karen Beckett <beckett_karen@hotmail.com>
Subject: Kandy  (TG)

Kandy  A Day (or so) in the life
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By Karen Beckett
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Kandy was nervous.  She alternated between pacing up and down the small
hotel room and sitting at the dresser checking her make up.  She couldn't
decide whether she was more worried that April would turn up or that she
wouldn't.

It was to have been a dream holiday for Kenny, but so far it hadn't lived
up to his fantasies. Now on his last night in San Francisco, his last night
in America, before he returned to his normal life, his boring job and his
little room in his parent's house in Croydon, Surrey, England, he finally
had a chance to live out a little of his dream.  But would April turn up?

Kenny was short with a small build covered with a layer of fat brought
about by a lack of exercise and a diet that included too many fries and not
enough vegetables.  He was twenty-two but although he'd had several
girlfriends he had not had a great deal of sexual experience.  It was not
that he was ugly or anything, but he did not fit most women's dream of the
ideal man and this, combined with an innate shyness - especially around the
opposite sex - ensured that his relationships had been of the particularly
futile kind where both partners are settling for what they can get, rather
than what they want, and although this kind of relationship can sometimes
blossom into true love, when each partner finds that indefinable something
in the other that brings a lifetime of wedded bliss, in Kenny's case it
hadn't happened.

Kenny was also a transvestite...a deeply closeted transvestite...if you can
call a small, locked, suitcase buried at the back of a cupboard and
containing some grubby lingerie, a mini skirt with a broken zip and a
couple of tops that would make great cleaning rags, a closet.

He'd had more clothes once of course, well several times actually, but he'd
purged and promised himself never again, but the urge to dress had always
come back.  So when the urge had come back this time he'd decided to go for
it, to really explore his feminine side, and where better to explore than
San Francisco.  San Francisco, the gay capital of the world - not that he
was gay of course though sometimes his fantasies had him as a real women
being loved by a real man.  San Francisco, where you couldn't move for men
dressed as nuns on roller blades.  San Francisco, where Kenny could finally
become Kathy and walk the streets day and night without anyone taking the
slightest notice, well perhaps some notice but only in a positive way.

So Kenny had stretched his meagre resources to the limit, bought the
cheapest flights he could get and planned his holiday of a lifetime.  Only
it hadn't worked out like that.

The plan had called for his first full day to be spent shopping but, partly
because of fatigue brought about by his gruelling - but cheap - journey,
the first day had been spent gawping.  On the second day he managed to
enter some stores, but every time he stopped in front of a dress or some
lingerie that he liked, he could feel the hostile stares of the women
shoppers boring into the back of his head.  He tried to tell himself that
he was imagining it, and even if he was not, so what.  He was twelve
thousand miles from home, he knew nobody here, and anyway, this was San
Francisco.  Nobody cared.  He wandered from store to store but all he ended
up with was a pair of jeans.  Men's jeans.

Finally, on the third day, he went into a supermarket that also sold
clothing, grabbed a trolley, and began to walk the aisles.  And he did it!
By George, he did it!  He bought a dress, a long sleeved, button through,
mid calf length dress with a pretty floral pattern.  He bought a bra and
panties and pantyhose, he bought a pair of shoes - low heeled pumps, he
bought a purse and wallet, a belt, a topcoat, some cheap costume jewellery
and he even bought cosmetics.  And what's more, he even got it all through
the checkout without falling over or running screaming through the doors.
And no one had dragged in a cop and shouted 'That's the pervert!' and he'd
even answered the middle aged lady's inane questions.  'I love that
Australian accent.'  'I'm from England actually.'  'Oh, we're going to
Ireland soon.  We have relatives over there.'  He didn't bother explaining
that Ireland was a different country, and that he was not familiar with the
Hispanic quarter of Dublin.

But he'd done it.  He'd bought himself a wardrobe, well an outfit.  It
didn't cross his mind that he could of done the same thing in Croydon, or
practically anywhere else for that matter, because shops like to sell
things and if people want to buy things then it doesn't matter what gender
they are as long as their money is good.  Even if he had realised, it
wouldn't have dented Kenny's sense of triumph.

He'd shopped mid-morning and was now making his way back to his hotel
intending to change and go out to lunch when it dawned on him that he
hadn't bought a wig.  He debated going back to buy one since, although he'd
resisted getting his hair cut for a couple of months before his trip, his
hair was by no means long, and it's mousy brown colour was not exactly
glamorous.  In the end he decided to change, and if his hair didn't look
right he could always go out and buy a wig that afternoon.  Maybe he might
not even change back first, his confidence was so high.

Half an hour later his confidence was in tatters.

His meticulous planning for this trip had not included a course in American
dress sizes.  He hadn't noticed a dressing room in the shop but, even if he
had, he would not have dared to use it.  He had not even dared to hold
things up to himself to check.  If the truth were known, Kenny would not
have been able to tell anyone his English dress size, let alone his
American one.  In fact, when he bought male clothes he had to check the
size of what he had on before he picked up something new.  His tentative
journey into the world of femininity had not yet reached the wonderful
world of shopping and as a result he had estimated the size he needed by
eye.  His eye had not been very accurate.

The shoulder seams of the dress were nearer his elbows; the cuffs were six
inches below his fingers.  The waist wasn't even a snug fit round his hips
and the skirt dragged on the floor.  Not even the most optimistic mother
would dare utter the immortal words, 'You'll grow into it dear.'  Not
unless she'd expected her offspring to treble in mass in a week.  To
qualify for this dress a women who'd started big would need at least six
children and a mountain of ice cream, and even then she'd struggle to fill
the pantyhose.

Some of the stuff was salvageable.  The bra and panties almost fitted and
some of the costume jewellery was wearable.  The purse was smart but
although the topcoat fit quite well, it did nothing to bring out Kenny's
latent femininity.  Kathy's dream was a bust.

He could of course have gone back to the shop, explained the situation, and
swapped everything for the correct size and style, but his courage had
flown out the window and he could not face that kind of humiliation.  So he
packed everything into his suitcase and hid it at the back of the hotel
room closet and went out to get some lunch.

For the next few days he was a normal tourist, doing the usual sights by
day and in the evenings wandering the district looking at the beautiful,
and not so beautiful, people.  Then, during his daily wanderings, he
discovered the specialist shop.

For a while he looked in the window at the exotic lingerie and incredible
spiked shoes, then taking his courage in both hands he entered.  As he
browsed, a nice lady offered him a coffee and a chance to look at the
catalogue.  The same nice lady measured him for size, showed him the
dressing rooms, advised him on foundation garments, fitted his wig and
inserted the silicone breast forms into his lacy bra, all the time
complimenting him on his figure, his looks, his cheekbones and his skin.
It was a wonderful experience.  The only fly in the ointment was the
prices.

When Kenny left the shop with the wig, the breast forms, a waist cincher, a
garter belt and stockings, a lacy bra and panty set, a skirt and top and a
pair of stiletto heeled strappy red sandals, (at three and a half inches,
the shortest heels in the shop), he had spent a large part of his holiday
budget and maxed out his credit card as well.  He also had in his shopping
bags a tub of industrial strength foundation - guaranteed to cover up
birthmarks, scars and third degree burns, let alone Kenny's sparse beard
shadow - false nails, false eyelashes, lipstick, lip liner, nail varnish,
eyebrow pencil, mascara, powder, (clear dusting powder and a compact),
everything he would need.

He'd rushed back to the hotel, showered, shaved, (face, legs and arms),
plucked, (well trimmed), his eyebrows, all the time singing along in his
head with the Lou Reed classic.

'Candy came from Miami FLA Hitch-hiked her way across the USA Plucked her
eyebrows on the way Shaved her legs then he was a she I said 'Hey Babe'
'Take a walk on the wild side' I said 'Hey Honey' 'Take a walk on the wild
side'

Six times she'd put on her coat, picked up her purse and gone to the door.
Twice she'd opened it, and once she'd stepped outside.  But in the end her
courage had deserted her, and she'd cleaned off her make up, changed her
clothes and disconsolately wandered out of the hotel, only to rush back to
the desk when he realised he'd left everything, including his room key, in
his purse.

The clerk had to accompany Kenny back to the room, open the door with his
passkey, and enter.  The clothes were on the bed and the make up and wig
were on the dresser, as was the purse.  The clerk stood in the centre of
the room as Kenny stood frozen by the door.  Then, with a weird kind of
mental shrug, Kenny had walked over, picked up the purse, transferred his
cigarettes and lighter, his room key and his wallet to his pockets, (not
bothering to change everything to his male wallet), then he'd fished out
the lipstick, tossed it up and down in his hand for a while as if debating
whether he would need it that night, then put it back, closed the purse and
turned to the clerk saying, 'Thanks very much.'

'You're welcome, sir' said the clerk, then they'd left the room and Kenny
had gone out on the town.

.............


April had noticed the guy in the bar before, and she thought she recognised
the signs.  She'd been there herself, and not that long ago.  He was on the
outside looking in, but she could see, somewhere in his face, his aura,
maybe his soul, that he was desperate to come inside.  Tonight though,
there was something different about him.  Tonight he was very close.

She manoeuvred her way across to him and eventually they got talking.  A
crowd of tourists left and they managed to grab a table and, as the hubbub
in the bar died down a bit, they began to get to know each other.

At first he seemed in awe of her, 'You're very beautiful.' He said and she
was flattered by the compliment, but she had also winced inside at the
unspoken part of the message.  'You're very beautiful for a man dressed in
women's clothes', was the full message.  Of course she was mature enough to
recognise that being read was mostly context, and while she was confident
she could pass in most places, in a bar full of queens - from drag queens
through leather queens to rubber queens - she knew she had little chance.

Gradually she managed to get Kenny to open up and when he finally began to
talk about his plans for his trip and the reality of his experience, she
felt a sympathetic wave of compassion.  He told his story as a joke against
himself, and she laughed along with him but she also recognised his deep
pain, and she tried to get across her sympathy and compassion.  Gender
dysphoria is a very lonely experience, and every girl needs all the help
she can get.

As the evening wore on they'd become friends and the knowledge that
tomorrow was Kenny's last full day in San Francisco, together with a fair
amount to drink, had led them to the plan.

'What's your name, Kenny?' April had asked.

Kenny had given her that shy little smile.  'Kandy' he'd said.  'Kandy with
a K.'

'Well, Kandy with a K, what say you and me hit the town tomorrow night?'

'You mean...?'

'Sure.  Why not?  You said you got a nice new outfit today.  I'll come
round and help you get dressed and made up, then we'll go out to dinner and
then we'll cruise the district.'

'Oh God I'd love that, April.  I'd really love that.'


..........


Andy was having a shit day.  Some idiot salesman had managed, as only
salesmen can, to bypass the extensive anti-virus precautions and introduce
a particularly nasty strain of Mellissa into the office network.  About six
o'clock Andy had managed to get himself in an empty office and phone his
new friend.

'Kenny...uh Kandy, it's uh April.'

'Hi April'

Andy...uh April, had intended to cancel their date for tonight, but the
resigned tone in Kandy's voice had cut him to the quick.

'Look Kandy, I've got a bit of a crisis at the office and I'm running a bit
late.  You go ahead and get ready, and I'll be over to pick you up about
half eight.  O.K?'

Andy had worked like a pig for an hour, and then he'd thrown a tantrum.  'I
have a life as well you know.  I'll be in early tomorrow.  I'll take my
fuckin pager but I'm leaving!  Now!'


He'd rushed home and bathed and changed.  He normally liked the transition
from Andy to April to last a couple of hours, revelling in each new layer
of feminity as it was applied.  Bathing in soft, scented bubbles.  Shaving
his legs and arms, (shaving his face was the last piece of Andy he
removed).  Choosing and donning his lingerie.  Carefully applying his
make-up.  Picking his outfit for the night and styling his wig.

Tonight the ritual was rushed and as April paid off the cab at Kandy's
hotel and walked down the corridor to her new friend's room she felt, for
the first time in ages, more like a man in a dress than a woman with a
minor defect.

Pausing before Kandy's door, she tried to compose herself but the hassles
of the day combined with the hurried nature of her preparation would not
allow her normal serenity to surface.  Finally, she just knocked on the
door and, after a long moment's pause, it opened and there stood Kandy.
Hot to trot.

'Oh my God!'


..............


When Kenny had returned to his hotel the previous night, he'd still been
riding on a wave of euphoria.  He'd smiled at the desk clerk as he'd picked
up his key, remembering with pride that moment earlier when he had claimed
his true self.  That moment when he'd looked round his room and mentally
acknowledged, 'Yes, this is all mine, all part of me, and if anyone has a
problem with that, then tough.  It's their problem, not mine.'

When he entered his room and saw his stuff spread out before him, he rushed
to change.  When April, wonderful beautiful April, had asked him his name -
his femme name - earlier, he'd suddenly realised that Kathy was not the
woman he wanted to be.  He wanted to be Kandy, and as he gazed at the
reflection in the mirror he saw, no she saw, Kandy gazing back.

The one minor blemish in the otherwise wonderful evening with April was
that as they talked and laughed together April would touch his arm or his
shoulder or his knee, and try as he might to convince himself that they
were two women sharing an intimate conversation, and that in these
circumstances women touch each other constantly, there was one part of him
that he could not convince.

In short, Kenny had a hardon throughout, and when he saw Kandy reflected in
the mirror his hardon had got harder.

Kenny was not particularly highly sexed, masturbating twice a week on
average, but that night he'd jacked of three times, spraying more semen
each time than he had since he was sixteen.  When he finally stripped and
cleaned off his make-up he was tired and disturbed.  He could handle the
fact that April had turned him on.  Although he knew intellectually that
April was male, he figured that he had been reacting to the sight and touch
of a good-looking woman.  No, what disturbed him most was his reaction to
the image of Kandy.

Kandy brought out the animal in him, and he brought out the animal in
Kandy.

..........

It was late when Kenny woke up the next day.  He tidied the room, but there
was not much he could do about the loose powder on the dresser or the
make-up smeared tissues on top of the tags and wrapping from Kandy's
clothes that lay accusingly in the waste bin.  He was somehow less sanguine
about the maid finding the evidence than he had been with the room clerk
the previous day.

He went out for brunch then wandered the stores.  He really wanted a new
outfit but by now his money was pretty low.  In the end, all he could
afford was a new bra and panty set, in a pretty pink, that he figured went
well with his red skirt and top, and some new stockings.  Fortunately, he
had written down the sizes of everything he'd bought the previous day so he
was confident everything would fit.  It was only when he left the store
that he realised how easily he had managed to shop.  He'd gone into the
store with the idea that he needed something to wear, so he'd looked for
what he wanted, inspected several things - including a really lovely dress
that, sadly, he could not afford - and then bought what he wanted.  If only
he could have done that a week ago.

He decided he'd better return to the hotel in case April called but when he
got to his room he found that the maid was just finishing up cleaning.  He
turned to leave but she said something in a language he did not even
recognise, let alone understand, and motioned him to stay.  When she'd
finished she pointed to his store bag and said something unintelligible.
He shrugged and said 'I don't understand.'

'Buy nice?' she asked.

'I hope so' he said.

'Have fun.'

'I hope so.'

Then she left.

............

As the day wore on, Kenny began to think more and more about his date with
April that night, and the more he thought about what might happen the more
nervous he became.  For every good fantasy he had - a beautiful meal, a
pleasant stroll through the district, a drink or two, perhaps a dance -
there would be a bad one.  April wouldn't show, she would reject Kandy on
sight, Kandy would be laughed at in the street, she would be arrested and
thrown in jail.

When April phoned, Kenny was in a negative mode; half hoping that April
would call the whole thing of.  When she didn't, Kenny decided that he
would go all out to be Kandy that night.  He showered and put on his waist
cincher, his garter belt and stockings and his new underwear and sat down
at the dresser to put on his make-up.

Three times he made up and three times he wiped down to the skin again,
before he decided things were right.  Then, with only an hour to spare
before April was due, he put on his top and skirt.  He didn't waste the
time sitting and worrying though.  He practiced his feminine walk, his
feminine gestures, even - very quietly - his feminine voice.  The nice lady
in the specialist shop had been very insistent about that.

'It doesn't matter how pretty you look,' she told the fascinated Kenny,
'You must talk like a woman, walk like a woman, act like a woman and,' -
here she paused for emphasis - 'think like a woman.'

So Kenny walked and sat and stood and talked and thought, and slowly Kandy
appeared.  And then April - at least Kandy hoped and prayed it was April -
knocked on the door, and Kandy, gathering all her courage, opened it.

'Oh my God!'

...........

It is a strange thing, but some specialist TV shops have this odd idea
that, rather than looking like housewives doing the grocery shopping or
even young ladies going out on a date to a smart restaurant, transvestites
like to look like hookers out on the prowl.  The shop where Kandy bought
her outfit was not an exception to this rule.

Her skirt finished barely below her stocking tops, and her sleeveless top
was so tight and low-cut it showed the top of her breast forms peeking out
of her half- cup bra.  Her clip-on earrings looked like gaudy chinese
lanterns and she had enough bangles and rings to stock a garage sale.

Kandy had another slight disadvantage over other girls.  She had never been
to slumber parties where she and her friends experimented with make-up and
hairstyles.  She had never learned that with make-up, as with so many
things in life, more is not necessarily better.  She had never learned that
while panda eyes look nice on pandas, they might not look so good on
people.  She had never learned that while teased and curled hair that is
wider than your shoulders might look all right on rock stars, it may not be
suitable for a simple dinner for two.  She had never even learned that with
eyelashes like hers you don't need false ones, and even if you did, you are
allowed to trim them to under one inch long.

'Oh my God...You look uh ...incredible Kandy' said April, 'but why don't I
come in and tidy a few things up?'

April had managed to tone down Kandy's eyes a little and remove her false
eyelashes, 'You don't need these, you have such lovely eyelashes.'  She had
pulled up a little of Kandy's spare flesh and blended the breast forms with
foundation, and trimmed the plastic nails to a mere half inch beyond the
tips of her fingers, but time was ticking away, and short of a complete
makeover and a new wardrobe, the was not much else she could do.

'Do you have a topcoat Kandy?  It's a little chilly out there.'

April breathed a sigh of relief when she saw that the coat covered most of
Kandy's charms.  She had already revised the evening's itinerary to avoid
places where she might be well known, but at least with the coat on, April
could handle getting in a cab with Kandy.

As they left the room to begin their night's excursion, April reflected on
the most disturbing aspect of Kandy's appearance.  From the moment that
Kandy had opened the door, a part of April that she was trying to forget, a
part that she hoped soon to lose, had been persistently reminding her of
it's existence.  April was turned on in a way that she had not been turned
on for a long, long time.

April had picked a restaurant that she knew was tolerant of all lifestyles.
It was more expensive than the places she normally used, but what the hell,
it was Kandy's last night.  The maitre'd had more or less insisted that
they check their coats before he sent them to their table and Kandy was
revealed to the world in all her glory. As the waiter led them to their
places and seated them, April studied Kandy's reactions.  She seemed to be
coping well and April thought: 'If she can handle it then so can I.'

April ordered for both of them - Kandy had confessed she had been living on
burgers since she came to San Francisco and knew little about the fine and
varied cuisine of the city.  She also ordered the wine for them both and
this contributed to the feeling that she was an older man taking an
inexperienced girl out on her first date - despite that fact that she could
pass and Kandy, dressed as she was, looked like a TV hooker.

She had just decided to relax and go with the flow when her pager went off.

'I'm sorry Kandy, I have to get that.  It might be important.'

'Sure.  No problem.'

April found the phone and called her workplace.  She found it difficult,
dressed as she was, to talk in Andy's voice, but it had to be done.  The
idiots at work had thought they had cleared the virus, but as they began
re-booting machines it had spread back through the network.  Andy was
needed. Now.

She hung up, found their waiter, and explained the change of plan.

'And your companion?  Will she be leaving with you?'

April looked across to their table and saw Kandy staring anxiously back.
She felt really guilty about ruining their night out, and she knew that if
Kandy left with her, she would go back to her hotel and spend her last
night in front of the television.  'Let her have one night to remember,'
she thought, 'One night of her dream vacation to look back on.'  April
turned to the waiter and said, 'No.  She will probably be staying.'

April explained the situation to Kandy, who immediately wanted to leave.
'No Kandy.  You relax, enjoy your meal and then head down to that bar we
were in last night.  I'll join you later.'  April was aware that she may
have inadvertently given the impression that she was a fully out
transsexual who worked full time as a woman and who could breeze into work,
sort out the problem in no time, and be back at the bar before Kandy had
finished her dessert.  In fact she knew that by the time she had gone home
and changed, and then driven to work, she had little chance of getting away
before dawn, and even if her useless co-workers had fixed the problem when
she got there, she would not have time to come home, change again, and get
out before Kandy was back in her hotel bedroom.  Nevertheless, she felt
that her little white lie was justified.  Kandy would have a night to
remember.

.........

When April left, Kandy felt very alone and very vulnerable.  Just as she
was about to get up and leave, the waiter turned up with her first course
so, taking her courage in both hands, she thanked him with her whispery
femme voice and began to eat.  When he returned a few minutes later with
the bottle of wine that April had ordered, she distractedly picked up her
glass and took a large gulp.  She was barely aware of what she was eating,
except that it was seafood.  When the main course came she did her best,
but the combination of nerves and a tight waist cincher had not done her
appetite much good. Explaining to the waiter that she had enjoyed the meal,
but that her appetite would not let her eat another bite had been a
particularly embarrassing experience.

Throughout the meal Kandy had vacillated between relaxation and
nervousness.  She would be eating normally, and then become aware that it
was not ladylike to shovel her food into her mouth.  She would then try to
become dainty and feminine in her manners, but this would make her so
self-conscious that she would grab her wineglass and take a big swig,
ruining her dainty image.  But the thing that was making her most nervous
was the man.

When she'd first noticed him looking at her, she'd thought he was reading
her, but every time she looked at him during the meal, his eyes had been
locked on her body and she gradually began to think that he fancied her.
She would dismiss this thought as fanciful and get back to eating her
dinner - and drinking her wine - but her eyes would be drawn back to him
and she would see him staring at her and the only interpretation she could
put on his look was lust.

Finally the meal was over and Kandy had called for the check and was
finishing her coffee.  By the time she had counted out the bills to cover
the meal she realised that she could not afford a cab back to her hotel.
She was trying to decide whether to go to the bar and meet April or to try
and find her way home when she again caught the eye of the stranger.
Nervously, she rummaged in her purse, pulled out her cigarettes and lit
one.  Taking a deep drag, she contemplated her problems.  Her problems were
about to escalate.

...........

Hancock had first noticed the strange couple when they were being shown to
their table.  Initially he had figured it must be some sort of D/s scene,
with the husband or boyfriend dressed in the most humiliating drag that the
women could dream up.  He had heard of that sort of thing happening, and it
amused him to think of the poor guy suffering under the clothes.  He
wondered how anyone could get off on something like that.  As the couple
talked and ordered, Hancock began to revise his earlier guess.  They
certainly weren't behaving like Mistress and slave, more like new friends
getting to know each other.  Then the broad was paged and went to the
phone.  They seemed to have some sort of disagreement, then the good
looking one marched out the door leaving the drag queen to herself.

Hancock was bi and he'd been with TV's and she-males before and there was
something about this one that appealed to both sides of his nature.  She
wasn't particularly pretty and she was horribly over made-up, but there was
a boyish girlishness or girlish boyishness about her that was really
turning his crank.  When she caught his eye, she would suddenly begin to
over-dramatise her gestures like some old Hollywood star, but then she
would gradually return to a more normal way of behaviour until she looked
at him again.  Was she coming on to him?

He had just about decided that she was a hooker, but a very inexperienced
one.  Maybe she was on her first night out?  Wouldn't that be a blast?  He
was timing his meal so that he would be finished about the same time as her
and then he could follow her out.  He watched as she counted out the bills
for her meal and hesitated over the tip.  He had been short of cash himself
a few times and he recognised the signs.  Was she really broke, or was it a
message to him that she wanted money?

He called for his check then caught her eye again.  She tossed her head
extravagantly, and then daintily sipped her coffee.  Then she did something
really off the wall.  Crossing her legs and smoothing her skirt, she
casually took out a cigarette and lit it.  And all hell broke loose.

..........

Kandy had barely taken her first puff of the cigarette when she was
surrounded.  Three waiters, the maitre'd and the bouncer suddenly appeared
and she was hustled, with barely time to pick up her purse, out of the
dining area, through a side door and into the alley at the side of the
building.

Kandy was first shocked, then humiliated, then outraged.  'Bloody stupid
anti- smoking laws!'  She took a large drag of her ciggie and blew the
smoke at the closing fire door, then began to try and get herself together.
After a nervous start to the evening, everything had been going so well,
and now she found herself thrown out of the restaurant with not enough
money for her cab fare back to her hotel.  She stood there, smoking, trying
to decide if she should make her way back to the hotel on foot, or go to
the bar and meet April.

..........

The maitre'd looked round the restaurant, trying to assess the damage.
Fortunately the dreadful incident seemed to have gone largely unnoticed.
Only one diner seemed to have been disturbed by the furore so he went over
to the man's table and began to repair the damage.

'Would sir like anything else?  More coffee?  A drink perhaps?  Compliments
of the management.'

'No, just the check please,' said Hancock.

'Was everything to sir's satisfaction?'

'Yes.  Everything was fine.  Now could I have the check please.'

Eventually Hancock managed to get the maitre'd to bring the check.  He was
pleasantly surprised at the twenty-five per-cent discount on the bill, but
thoroughly pissed off at missing his chance with the strange hooker.
Finally he had managed to brush off the attentions of the restaurant staff
and make his way out off the place.

Meanwhile, the maitre'd was hovering solicitously round the restaurant,
hoping that he had managed to stave off a city prosecution and any amount
of civil lawsuits.  And all because of the reckless actions of that stupid
person.  Pity really, he'd actually enjoyed watching her eat.  She was odd,
but strangely attractive.

..........

Slobodan had been in the country for six weeks and perhaps because of his
imposing size, his less than perfect looks, or his almost complete
ignorance of the language, he had not managed a single liaison with a
member of the opposite sex since he'd been here.  In his own country - at
least while his side had been on top in the little local difficulty there -
he had been very popular with the ladies, but here, especially as he had
not yet managed to meet with people from the old country who didn't have
some sort of silly grudge against him, his love life was non-existent.

When he'd snuck away from his night job as a meat packer and slipped out of
the back door into the alley for a smoke, sex was not uppermost on his
mind, but when he saw the hooker, crushing her cigarette end with the toe
of her red high heeled shoe, and then sexily applying her lipstick, his
hardon had been instant and insistent.  Not really knowing the niceties in
a situation like this, he simply walked up to her, fished out some notes
and shoved them in her hand, then he pulled out his prick, pointed to it,
pointed to her mouth and waited.  As he approached he noticed that she was
not the prettiest girl he'd ever had, and then, even in the darkness of the
alley, he wondered if she was a girl at all, but his prick was insisting
that this was what it wanted so Slobba had gone along for the ride.

When Kandy saw the huge man approaching, she was still riding a wave of
anger from the incident in the restaurant.  She turned to him and was about
to ask him what the hell he wanted, when he pushed a bundle of notes into
her hand and made it perfectly clear what he wanted.  She breathed in as
deeply as the waist cincher would allow, trying to fight a rising tide of
panic and told herself: 'Don't do anything stupid.'

Before her trip she'd sought advice on what to do if she was mugged.  The
advice she received boiled down to three simple rules.  Don't try and
run. Don't make a fuss.  Give them what the want.  But this wasn't a
mugging, this was a a case of mistaken identity.  The monster clearly
thought she was a hooker, but did the rules still apply?

She'd looked at the money, then at the man, and then at the prick.  There
was forty bucks, a huge ugly evil looking guy, and six inches of rock hard
cock.

Kandy considered her options.  The money was more than enough for the cab
fare home.  The man looked as if he could cause her, or maybe even Mike
Tyson, a serious amount of damage.  So that left the prick to be dealt
with.  Could she do it?  In all her fantasies, Kandy had never really
considered this as an attractive scenario.  Mostly she had dreamed of -
shall we say - lesbian sex.  Occasionally when the magic/sci-fi option had
been invoked and she was a complete woman, her dreams had been of romantic
lovemaking with a tall dark handsome man.  But a blowjob in an alley for
forty dollars with Frankenstein's monster had not been part of her dreams.

The man had smiled - well it might have been a smile - then repeated his
gestures, this time with a little more urgency, and Kandy made up her mind.

When she'd set off for America she had considered the possibility of sex,
and so she had bought a dozen condoms.  When, yesterday, she had tried to
venture out as Kandy she had brashly put them in her purse.  When, today,
she was checking her purse before her date with April she had,
shamefacedly? hopefully?, left them in there.  So now it was a simple
matter to open her purse, shove the money inside, remove a condom and roll
it on the prick.  So far so good.

Kandy had never performed a blowjob before.  In fact, apart from a little
you stroke mine and I'll stroke yours when Kenny was passing through
puberty, this was the first erect prick, other than her own, that she had
seen, but she did have a couple of things going for her.  The first was a
brief, though satisfying, affair with a girl who wanted to remain a virgin
till she married, but who had been willing, even eager, to suck Kenny's
dick.

The second thing Kandy had going for her was Kenny's brief, but intense,
flirtation with magic.  Kenny had once been given a magic set for his
birthday and had become fascinated with all facets of the magician's art.
Although he could manage the sleight of hand, his shyness had always
stymied his act.  Patter is so much a part of the magician's performance
that a lack of stage presence is crippling.  There was, however, one trick
he had mastered and which had stood him in good stead throughout his
teen-age years.  Kenny was an expert sword-swallower.  His friends had been
amazed at his ability to swallow a three- foot piece of sword-shaped
plastic.  All through school and college he had gained a reputation as,
rather than 'that berk Kenny', as 'that berk Kenny who can swallow swords,
chug-alug beer, or win the yard of ale contest without spilling a drop.'

There are two tricks to sword-swallowing.  The first trick is the ability
to open your throat and let whatever is in your mouth go straight down into
your stomach.  The second trick is to suppress the body's natural aversion
to swallowing something it can't get all the way down and which might not
really be edible.  The key to the second part is taste.  You know when you
kiss someone for the first time, when your mouths open and your tongues
begin to dance, saliva mixes with saliva and tiny chemical reactions take
place and there comes a moment when you melt into each other.  This is the
moment when your body ceases to regard the other person as foreign and
accepts them as part of yourself.

Whenever Kenny was performing his sword swallowing act he would kiss and
lick the object he was swallowing, trying to cover it with his own saliva
in order to fool his tongue, his palate and his throat into believing that
this was not a foreign object he was ingesting, this was part of himself.

This was the experience Kandy now put into action.

She squatted down on her haunches and, overcoming a moment of fearful
nausea, kissed and licked the prick. When she'd coated it with warm saliva
she slipped the head in her mouth and began to move her lips up and down
whilst jacking the shaft with her right hand and caressing the balls with
the fingers of her left hand.  These were tricks Kandy had learned from
Kenny's one-time girlfriend.  When her 'date' got more urgent, grabbing
Kandy's head, and thrusting deeper, she simply applied her sword-swallowing
techniques, and although the prick was thicker than any sword she had
swallowed before, in truth she was more concerned about losing her wig to
the man's grasping hands than about her ability to swallow whatever came
her way.

Her hands were gripping his buttocks and her nose was pressed into his
smelly underwear when she began to sense the telltale signs of his orgasm.
She increased the speed of her throat movement and was rewarded with the
clenching of his buttocks and the spasming of his cock, and then as she
felt the urgency of his thrusts abate and the softening of the cock in her
mouth, she had slowly eased off the prick and stood up.

Slobba leaned back against the wall of the alley and tried to gather his
wits.  That had been the most amazing blowjob he had ever experienced and
when his senses began to recover he started to plead with the hooker to
leave her dismal life and come away with him.  Eventually, in the face of
her indifference, he had settled on giving her some more money in return
for her promise that she would be here at the same time tomorrow night.
She had taken the money and smiled sweetly at him, then walked down the
alley towards the light, stopped and sensually touched up her lipstick,
looked back at him and smiled again, then disappeared into the night.

When Kandy stood back from her 'lover' she was feeling very mixed emotions.
She knew that she should be feeling disgusted.  She was feeling disgusted.
Wasn't she?  But the feeling that was uppermost in her mind was a
tremendous sense of pride.  With the skill of her mouth and hands she had
reduced this huge ugly brute of a man to a knock-kneed quivering jabbering
wreck.

She looked at the obscenely bulging tip of the condom as it clung to the
softening prick and thanked heaven for her foresight in bringing the
rubbers.  Quite apart from the health risks, that amount of cum would
surely have choked her.  When the man had ceased jabbering in whatever
language he was speaking, and handed her more money, she had taken it as
her due, but beneath the satisfaction of a job well done, there was a
debate raging.

'You just sucked off a man!' ... 'Yeah, but the money was good.'  'That
makes you a whore!' ... 'Look, he'd of killed us if we hadn't done it.  Now
stop whingeing and be grateful we're still alive.'  'Yes, but you just
sucked off a man!  And you're proud of yourself!'

Kandy moved into a lighter part of the alley and, feeling she might be a
bit of a mess, decided to tidy up.  She straightened her hair and patched
up her make- up as best she could in the dimness, then looked back down the
alley at the brute still leaning, exhausted against the wall.  She smiled
nervously at him and figured she'd better get out of there before he woke
up and decided he wanted his money back.

As she reached the end of the alley she was startled by a voice from the
shadows.

'Nice job back there, Honey.  Nice job.'

It was the man from the restaurant, and he'd seen everything!

...........

Hancock had finally escaped the restaurant and was wandering disconsolately
back to his car when a flash of red from the back of an alley had caught
his attention.  Moving silently down the alley he had seen the girl take
the money from the giant, squat down in front of him, and give him an
amazingly professional blow-job.  It was the 'girl' from the restaurant,
and any doubts that Hancock had about her profession were instantly
dispelled.  She was a hooker all right, and judging by the look on the big
ape's face, she was a very very good one, and Hancock knew that he had to
have a piece of her.  Soon.

He'd kicked himself for startling her with his compliment, and moved
swiftly to recover his ground, slipping an arm around her waist and
caressing her hip.

'That was amazing to watch.  You're real good. I'm Hancock.'

'Uh hi.  I'm Kandy.'

'Pleased to meet you Kandy.  Where're you staying.'

Kandy told him the name of the hotel and he was a bit surprised.  It was
out of his way, and he didn't think that class of hotel would be pleased if
Kandy brought her work back there.  Still, there were plenty of
alternatives.

'Need a ride, Kandy.'


Kandy was pretty confused.  The 'compliments' Hancock was paying her were
causing her deep embarrassment.  She could feel the blush suffuse her from
head to toe.  She didn't realise that Hancock couldn't see a trace of it
through the layers of foundation on her chest and face, and he thought that
when she ducked her head away from his gaze, she was merely acting modest.

On the other hand, she knew that throughout dinner - purely because of the
wine on her part - that she and Hancock had been playing the game, dancing
the dance.  In her previous life, courtship meant weeks of tentative eye
contact from across a crowded room before one or other of the participants
gathered the nerve to speak.  It seemed to Kandy that she had only been a
woman for two hours and men were throwing themselves at her.  True, they
thought she was a hooker, but even that was a kind of compliment.  They
wanted her so much that they would give her money.

Hancock was tall, though not as big as the animal lurking back in the
alley, and the feel of his arm round her was comforting to Kandy.  She was
aware that in America a ride was what she would call a lift and a lift back
to her hotel would be very welcome.  If the man wanted something from her
in return, well she had done it once and she could do it again.  At least
this one was good-looking.

Kandy accepted Hancock's help into the car and sat back in the comfy seat.
It was then that she became aware of the ache in her thighs from the
unaccustomed squatting, and the relief she felt when she took the weight
off her shoes.  She tried to make conversation with him but the physical
comfort had woken up her mental demons.

'You're going to do it again!' ... 'Look, it's just a lift back to the
hotel.'  'But if he wants more you'll do it won't you.' .. 'I might have
to.  But once we get back to the hotel and get rid of him it'll all be
over.'  'Huh!  So you say.  You even think he's good looking!' ... 'Well he
is, dammit, and there's nothing wrong with thinking a man is good looking.
It's perfectly natural, and it doesn't mean I want to do anything with
him.'


Conversation in the car had been desultory.  Hancock asked where she was
from and she told him.  He said she seemed new to all this and she agreed.
He asked if she was enjoying herself and she said 'Yes, very much.'  It was
one of those conversations where each party is coming from totally
different assumptions, and the misunderstandings were piling up.  As far as
Kandy was concerned she was just being polite, but to Hancock her replies
confirmed that she was new to the game, and being the kindly soul that he
was, he thought he'd help her out.

When they pulled up and Kandy took a look round she realised they were not
at her hotel.  It was a light industrial business park, busy by day but at
this time of night, deserted.

'Where are we?'

'This is where the girls bring their tricks.' said the helpful Hancock.
'Now how much for one of those amazing blow jobs?'

'Well...uh...I'm not really...uh.'

'Twenty bucks o.k.'

'It's just that...I mean...uh'

'Forty then.'

Kandy sighed.  'O.K.'

Hancock slid back his seat as far as it would go then tilted the backrest
till it was almost horizontal.  Undoing his belt and zipper he pushed his
pants and shorts down to his knees and beckoned Kandy over.  She
tentatively held out her hand and Hancock understood the gesture.  Ever
helpful to the new girl, he explained that in America you did the job first
and then got paid, so Kandy slid across the seat and wormed her way into
the driver's foot well.  The conversation had left his prick semi-soft, but
when she leant forward and tickled his balls with the tips of her long
plastic nails he immediately stood to attention.

Kandy found herself, for the second time that night, inches from a male
member.  She took a condom out of her purse, but the prick did not seem
hard enough to roll it on.  She was reluctant to touch it as it was covered
in sticky pre-cum.  She knew from experience that this was from being up
and down for ages, and marvelled again at her ability to cause that
reaction in a man.  Eventually she reached out a tentative hand, tickled
his balls and watched with quiet satisfaction as he immediately become
throbbingly erect.  She quickly rolled the condom down and began to make
friends with her assignment.

Hancock settled back in his seat to enjoy himself.  He had left the dome
light on so he could watch the action and he was tempted to take off
Kandy's wig so that it didn't obscure his vision, but as she kissed and
licked and tickled him he was forced to close his eyes, and when she
suddenly took him down her throat in one smooth motion, his eyes rolled
back into his head and watching became the farthest thing from his mind.

As Kandy licked and sucked she noticed that Hancock's dick was longer and
slightly thicker than her previous experience, and this had set her a
challenge.  Deciding to meet the challenge head on - so to speak - she
opted to dispense with the bobbing and caressing part and go straight to
the main event.

'Oh God Kandy! Oh Fuck! Oh shit oh fuck oh god oh no oooohhhh!'

..........

Kandy had moved back to her seat and was repairing her face.  When she had
finished, as best she could, she took out a cigarette and, mindful of her
earlier experience, looked enquiringly at the supine figure of Hancock.  He
nodded weakly and murmured, 'You go ahead Kandy.' so she sat back and
smoked.  She'd been amazed at Hancock's reaction to her ministrations.  The
power she'd felt as he screamed and squirmed in response to her every move
had given her more exhilaration than she had ever experienced.  When he'd
been forced to pull her up from her deep dive while he came, she had bobbed
and stroked and drawn as much as she could out of him before plunging down
on him for an agonising few seconds that sent him screaming into orbit once
more and emptied his balls again.

The only disturbing thing was the awareness that she had been hard as a
rock since she'd first touched his beautiful cock. As she came down from
the exhilarating high she'd experienced, her internal debate was
threatening to start up again, so she was relieved when Hancock had pulled
himself together and adjusted his seat upright again.

She looked over at him and, with a shy little smile, asked, 'Was that O.K?'

He laughed and said, 'You're priceless Kandy.  You are priceless.  That was
not o.k., that was un-fuckin-believable.  That was in-fuckin-credible.
That was the best.  That was the absolute fuckin best!'

She laughed delightedly and he laughed with her and for a minute or two
they shared a wonderful closeness.  Then Hancock had fished in his pocket
and handed her a fifty.  She put it in her purse and started looking for
change.  'Keep it Kandy.  It was worth every penny.'  Then he put his arm
round her shoulder, gave her a squeeze, started the car and they drove
away.


'Can you drop me at a phone please Hancock?'  Kandy wanted to call a cab
and get back to her hotel before anything else happened.

'Sure Kandy.  Be glad to.'  The ever-helpful Hancock knew exactly where to
drop her.

She'd been worried he was going to kiss her, back at the business park, and
even more worried what her reaction might be, so she was glad when he
pulled the car over and said his goodbyes.

'Thanks Hancock, you've been very kind.'

'Thank you Kandy honey.  That was the best time I've had in a long while.
I'll see you around here again, and soon.  Bye now honey.'

She got out of the car and waved to Hancock as he drove off, then she
straightened her clothes and looked around for a phone.  There was one on
the corner, but between her and the booth were a group of girls and Kandy
recognised them as hookers.  'Like you.' said a disapproving voice in her
head, and as she got closer she realised that some of them - maybe all of
them - were hookers exactly like her.  TV, TS and she-male hookers.  This
must be why Hancock had dropped her off here.  He must have figured that
this was where she 'worked' and that was why he'd promised to meet her
round here again.

Alarm bells started ringing in Kandy's head and she stopped her approach.
Suppose the 'girls' didn't take kindly to a stranger on their patch?
Suppose they kidnapped her and took her to a pimp who got her addicted to
crack cocaine and made her work here forever?

As she was trying to decide whether to turn and run or to try walking past
them to the phone, a car pulled up beside her and the window slid down.

'Hi Baby.  Feel like some fun.'

Kandy looked through the car window at the small, slender, dapper man who
had spoken.  She looked back at the girls and was alarmed to see they were
coming towards her as fast as their tight skirts and five inch heels would
allow.  She glanced again at the smiling face of the driver and leaned
through the open window to get a closer look.

'How does a hundred sound?' he said.

'Fine.' said Kandy and opened the door, slid into the seat, and quickly
shut the door.

'I'm John,' said the driver, 'You new round here?'

'Kandy,' she replied.  'Pleased to meet you John.  Uh yeah, this is my
first night'

'Sweet.' he said, and pulled away.


The girls had seen the guy drop off the stranger.  They'd been a little
concerned he might be a pimp, but a couple of them had recognised Hancock
and pronounced everything cool.  They didn't hold with pimps in this little
sisterhood and although theirs was a competitive world they tended to stick
together.

They were preparing to welcome the new girl into their midst when they saw
Big John's car pull up.  They all liked Big John.  He paid well and, if a
girl did a good job, he tipped well so they rushed up to say hello, and
maybe get picked by him tonight.  They were disappointed, and maybe a bit
surprised, that John had picked the new girl.  John usually went for
glamour and femininity, often selecting a big titted she-male like Cheryl,
and the stranger didn't seem his type at all.  They were also concerned
that if she was that new she may not be able to handle him.  As Cheryl put
it: 'I sure hope her pussy can take a pounding, cos that's what it's gonna
get tonight!'  Big John was not known as Big John for nothing.

.........

In the car there was an awkward silence.  The early introductions were over
and both occupants were deep in thought.

John was trying to think of a way to let the girl down easy.  When he'd
seen her on the corner there had been something about her that had
instantly attracted him, but now she was in the car he could see that she
definitely wasn't his type.  Maybe he could offer her twenty bucks and drop
her off somewhere.  The trouble was he was horny, and if he went back for
Cheryl, who he'd intended to fuck that night, Kandy would lose a lot of
face with her friends.  The other thing that struck him was that she could
obviously use the money.  A new wig and a makeover would do for a start.

Kandy was trying to work up the nerve to tell John it was all a mistake and
could he please drop her off by a phone.  Maybe she could offer him money
to make up for his wasted time.  He seemed like a nice guy, and all he'd
have to do was drive back and pick up one of the other girls.

As John pulled the car up in front of the short time motel they turned to
each other and at exactly the same time said: 'Look...'

Then they smiled at each other, as people do when that happens, and John
laughed and Kandy giggled and John felt a major twitch in his pants and
said to himself; 'Oh well.  What the hell.' and got out of the car.

Kandy stayed in the car.  She was beginning to put together the
hundred-dollar price and the motel room, and realised that maybe one of her
special blowjobs might not be enough.  Then John had opened her door and
offered her his hand and she said to herself: 'Oh well.  Here we go again.'
And the funny thing was, she felt a major twitch in her panties as well.

John stuck his hand up the back of her skirt and stroked her ass as he
guided her into the motel.

At the desk the clerk said 'Hi Big John.  How long for you tonight.'

'Make it an hour Freddie'

While John sorted out the room, Kandy looked around the place.  Freddie had
the most piercings on a single human being that she had ever seen and,
since she'd been in San Francisco, she'd seen a lot.  In the corner was a
pay phone but it was currently occupied by a hooker, a slight, pretty,
blonde woman with big tits.  In any case it was too late to use the phone.
John had paid for the room.  But Kandy promised herself that when she
finished this one she would go straight to that phone and get back to her
hotel.  One more hour and it would all be over.  Thank God.

As John guided her to the room - still with his hand on her ass - she wryly
reflected on her progress.  She'd started her career that night in an alley
by the garbage cans, and progressed to a motel room already.

John had managed to get a couple of cokes from the machine in reception and
as soon as they entered the room he handed her one.  She popped the tab and
swigged back half of the can, then realised she needed a pee.  The bathroom
was not the cleanest she'd seen but she sat and relieved herself
gratefully.  By the time she got back to the room, John had got comfortable
and was lying on the bed, naked.  Naked and hard.

'I can see why Freddie calls you Big John,' she said.

Kandy's plan was to give John one of her special blowjobs and hope to get
away with that but, looking at the size of the sword she needed to swallow,
she wasn't sure that she could manage.  Still, she had to try.  The
alternative didn't bear thinking about.

She knelt down between his legs and took the monster in her hand.  He had
already put on a condom, he preferred his own brand, so she began to get
acquainted.  This close she could see that is wasn't any longer than
Hancock's had been but it certainly was thicker.  She'd rationalised that
it was only John's slight frame which had made the thing look gigantic but
as she struggled to produce enough saliva to cover the cock to her taste,
she realised that had been wishful thinking.

John lay back and watched Kandy slavering over his cock, enjoying the hot
wet feeling of her tongue bath, and when she put the head in her mouth he
sighed with pleasure.  When she lifted off her knees and onto the balls of
her feet, her body jacknifed and her neck lined straight above his prick,
and then eased her head slowly downwards he watched in amazement.  When her
nose was buried in his pubic hairs he was ecstatic.  For a long count of
five she held his cock deep in her throat, still swallowing, then just when
the sensations became to much for him to bear, she pushed herself up with
her hands and eased his prick out of her mouth.

She looked up at him and in a hoarse whisper said; 'I did it.  I fucking
did it.'  Then she proceeded to give him one of the best blowjobs of his
life.  Twice more she plunged him in to the hilt, and when he came he
thought he'd gone to heaven.  Finally she went to the bathroom, picked up
some tissues, came back and cleaned the condom off his cock.

John was out of it for a few minutes, and when he came round he watched
Kandy affectionately.  She'd repaired her lipstick and was sat at the
dresser smoking and studying herself in the mirror.  All his doubts about
her were gone and he thanked his lucky stars that he'd followed his
original instincts and stayed with this one.  He waited until she'd
finished her smoke then quietly told her: 'That was fantastic baby.  You
are one hot lady.  One hot talented lady.'

Kandy had indeed been studying herself in the mirror.  She knew that after
tonight she was changed, changed forever, and she was trying to pick out
the physical evidence of that change.  There was definitely something
different in her reflection, but she could not quite pin it down.  John's
voice brought her out of her reverie and she turned and smiled at him, then
she slipped off the stool, walked over to the bed and sat next to him.  He
put his arm around her and pulled her close.  After a brief internal
struggle, she allowed herself to slide close to him on the bed,
understanding, for the first time since infancy, the meaning of the verb to
nestle.

They lay together for a full ten minutes before John leaned over and
whispered in her ear.  'Ready for round two, baby.'  And she looked down to
see his manhood rising to its full extent again.

John got off the bed and stretched a fresh condom over his prick.  He
pulled Kandy off the bed, unzipped her skirt and held her hand while she
stepped out of it.  When he'd carefully folded the skirt and put it on a
chair, he pulled Kandy's panties down and watched as her cock sprang out.
He fetched another condom, tossed the package to her and said: 'Put that on
baby. Then sit on the bed and start lubing your ass.'

'Uh...I don't have any lube.'

'You girls!  Out on the street peddlin your ass and you don't have no
lube!'

He rummaged in the dresser draw and pulled out a half used tube of KY.
Freddie, the desk clerk, was good like that, always leaving condoms and KY
in the rooms for emergencies.  He'd been there himself, still was
occasionally, and knew what it was like to get caught short.

John arranged Kandy into position on the bed and watched as she tentatively
played with her hole.  'Get those fingers in Kandy!  Lube that passage!
Stretch that ass!  You need it wide and wet to take this thing.'  He
stroked himself as he watched Kandy push one, then two, then three fingers
in to herself and begin to move them up and down.  'Faster baby,' he told
her, 'Faster!'

John loved this bit, watching the girl lying back with her legs splayed,
pushing her fingers in and out.  He was fascinated by the female image from
the hair piled high and the made up face to the legs covered in hose with
the sexy shoes at one end and the garter belt at the other, and in the
centre, standing out like a sore thumb, the dick.  Cheryl would have been
naked on top, occasionally playing with her pretty tits, but her dick was
getting smaller and didn't get that hard any more.  Some you win, some you
lose.

Kandy, in her former life, had briefly experimented with anal play, first
her fingers, then a hairbrush, then an oddly shaped shampoo bottle and
finally the handle of a large screwdriver.  She had some idea that it might
get her closer to the female experience, but it had done nothing for her
and she had quickly become ashamed and then disgusted and had never tried
anything since.

Now as she lay on the bed, legs spread as she tried to comply with John's
orders, the shame and disgust were back.  The relaxing effect of the bottle
of wine had dissipated along with the exhilaration she'd felt with her
earlier exploits.  Even the comfort she'd felt as she'd nestled close to
John, with his slim but strong arms around her, had faded away.  Now,
obscenely splayed, trying to look as if she was enjoying herself, trying to
force the lube as deep as she could, watching John watching her as he
stroked his monster, she felt real fear.

She should have tried to talk John out of it.  He would surely have
listened to reason.  She could even have made a run for the door.  She
doubted that John would have chased after her.  He was not a bad man.  He
didn't want to hurt her.  He didn't want to rape her.  He just wanted to
fuck her ass.  The problem was that deep down, beneath the fear, beneath
the shame, beneath the disgust, in some strange masochistic way, Kandy
wanted to be fucked.  She even wanted to be fucked by John.  She just
didn't want to be fucked by that prick.

And then it was time.

John positioned Kandy how he wanted her, face down with her hips propped up
by pillows and her knees bent. Then he placed the head of his cock at her
anus and began to gently push.

'No John!'

'Relax baby.  I ain't even started.'

'It hurts John'

'Easy baby.  Hey women have babies out of a hole no bigger than this.'

'Stop John!  Let me get used to it.'

'You've taken the head baby.  If you can take it down your throat, you can
sure take it up your ass.'

'No John!  Stop John!  Oh fuck John!  Christ!  No!  Jesus!  Fuck!'

And then it was in.  And Kandy was fucked.

...........

'You need to make a move now baby.  We've only got the room for an hour and
it's gone that now.'

John had lain on top of her for a while then he'd got up and cleaned
himself up.  He'd carefully removed the full condom from Kandy's cock,
wiped her ass with a soapy cloth and patted her dry.  He'd even found some
talcum powder in the bathroom and dusted her ass and thighs.  He'd stood
her up and got her into her panties and skirt and led her over to the
dresser.  She was sitting there now, trying to repair her make up where her
face had rubbed along the bed as John's cock had plunged in and out of her,
but she was having trouble concentrating.

John had given her a hundred dollars and added a fifty-dollar tip, and
although she'd wanted to give it back, she'd taken it and put it in her
purse.  He'd put an arm round her and hugged her and kissed her on the
forehead and told her she'd been great, and she'd turned to him and smiled
a dreamy smile and thanked him and she wanted him to kiss her, but he'd
smiled back at her and thanked her again and said goodbye and walked out of
the room.

Eventually she gave up on her face and listened to that tiny voice in her
head, which was desperately trying to get her attention.  'Phone.'

She walked down the corridor, not having to think about swinging her hips,
and smiled at Freddie as she walked over to the phone, only to find the
same blonde hooker still talking away.  Kandy moved to the side of the
phone to try and catch the blonde's eye.  The woman looked at Kandy,
smiled, and turned back to her conversation, and then she looked at Kandy
again, smiled again, muttered 'I'll call you back' into the receiver and
hung up.

Kandy, still somewhere in dreamland after her experience with John, was
totally unprepared for what happened next.

The blonde woman put her arms round Kandy's waist, pulled her close and
said: 'Hi honey.  I'm Annie.  You look like you're ready to party.'  Then
she slipped a hand under Kandy's skirt and started to stroke her cock.

Kandy, who'd firmly believed that nothing else could happen to her that
night, once again allowed herself to be led down the corridor of the sleazy
motel with a hand up her skirt stroking her buttocks.  This time the hand
was small and female, but it was as firm in its guidance as Big John's
larger male hand.

...........

Annie had been at her wit's end.  Desiree, her regular partner at this sort
of party, had given up the life and split and Annie had been trying to get
hold of a replacement.  It seemed that every TV and she-male in the city
was doing something else that night.  She'd seen the girl with Big John
earlier and not paid much attention but now the party was less than an hour
away and she still hadn't found a partner.  Suddenly, out of the blue, here
was the answer waiting to use the phone.  The girl's make up was a mess,
her clothes were wrinkled and her wig was all over the place, but Annie was
confident she could fix her up enough before the party started.  The girl
had a far away look on her face, but she'd heard from Desi that an hour
with Big John could do that to a girl.  Hell, if she could handle Big John,
then nothing at the party was going to bother her.

There was one more thing that Annie needed to check.  Some of the guests at
this party professed to being straight with tiny bi leanings, hence Annie's
presence, but Annie knew that the she-male half of the partnership would
get a lot more attention than the female, and the one thing the men liked
in a girly boy was a stiff dick.  When Annie put her hand up the girl's
skirt and felt the dick begin to stiffen she knew she had found her
replacement.


When they got to the motel's only suite Annie quickly stripped Kandy,
cleaned off her make-up, and pushed her into the shower.  By the time Kandy
had soaped and rinsed, Annie was back, pulling her out of the spray and
drying and powdering her.  She shoved a razor in Kandy's hand with
instructions to shave her face then, when that was done, she dressed her
again in her underwear, with a clean pair of stockings, settled her down by
the dresser and quickly and efficiently made up her face.

Each step of the way she found something to compliment Kandy on.

'Smooth skin.'  'Nice legs.'  'Trim butt.'

As she applied the cosmetics, which she retrieved from a voluminous bag
she'd brought with her, she explained each step to Kandy.  'This foundation
is not quite your shade but it will do for now.'  'With your eyes you need
liner top and bottom and at least two shades of shadow.  See they come in
pairs.  Light here shading to dark here.  But not too much, never too
much.'  She'd already ruthlessly plucked Kandy's eyebrows to a thin arch.
'With deep set eyes like yours, bushy eyebrows will hide them completely.'
She carefully outlined Kandy's mouth with lip-liner then filled in the
colour with lipstick.  'Don't try and make your lips bigger than they are.
That only works in photos.  This shade really brings you out.  Here, pop
this in your purse.  You'll need it later.'

She helped Kandy into her top and skirt - which had somehow magically been
pressed - and she ran her fingers through Kandy's hair.  'I could do
something with this, but we don't have time tonight.'  So she had fitted
Kandy's wig back on and tweaked and teased and sprayed it till it looked
better than it had in the shop.  She put Kandy's breast forms in a bag,
'They'll only get lost later,' and teased as much of Kandy's chest fat as
she could into the cups of the bra.  One of Kandy's chinese lanterns had
disappeared. 'Don't you just hate it when that happens, honey?  You'll have
to get your ears pierced Kandy, then you can borrow mine.' But she rummaged
in a bag and somehow found a pair of pearl clip- ons, and she added a few
of Kandy's rings and bangles, leaving the more garish plastic ones
behind. When Kandy finally looked in the mirror she was stunned and
delighted.


The whole exercise had been handled so smoothly that, Kandy realised,
although she had discovered a lot about being a woman that day there was
still an awful lot to learn.

...........

Annie and Kandy were sitting on one of the beds in the motel's only suite.
They were smoking, drinking vodka and cokes, and talking - at least Annie
was talking and Kandy was listening.  Annie was explaining how Desi, her
regular partner, had 'gone Benjamin' which Kandy finally understood to mean
living full time as a woman - with a regular job, taking regular hormones
and having regular psycho- analysis.

Kandy had quickly realised that the party was not going to be between her
and Annie, but between the two of them and the male guests who would be
arriving soon.  Kandy knew that she could just get up and leave, but she
stayed.  She wasn't staying because the woman had been kind - though she
had been kind - nor because she had been promised a lot of money - though
she had - not even because she was in awe of Annie - though her awe
bordered on worship.  No, Kandy stayed because some time during this
strange night's events she had lost control of her life.  Somehow life had
taken control of her and she seemed compelled to act out each bizarre scene
to the end.


As Annie rattled on, Kandy was only listening with half her mind.  Her
thoughts kept drifting back to John.  Annie had earlier asked if she'd had
fun.  Fun was not the word.  Joy?  Pain, certainly. Joy through pain?
Completion, fulfilment, transcendence.  When Kenny - poor Kenny who was now
a distant memory, someone she hardly knew - when Kenny had tried his anal
play he'd never come close to the depths that John had found tonight.
Somehow Kandy knew that whatever toys she pushed up her ass she could never
repeat the feeling of a real man filling her to her soul.  When she'd
orgasmed - perhaps through friction on the pillows beneath her hips,
perhaps because John had touched her in a place she didn't know she had -
the feeling as her sphincter, her poor, sore, stretched sphincter, spasmed
around the invading weapon, had so overloaded her brain that she had moved
beyond consciousness to place she never knew existed.  A place of pain and
joy.  A place of completion and fulfilment.  A place of transcendence.  A
place of change.  Kandy had been changed forever.

.............

The door to the suite burst open and a huge black man swept in, filling the
room with his presence.  Annie leapt up from the bed and went to him, arms
open wide.

'Uncle George, honey.  Trust you to be first.'

'Angelica!  Darling!  How have you been my dearest!  Mwaa.  Mwaa.  And who
is this gorgeous creature!'

'Kandy.  Meet Uncle George.'

No arms length inspection for Kandy.  No mwaa mwaa air kiss.  As soon as
she stood from the bed, Kandy found herself swept into George's arms.
Instantly his mouth found hers and his tongue was forcing it's way between
her lips.

George was not one of Annie's guests who thought he might be a little bit
bi.  George knew exactly where his sexuality lay, and this little creature
looked like fun!


Kenny's parents probably loved him. it's just that they never showed it.
They probably loved each other but Kenny had never seen them show that
love.  As an only child, he'd never experienced the sibling wrestling
matches that helped establish the bonds - and the pecking order - in a
family.  Kenny may not have been starved of affection, but in the prim,
proper undemonstrative bosom of his family he'd never been hugged.

Kandy had probably been hugged more times today than Kenny had in the
previous ten years, so as she melted into George's embrace with their
tongues writhing together and his growing erection pressing into her belly,
Kandy felt ashamed of her initial burst of fear at the huge man's entrance
and she wanted to give him something in return.  And Kandy, being Kandy,
decided to give him the thing that she did best.

Annie was watching the couple with a smile of affection on her face, so
when Kandy moved her hand from George's back, formed a circle with her
fingers and jerked them up and down, then burrowed her hand between them
and began to unzip his pants, she had quickly guessed what Kandy wanted.
By the time George's prick was free she was ready with a Trojan and rolling
it on.

When Kandy squatted on her haunches and began to give him a tongue bath
George and Annie had exchanged delighted smiles, but when she'd lined him
up and slowly inched her mouth down his prick till her nose had burrowed
through his zipper into the fly of his boxers and was nestling in the
short, black, curly hairs of his groin their reactions were very different.

Annie gasped, one hand going to her mouth and the other between her legs,
rubbing and squeezing and burrowing, as she was overtaken by the sheer
eroticism of the sight before her.

George simply threw back his head and let out a long low moan.

After what seemed, to the participants, like an eternity, Kandy slowly
pulled herself back, finally slipping her mouth off the head with a loud,
slurping plop and leaving a thread of saliva bridging the gap between her
lips and the helmet.  She looked up at George with a shy smile and said in
her soft, hoarse whisper: "Pleased to meet you Uncle George."

George looked down at Kandy, then over at Annie, then back down at Kandy
again.  Then he threw back his head and at the top of his voice yelled:

'Whoooooweeeeeee!  I am in lurve!'

The party had got of to a great start.

...........

Kandy awoke to a world of pain.  No.

Kandy awoke to a world of ache.  Aching muscles, aching head, aching jaw,
aching feet.

Kandy awoke to a world of sore.  Sore ass, sore throat, sore dick, sore
dick?  Sore ass, sore head, sore throat.  Sore ass.

She began to remember the party.  Kandy had been a popular girl at the
party.  Everyone had wanted to watch her party trick, and everyone, well
almost everyone, had wanted to experience it first hand.  When the novelty
of that had worn off a little, everyone, well almost everyone, had wanted
to fuck.  Annie had done her share of course, but for many of the boys,
especially Uncle George - ah Uncle George - Annie did not have the
requisite equipment.

There had been one man, the weirdo, who'd just sat in a chair, stroking
himself and watching.  Then later, as the party began to develop, the
weirdo had moved from watching to directing.  There was a picture in
Kandy's mind.  A tableau.  Don had been fucking Kandy who'd been fucking
Annie who'd been sucking Joe.  Oh yes, and Kandy had been sucking George.
And the voyeur had been jerking as fast as he could and shouting at the top
of his voice. 'Fuck!  Suck!  Fuck! Suck!  Cut!'

Kandy awoke again to her aches and pains and soreness, and this time she
opened her eyes.

She was in bed, in a room she didn't recognise, and above the faint sounds
of traffic - of normal life - she could hear the regular breathing, feel
the slight shifting body weight, of another person in the bed with her.
Smiling, knowing who she would see, Kandy turned her head to look at the
sleeping form.  Annie.

Carefully, so as not to disturb her partner, her lover, her friend, Kandy
had slipped out of bed and started to explore her surroundings.  The first
thing she noticed was a full length mirror built into a closet door so she
stopped in front of it and studied her image.  Naked, devoid of make-up,
with only the thin arched eyebrows to differentiate this image from the one
she had woken up to yesterday, Kandy had looked into the mirror and seen
... Kandy.

Kandy looked like shit.

Grimacing at the image, she explored the tiny apartment until she found the
bathroom.  Once finished there, she sought out the kitchen and started some
coffee brewing.  Annie, sweet Annie, had left everything ready.  The woman
was wonderful.

As she waited for the coffee to brew, her attention had been caught by a
clock/radio on a shelf.  She looked at it for a while, and then finally
figured out its message.  Two-thirty.  Something inside her was curious
about this message, and she moved closer.  There was a tiny light in the
corner of the display, and next to it was the legend PM.  Ah, she thought,
it's two-thirty PM.  Somewhere deep within Kandy's brain, Kenny was
screaming to get out.  At six twenty-five PM Kenny was due to board a plane
to Denver on the first leg of his journey home.

Kandy's lassitude was swept away by a sudden surge of adrenaline.

Four hours.  Less than four hours.  Kandy needed a plan.

Right.  Get a cab to the hotel, change, pick up the suitcases and get a cab
to the airport.  No problem.

First things first, money.  She went back to the bedroom and saw her purse
on the dresser.  When she opened it she was shocked to see the number and
denomination of the notes inside.  She pulled out her wallet, intending to
put away the notes only to find that it, too, was crammed with money.  She
giggled to herself.  'You were a very busy girl last night.'

The next item on the agenda was clothes.  Moving carefully round the room,
so as not to disturb the sleeping Annie, Kandy found her skirt, top and
waist cincher folded neatly on a chair.  Her shoes were parked tidily
beneath the chair and her jewellery, including the pretty pearl clip-ons,
was piled neatly on the dresser.  There was no sign of her underwear, wig
or breast forms.

As quietly as she could, Kandy began opening drawers and closets.  She
found pretty lingerie, corsets, garter belts and stockings.  She found
mini-skirts, mini dresses and tight plunging tops.  There were a couple of
wigs in the top of the closet.  One was a long flowing blonde number and
the other was an auburn mass of curls.  There was no sign of trousers,
jackets or coats.  No sign of casual T-shirts, pretty blouses or longer
skirts.  There was not even a pair of pantyhose in the place.

There was one outfit separate from the rest. Plain cotton bra and panties,
jeans, T-shirt, leather jacket and a pair of flats.  They looked, even to
Kandy's untutored eye, smaller than the other clothes.  She tried the jeans
anyway but could not get them past her thighs.  She guessed, correctly,
that these were Annie's day wear and that meant that this was not Annie's
apartment.

'So this is Desi's place,' she thought, 'But why doesn't she have any
normal clothes!'

She remembered Annie telling her that Desi had 'gone Benjamin'.  Presumably
that meant that she had taken anything resembling normal clothes with her
and left behind any reminder of her former life.

Eventually Kandy struggled into her waist cinch and borrowed some of Desi's
underwear and hose.  Everything fitted well, but she had to adjust the
straps on the garter belt.  The auburn wig also needed a few adjustments
but soon Kandy was happy with it and, taking it off, began to do her face.

She had found Annie's make up bag and the care she took to match everything
with her complexion the auburn wig and the red dress she intended to borrow
from Desi's closet - at least as best she could - was a tribute to Annie's
lessons, and Kandy's appreciation of them.

In the back of her mind, Kenny was screaming; 'Hurry up you stupid cow!'

The dress was the longest in Desi's wardrobe - only six inches above the
knee - and with the least plunging neckline.  It fitted well, though the
tightness of the skirt restricted her stride and it was a little empty on
top.  She added some jewellery - including the pearl clip-ons - teased her
hair a little, forced her aching feet into the red sandals and picked up
her purse.

She took a long, loving look at the gently snoring figure on the bed.
Since she had first awoken, Kandy had longed to wake Annie and hug her,
kiss her, thank her and beg her help, but she would look at the sleeping
figure and be unable to disturb her well-earned rest.

Kandy knew that with Annie's organisational skills her problems would be
solved in minutes, but her friend needed the rest.  And besides, this was
something Kandy could do alone.  She had already revised her plan to
include coming back to the apartment and returning Desi's clothes and there
would be time then to wake Annie and have a long, tearful, loving
farewell. So she took one, last, lingering look at the sleeping woman's
beautiful face and made her way to the phone.

She found the number of a cab company on a pad by the phone and dialled,
giving the name of her hotel.

'Where from?'

'Uh...'

'Where are you Honey?'

There was an envelope on the table addressed to Ms Desiree Jones, so she
read out the address and, after she'd hung up, quickly jotted it down on
the notepad in her wallet and left the apartment.

As she waited outside for the cab she wished she had her topcoat, but it
was still at the stupid restaurant.  She considered stopping on the way to
pick it up, but was put off by the hassle of proving it was hers and the
fear of meeting the ugly brute who had started her off in her new career
last night.  Anyway, it didn't really suit her.

..........

The hotel had needed Kenny's room - he should have checked out by midday -
so a maid had packed his suitcases and they were in the office behind the
reception desk.  The bill was quickly settled - Kenny had not used room
service and the lodging was paid in advance - and the luggage was fetched
from the office.

Kandy politely asked for somewhere to change and the desk clerk was
checking for an empty room, when in walked the hotel manager.  He was
certainly not having a hooker like that staying in his hotel and made his
views known immediately.

'What's she doing in my hotel!  Get her out of here!  Now!'

So Kandy found herself hustled on to the pavement with her luggage dumped
unceremoniously beside her.  By the time the desk clerk had explained the
situation to the manager and he had gone outside to apologise and offer a
room to change in, Kandy was in a cab and headed back to Desi's place.

Kandy knocked on the door with increasing desperation.  She'd tried the
bell, she'd tried yelling, she'd tried hammering with the heel of her shoe
but nothing she tried would wake Annie.  In the end she was forced to
conclude that her friend had already awoken and gone home while Kandy was
travelling backwards and forwards to the hotel.  Reluctantly,
disconsolately, she made her way back out to the street.

She wasn't to know that the envelope she had copied had been mis-addressed
and that the door she'd been assaulting, next to Desi's, belonged to a drug
dealer who was currently trying to arrange bail.

The only plan she could come up with was to get a cab to the airport and
find somewhere to change.  She was walking down the road, looking for a
phone, and trying to decide whether to go into the men's restroom dressed
as a woman and come out dressed as a man or to go into the women's restroom
and have to exit the stall as Kenny, when she spotted the motel.

A stroke of luck at last!  She could rent a room for an hour, change and be
off to the Airport in no time.

Raoul had been hanging out with Billie, the daytime desk clerk at the
motel, when the hooker came in and booked a room.  She looked tired and
frazzled and didn't appear to have a John so, being a gentleman, Raoul
picked up her suitcases and carried them down the corridor.  As they walked
they exchanged introductions and when they got to the room, Kandy offered
him a tip.

Raoul refused the money, but on a whim - a whim driven by the urgent boner
in his pants - asked; 'Hey honey.  You workin?'

'No Raoul.  I'm ...'

'Come on honey.  Just a quick fuck.  Fifty bucks.  Whadya say?'

Kandy looked at Raoul.  He wasn't handsome.  He was middle-aged with a beer
belly and his greying hair was combed forward to try and cover the bald
spots, but he was smiling a nice smile and had an eager, expectant look on
his stubbly face.  He was, Kandy decided, a nice man.

In a few short hours Kenny would be on his way home and Kandy would be on
her way to becoming a distant memory.  Kandy knew that once back in his
familiar surroundings, Kenny - an older and wiser Kenny but still Kenny -
would take over their lives.  In less than twenty-four hours Kandy had
experienced more sex in more ways than Kenny ever had or would, and here
she was being offered one last fling.  One last chance at the physical
closeness, the sweaty, groping, grappling, pounding slap slap slap of pure
raw sex.  Sex for the sake of it.  Sex for fun.

Oh well.  One more for the road.

She hiked the hem of the dress to her waist, dropped her panties to the
floor and, grabbing a tube of lube and a couple of condoms from her purse,
lay back on the bed with her legs apart and that shy, sweet, heartbreaking
smile on her face.

'Well Raoul.  You ready?'

Raoul was ready.

...........

Billie woke the hooker roughly.  'Come on!  You paid for an hour and you've
had ninety minutes already.'  He didn't need the room, but Freddie would be
coming on soon and he liked to get everything tidy when he handed over.
Besides, if you gave the hookers an inch they'd take a mile.  Let one of
them sleep it off without paying and they'd all expect it.  'Now get your
stuff together and get outta here!'

Raoul had wanted his money's worth so he'd taken her nice and slow and
Kandy, with her aches and pains, had let him.  Besides, she was enjoying
it.  When he'd finally finished, paid her, and cleaned up she had thanked
him and lain back on the bed to savour the feeling.  And fallen asleep.

When Billie woke her she pulled on her knickers, grabbed her stuff, and
found herself once again out on the street with only one place to go.  She
picked up her luggage and - as fast as she could with her tight skirt, high
heels and aching feet - set off for Desi's place.  As she turned the corner
on to Desi's street she saw, coming from Desi's apartment block, a slight,
blonde haired figure in leather jacket and jeans turning to walk in the
direction away from her.

'Annie!  Annieee!  Please!'

..........

The two friends had hugged and Annie had helped a sobbing Kandy back to the
apartment.  As Kandy sat on the bed tearfully explaining her problems,
Annie - sensing that it was needed - had fixed her up with a stiff drink
and a cigarette.

When everything was explained and the problem was defined Annie looked at
the clock.  They had twenty minutes to get Kandy changed and out to the
airport.  Not enough time.

Six twenty-five was the last check in time for the flight.  There was maybe
another thirty minutes before the doors closed.  If they phoned the airport
and explained that she, he, was on his way there was still a chance they
could make it.

'What's your flight number, honey?'

'My flight number?'

'Yeah.  It's on your ticket.'

'My ticket?'

The tickets, along with Kenny's passport, were in a safe deposit box back
at the hotel.

'Oh Annie!' she wailed, 'Oh Annie.  I'm sorry.  I'm so sorry.'

'There, there honey.  There, there.  Annie will sort it out.  You get
cleaned up and changed and I'll get everything fixed.  I promise.'

It took Annie twenty minutes on the phone to sort something out but finally
she had a workable plan.  There was a direct flight from San Francisco to
New York that would get Kandy there in time to pick up her transatlantic
flight to London.  Kandy would have to buy a new ticket but she was sure
the girl had enough money in her purse.  The timing would be tight and the
trip from La Guardia to Idlewild, where Kenny would be on his own, was the
most worrying part of the journey.  Still, Annie was sure everything would
work out.  She called a cab to take them to Kenny's hotel to pick up his
passport and tickets and went into the bedroom to give Kandy the good news.

Kandy, fresh faced and naked, was flat out on the bed sleeping the sleep of
the just.

Kandy had stripped quickly and rushed to the bathroom to clean off her
make-up.  By the time she returned to the bedroom she was beginning to
relax.  Annie had promised to sort it out and Kandy, and even the voice of
Kenny, firmly believed that she would.  She flopped on the bed and under
the influence of Annie's low voice from the other room, and the stiff drink
she had just gulped back, the stresses and strains of the last few hours
drifted away and Kandy thanked her lucky stars that she had found such a
wonderful friend.  Kandy's mind and body had been through so much in the
last day that she desperately needed rest.  The nap at the motel had done
more harm than good, but now that the adrenaline was draining from her
system, now that the immediate threat was gone and now that all the
problems had been sorted, there was no need to deny her mind and body it's
much needed relief.  So nature took its course.

When Annie saw the sleeping Kandy she gently, then not so gently, tugged
the covers over her and tucked her in to bed.  She knew that it would be
difficult to wake Kandy and, even if that were possible, the exhausted girl
would not be in fit shape to make the gruelling journey.  She went to the
phone and cancelled the cab, then wrote a note that she left prominently
placed on the dresser.  She bent over Kandy and kissed her gently on the
forehead, and then again on the lips, then she whispered in the sleeping
girl's ear.  'Goodnight Kandy.  You have a good rest.  I'll be by in the
morning and we'll sort everything out then.  Goodnight honey.  I love you
Kandy.'

Then she left to go back to her own apartment to get ready for that night's
dates.

............

Kandy woke up the next day feeling refreshed, relaxed, and loved.  She did
not consciously remember Annie's parting words but they had bypassed her
mind and slipped into her soul where they became part of the bedrock of
Kandy's emerging being.

Kandy knew that she needed the help of her friend and she knew that she
could count on that help whatever the circumstances.  Kandy also knew that
she must begin helping herself.  She phoned the airport and found out the
price of a ticket to London, and then she counted her money and worked out
how much she was short.  She knew how she would have to earn the difference
and she also knew that she could do it.  With Annie's help it would be a
breeze.  She phoned the hotel and arranged to pick up her passport and
papers then settled to tidying the apartment.  She found writing paper and
envelopes in a drawer and wrote a short note to her mother explaining that
she had met a girl and would be staying for a while.  Although she had
never written the name Kandy anywhere it still seemed odd to her to sign
herself Kenny and she had to read and re-read the note to make sure she had
not let anything Kandyish slip in.  She spent an hour trying on clothes and
refining her proposal to Annie.  She was sure Annie would agree to the plan
but she was eager to get everything settled.

When Annie arrived, just after two, she found Kandy in the kitchen cleaning
up after a light lunch.  They hugged and kissed and complimented each
other.

'You're looking good honey.' Kandy was wearing one of Desi's diaphanous
robes and just the barest minimum of make-up.  She hadn't been able to face
the mirror without a bit of lipstick, eyeliner and mascara.

'Not as good as you Annie.' Annie was in her jacket and jeans, devoid of
make- up, but to Kandy - and to anyone else for that matter - she looked
fabulous.

They settled down to coffee, cigarettes and small talk then Kandy bit the
bullet and began to explain her plan.  It was, as Kandy knew it would be,
easy.

Annie immediately agreed on what Kandy had to do to get the money she
needed.  The only alternatives for a girl without a green card would not
even pay enough to live on, let alone to save enough money for a ticket
home.  Annie had seen Kandy at work and knew she was good enough, and tough
enough, to make it.

The apartment was Annie's, sub-let to Desi.  Of course she could use it,
for as long as she needed it.  Kandy immediately insisted on paying a
month's rent in advance.  It was quite a bit more than she had budgeted in
her plan but even so she figured a month would be enough.

The clothes, too, were not a problem.  Annie had spoken to Desi the other
day and had been assured that Desi was not coming back and no longer needed
the stuff.  'As long as you take good care of them feel free to wear what
you want.  At least until you get your own.'

Almost there.  Almost there.

'What are these, Annie?'

Kandy had found some bottles of pills and was worried about drugs in the
apartment.

Annie looked at the bottles.

'Hey.  They're Desi's Mexican hormones.  She doesn't need them now she's
got a regular supply.  You can take them if you like. You'll soon have tits
and ass like the rest of us girls.'

She explained why Desiree had got her hormones from Mexico, and how Denise
- as she was now known - had proper prescription ones.  She showed Kandy
the address on the bottle in case she wanted to get her own supply.

'But don't take these ones,' she rattled a particular bottle, 'Not unless
you want to lose the use of your dick real quick.'

Kandy had no intention of taking the hormones but listened intently anyway.
Anything Annie said was worth listening to.

One more hurdle.  Just one more thing she needed to set her up in her new
life.

Kandy went to Annie and hugged her tight.

'Annie.  You've been so wonderful, so kind, so helpful.  I love you Annie.
Annie, would you please do one thing more for me. Please.'

She moved back a little and looked her friend in the eye.

'Annie, would you please take me shopping?  I have to get something normal
to wear!'

Annie laughed, and a relieved Kandy joined her.

'Of course I will Honey.  I'd love to.  Just as soon as I do something with
your hair!'

So Annie led Kandy to the bathroom and washed and dyed and cut and dried
and styled and trimmed Kandy's hair, and Annie, being Annie, did a pretty
good job of it and, of course, threw in a compliment or two and explained
every step so that Kandy could do it herself.

It was as she used a brush to tweak and tease Kandy's short, but feminine,
blonde bob that Annie imparted her exciting news.

'I'm really glad things have worked out the way they have, Kandy.  It's
probably saved my life.  You see Uncle George called this morning.  He's
having a party tomorrow night and he wants you to be there.  'No excuses
Angelica. You bring Kandy or else!'  So?  Is it a date?'

Kandy laughed delightedly, then threw back her head and said:

'Whoooooweeeeeee!  I am in lurve!'

So Kandy put on clean underwear and her waist cincher and, at Annie's
suggestion, one of Kenny's loose T-shirts and his new jeans - with the belt
done up as tight as it would go - and a pair of knee-highs that Annie
pulled from her bag, because they would be trying on shoes, and a pair of
Kenny's sneakers and her make-up would do if she freshened up her lipstick
and she only needed a couple of rings and they would get her ears pierced
that afternoon and all the time Kandy burbled about her plans.

It would probably only take her a month or so to build up enough cash for a
ticket home, but she would retrieve her passport tomorrow and see how long
her tourist visa lasted because she would probably lose her job in England
so it might be better to build up a nest egg while she had the chance.

And Annie smiled and said 'Sure.  Why not honey.'  But she had seen the
look in Kandy's eyes when she'd mentioned Uncle George's party and she'd
heard Kandy's first question after the two of them had recovered from the
fit of laughter Kandy's mimicry had provoked.  'How much do I get?'

Annie was a great believer in the old saying, 'It takes one to know one.'
Annie was very good at her job, her profession, and although Kandy was raw
and a little rough around the edges, Annie could see that she had real
talent.  But not only that.  Much more important than that, Kandy loved the
job.  She was a natural.

.............
.............

So the story of Kandy's day comes to an end, as all stories do, but aren't
you a little bit curious about what happened to Kandy and the people whose
lives crossed hers on that fateful day?  I know I am.

So here are some brief paragraphs to tidy up a few loose ends.

.........

The cast in order of appearance:
--------------------------------

April was pissed as she sat in the cab on her way home from her abortive
dinner with Kandy.  She kept trying to concentrate on the task before her -
ridding the office network of a stupid virus - but her thoughts kept
returning to the strange English kid she had left in the restaurant to fend
for herself.  And she felt bad.

When she had paid off the cab and entered her home, she slipped off her
heels and put on her comfortable shoes.  Then, as she went to her bedroom,
she remembered how she'd misled the kid into thinking she was fully out at
work and, in a calculated act of defiance, she reversed her steps, picked
up Andy's keys and pass, left the house, got into her car, and drove to
work.

The office was empty when she arrived so she flashed her pass at the server
room sensor and when it flashed green, she opened the door.  Her three
colleagues were bent over keyboards but all looked up at the sound of the
door closing.  She will always remember the classic double take that
followed.  The three stared at her for a long moment and April met their
gaze unflinchingly, then in her sexiest April voice she said: 'What have
you fuck-ups been doing.'

The first five minutes were awkward, and there were awkward moments
throughout the night.  She'd told them her name, but brushed off their
questions.  'I told you.  I have a life.  Now let's get on and do the job.'

Andy was good at his job though not particularly patient, but although she
answered to either April or Andy that night, her voice, and her persona,
never wavered from April's.  When they had finally cleared the problem and
the team were ready to leave, Sally came up to April and gave her a hug.

'You look great April, that blue really suits you.  Will we see you again?'

Rajiit too approached April and shook her hand.  'It's been a pleasure
working with you April.  Thank you.'

Only Michael was awkward, and April knew why.  Having the hots for your
boss is difficult at the best of times, but when she's a man!'


Andy arrived late the next morning.  After his long night, that was to be
expected.  When he fired up his e-mail and saw the note from his boss
requesting his presence as soon as it was convenient, that, too, was
expected.  On the way to work, Andy had gone through his excuses.  A fancy
dress party?  His girlfriend was kinky?  He'd been kidnapped by aliens?

'I hear you did a great job last night Andy.  I really want to thank you.
You saved the company a lot of money in downtime.'

'No problem Ron.  It's my job.'

'I hear we disturbed you from something special last night.  I'm truly
sorry about that, and really grateful.'

'Like I said Ron, no problem.'

'Uh I hear you were wearing, uh, women's clothes when you came in last
night.'

'Yes Ron.'

'Why was that, Andy?'

'Changing would have taken an hour.  I figured I'd just get here and get
started.  You know, save time.'

'Very commendable. Do you often wear, uh, women's clothes Andy.'

'Every minute I'm not here Ron.'

'Why do you wear, uh, women's clothes Andy?'

'I'm a transsexual Ron.'

'That means you want to be a women, right?'

'No Ron.  That means I am a women.  Everywhere it counts, except on the
outside, I am a woman.'

'Are you seeing anyone about this?  A professional?'

'Yes Ron, I'm seeing someone.'

'Will you want to dress as a woman at work?'

'Eventually.'

'How soon.'

'How about tomorrow?'

'I'll need to talk to HR about this.  There may be one or two problems.
Restrooms and such.'

Ron talked to Human Resources and the problems with 'restrooms and such'
were overcome and the following Monday April came to work.  She would
always remember that night and though, in her memory, her own part
increased and the strange English kid's part decreased, she will never
forget Kandy for the rest of her life.

So April's story has a happy ending?  Let us hope so, for in a few months
time she has an appointment with a surgeon to take her next, irrevocable,
step towards her dream, her reality.  Let's all take a moment to wish her
luck, and while we're here, let's all send our best to every girl who's
been through, or going through, or contemplating going through, that tough,
dangerous, beautiful journey.

...............


Slobba, too, will remember Kandy for the rest of his life.  He waited in
the alley night after night for his dream girl to appear.  When he could,
he began to cruise the likely spots looking for Kandy, but he never found
her.  So he would find a likely looking girl and pay for a blowjob.
Unfortunately, not all girls could handle Slobba's thrusting technique and
he often ended up with some nasty bite marks and aching balls after his
trysts.

As his command of the language grew, he would stop likely passers by and
describe the beautiful shapely blonde girl he desired. (By this time
Kandy's image in his memory had stepped straight out of Babewatch.)
Eventually, his past caught up with him and he moved further and further
south, ending his days with a bullet through his head in a ditch in a
little town outside Buenos Aries.

............

Hancock continued his bisexual cruise through life, never committing to one
way or the other, never committing to one person or another.  In the early
days he would often pick up Kandy and avail himself of one of her special
blowjobs, or take her to a motel for a fuck.  His word of mouth helped get
Kandy's career of the ground.  Then suddenly, completely out of the blue,
Hancock fell in love.  With an older man.  His father.

It's not quite true to say that the love was sudden.  The seed had been
there for a long, long time, but when his father had a stroke and Hancock
moved back to Seattle to look after him, the love between the two men
blossomed.  There was never anything sexual in their love of course and,
when he had the time, Hancock would cruise the bars and streets looking for
relief.  It was at these times that he would remember Kandy.  But he would
always return home to empty the bedpan and gently bathe his father, and
cook for and clean for the only man, the only human being apart from
himself, that he had ever really loved.

..........

Big John was Big John.  Nobody knows where he comes from.  Nobody knows
where he goes.  He will cruise up, pick a girl, take her to the motel and
fuck her in his own special way.  Always gentle, always kind, always Big
John.  Usually he would pick Cheryl but occasionally he would pick another
girl and sometimes that girl would be Kandy.  As Cheryl's dick decreased in
size and Kandy's figure developed, (of course she took the Mexican
hormones.  Did you really think she wouldn't?) then if Kandy was on the
street and Big John was on the cruise, he would take her back to the motel
and fuck her rigid.

The only other thing I know about Big John is the rumour on the street that
he repeatedly turns down big money offers to appear in porn movies.  With
his big dick and small size he'd look great.

...........


Annie?  Oh Annie.

Annie loves Kandy and Kandy loves Annie.

Annie 4 Kandy and Kandy 4 Annie.

If only life were that simple.

They were lovers of course, sometimes professionally and sometimes
personally.  They are also friends.  Lovers come and lovers go but friends
go on forever.  They are also professionals.  Lovers have tiffs and friends
have spats but professionals can get over those little things and work
together regardless.  The two girls have a mutual respect that goes deeper
than friendship or love.  One professional to another.

Bull shit.

Their mutual respect goes deep, their friendship goes deeper, but their
love touches the very core of their being.  Kandy's very existence is based
on Annie's love for her and her love for Annie, but how does Annie feel?

Annie loves Kandy.

>From the moment she saw Kandy waiting for the phone she felt that someone
special had entered her life.  To a prostitute, particularly a girl like
Annie or Kandy, the physical act of love is not important.  That is to say
they both love sex in all it's many forms, but between themselves sex takes
second place to a hug, a gossip, a shopping trip or a mutual grooming
session.  Not second place.  Tenth or twentieth place.  They love each
other.  Rest assured on that.

Nevertheless, when Annie was offered big money for a three-month cruise in
the Caribbean, their mutual professional respect decreed that they both
agree she should take it.  Their tearful goodbye at the airport probably
passed unnoticed amidst all the other tearful goodbyes.  Their avowals of
love were probably echoed a hundred times over in that airport that
night. So was their promise to see each other soon.

They haven't seen each other since, but they will.  Please God they will.

............

Whenever Uncle George had a party where professional entertainment was
required, Kandy would be there.  It was through these parties that Kandy
made the contacts that would help her move from street-whore to call girl.
But that was not the reason - well not the primary reason - that Kandy had
a special place for him in her heart.  It became a point of honour between
the two of them that whenever they met Kandy would say 'Pleased to meet you
Uncle George.' And George would say 'Wooooeee!  I am in lurve!'  The only
drawback is - he does love Kandy.

At parties he would watch indulgently as Kandy performed, but in his heart
a seed was taking root.  A seed of jealousy.  He began to suggest, then
request, then almost demand, that Kandy leave the life.  He wanted to take
her away from all this.  He promised to dress her in the finest clothes,
take her to the finest restaurants, escort her to parties - not those kinds
of parties - he wanted her to be his wife.  Well as close to that as
Kandy's particular circumstances would allow.

Kandy loved George, in her own way, but she was not yet ready to give up
what she had so recently found.  Freedom.  Kandy revelled in her ability to
attract men, and sometimes women, with her talents.  She loved the
excitement, the power, the exhilaration - and sometimes the danger and fear
- that her profession gave her.

So Kandy would embrace him and kiss him and caress his bulge and say; 'You
know I love you Uncle George, but I'm just not ready for that.'

George is a gentle man, despite having once made his living pounding
opposing players into the dirt, so when he realised that he could not have
Kandy for himself, and that he could not bear to see Kandy with others, he
moved south, first to Los Angeles and then to San Diego.  If you're ever in
San Diego, and you're that way inclined, if you get an invitation to one of
George's parties, go.  You'll enjoy yourself.  But don't mention Kandy.

.............

Are you interested in the bit part players in Kandy's story?

The maitre'd was caught with his hand in the till and is now a waiter in a
smoky leather bar.  The pay's poor but he does well on the tips.

The Hotel manager's mild cocaine habit was, one night at a party, turned in
to a full-blown crack addiction.

Freddie has more piercings.

Raoul still hangs out with Billie who has just about recovered from the
tongue- lashing he received from Kandy when she next met him.

............

Kandy?

Kandy wrote to her mother every month and gradually forgot to be Kenny in
her letters.  She would mention a new dress, or her new hairstyle or a nice
pair of shoes or George's latest outrageous proposal.  She always mentioned
Annie though, at great length.  Her mother was not totally surprised.  She
had known about Kenny's stash for a long time.  Mothers usually do.

When Kandy included a return address in her letters her mother began to
write back.  There was much she could say, much she wanted to say, but she
confined herself to a little gentle gossip.  'Old Mrs so-and-so across the
road passed on.'  'Your friend what's-his-name married that girl
thingy-me-bob.'  'Your Father planted some new roses the other day.'

But always, somewhere in the letter, she would include her particular
words.  She hoped they would express her true feelings for her son, her
daughter.  When Kandy phoned at Christmas or on her mother's birthday the
magic words would always crop up.

'As long as you're happy, dear.  That's all that counts.'

Kandy took the Mexican hormones and then, through a guy she met at one of
George's parties, procured her own local supply.  She never took the
Spironolactone though.  Her dick was too important to her career.  Even so,
it began to slip away but what the hell, she got herself a boob job to
compensate.  They were bigger than she wanted, but a client had done them
for nothing so he called the shots.

Although she had moved from the street to the bedroom there were times when
she would become bored, so at times like these she would return to her
roots.  She would slap on the make-up, tease out her hair, dig out a short,
low-cut, sexy, number, slip her feet into a pair of fuck-me pumps and join
the girls on the street to strut her stuff.  She still got a buzz of
anticipation when a car was cruising up and down and she could feel the
driver's eyes on her.

It was on a night like this that Kandy's luck ran out.  George had left,
Annie was in the Caribbean and Kandy wanted some fun.  Maybe she'd run into
Big John or one of her other regulars from her days on the street, or maybe
she'd just hang out with the girls.  Whatever.

A few days earlier a new girl who needed to feed her habit had freaked out
when her first John got a little rough.  Her boyfriend, and would be pimp,
hit the guy and together they rolled him. The guy wasn't badly hurt and
didn't lose much, but he knew people who knew people and questions were
asked, crackdowns were promised and the vice squad were out on the trawl.
Kandy was caught in the net.

This sort of thing is an occupational hazard, but one that Kandy had so far
avoided.  It wasn't really that big a deal apart from the fact that Kandy's
only ID was a British passport with a long out of date tourist visa.

After a, mercifully short, spell in the slammer Kandy was deported and
finds herself in a window seat of a 747 in mid-atlantic.  All in all, she
is thinking, it's probably not such a bad thing.  It's time to move on,
time to grow.  Her chief regret is the fact that going back to America will
be difficult, if not impossible, but she is already dreaming up ways to
persuade Annie to join her on vacation.  The Bahamas are nice.

Across the aisle, Max is keeping an eye on Kandy.  She is not beautiful,
not even pretty, but there is something attractive about her.  She is
poised and elegant, but beneath the veneer there is an openness about her,
a sense of vulnerability.  It is an appealing combination and Max mentally
rubs his hands together.  He has plans for this one, and if everything
works out he will make a lot of money.

When the woman next to Kandy goes forward to the restroom, Max quickly
moves in to the vacant seat.

'Hello Kandy.  I'm Max.'

'Hi Max.  What can I do for you.'

The coquettish tone in her voice almost puts Max of his stride, but he
quickly recovers.

'It's more a question of what I can do for you.'

'Really?  And what might that be Max?  Something nice I hope.'

Again, her tone threatens to derail him but he ploughs straight on.

'You see Kandy, it's been a quiet week, news wise, and your little story
has generated quite a bit of interest.  When we get to London there will be
lots of reporters and cameramen all out to get a piece of you.'

'And how can you help me, Max?'

'Well, I'm an agent.  A press agent, a publicity agent.  Dealing with these
people is my business.  And I'm very good at my job.  The best, even though
I say it myself.'

'Do go on.'

'We need to get across your story.  They'll put words in your mouth, twist
things round, make you out to be something you're not.  But with a properly
arranged deal with one of the better papers, a few appearances on the
classier chat shows, we can show people the true, heart-rending, emotional
story behind the garish headlines.'

'What's in it for us, Max?'  Kandy has noticed the 'we'.

Figures are mentioned, percentages discussed, tentative deals are done.
Kandy has received plenty of sound advice from friends and has money and
negotiables in various places that she can readily gain access to.  But she
has learned that with money, unlike make-up, more often is better.

The woman returns from the restrooms and, as Max vacates the seat, the two
new partners shake hands.  As he leaves Kandy calls after him in a voice
loud enough to be heard in several of the adjacent rows:

'You know Max, I've been on the game for a long time now, but this is the
first time I've ever had a pimp.'

The end.

............


Authors Note.
-------------

This is not the first TG tale I have told myself, but it is the first I
have written down and sent out into the world.  Editing and revising are
difficult tasks.  As you go through the tale, tweaking here, rewriting
there, the story can become stale and you can begin to lose faith.  I know
there are still clunky bits in there but the time has come for this little
bird to fly the nest.  If any of you out there feel like sending - gentle -
advice on how I might improve my style I'd be grateful.  If anyone has a
sure fire cure for apostrophe dee syndrome I'd be eternally grateful.
Sorry. I'll be eternally grateful.  The time I've spent tidying up he'd,
she'd and they'd could have been much better spent and I still haven't got
them all.

This started out to be a short, amusing, erotic take on the standard forced
fem tale.  You know, occasional cross dresser caught with consequences and
before he knows what's hit him she's on her knees sucking cock.  Eyebrows
are tweezed, hair is dyed and styled, hormones are administered, tits are
implanted and there's no way back.  My variation is that it isn't really
forced.  Just a series of accidents, coincidences and mis-understandings.
There's no master plan, no one bears Kandy any ill will, it just happens.

The problem is I fell for my characters and I ended up writing a romance.
If anyone out there has a cure for that I will be eternally grateful.  The
whole section between the girls going shopping and Kandy getting busted
should be consigned to the bin, but I can't bring myself to do it.

I fell in love with April and I fell in love with Annie, and of course I
fell in love with Kandy.  So much so that I decided to spare her the final
indignities I had planned for her.  But then I thought, 'I'm the author.  I
can do what I like.'  So I did set the tabloid press on her and fix her up
with an agent.

Copyright (c) Karen Beckett  December 1999
.............

Acknowledgements
----------------

The verse from 'Walk on the Wild Side' is reproduced without permission.  I
don't know how to go about that sort of thing and for a tale like this it
doesn't seem worth the hassle.  Who knows? A few people may go out and buy
a CD of Lou Reed's Greatest Hits and generate some money for the copyright
holder.  If the owner wants me to remove it I will, but I think it sort of
fits where it is.

Although this is my first attempt at writing a TG story, I have read many.
Thank you to all the authors who have helped me wile away my time and who
have influenced my own fantasies, including this one.

Disclaimer
----------

I do not condone or recommend any of the sexual acts described in this
story, particularly a head on dive on to a weapon as large as Big John's.

Don't Try This At Home.

I particularly don't recommend any of the acts of gratuitous smoking
described herein.  My own fate was sealed when Daddy said, 'Only whores
smoke,' and Mummy, who smoked, said 'Only whores smoke in the street.'