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SARA CREWE
OR
WHAT HAPPENED AT MISS MINCHIN'S
BY
FRANCES HODGSON BURNETT
In the first place, Miss Minchin lived in London.
Her home was a large, dull, tall one, in a large,
dull square, where all the houses were alike,
and all the sparrows were alike, and where all the
door-knockers made the same heavy sound, and
on still days--and nearly all the days were still--
seemed to resound through the entire row in which
the knock was knocked. On Miss Minchin's door there
was a brass plate. On the brass plate there was
inscribed in black letters,
MISS MINCHIN'S
SELECT SEMINARY FOR YOUNG LADIES
Little Sara Crewe never went in or out of the house
without reading that door-plate and reflecting upon it.
By the time she was twelve, she had decided that
all her trouble arose because, in the first place,
she was not "Select," and in the second she was not
a "Young Lady." When she was eight years old,
she had been brought to Miss Minchin as a pupil,
and left with her. Her papa had brought her all
the way from India. Her mamma had died when she
was a baby, and her papa had kept her with him as
long as he could. And then, finding the hot climate
was making her very delicate, he had brought her to
England and left her with Miss Minchin, to be part
of the Select Seminary for Young Ladies. Sara, who
had always been a sharp little child, who remembered
things, recollected hearing him say that he had
not a relative in the world whom he knew of, and
so he was obliged to place her at a boarding-school,
and he had heard Miss Minchin's establishment
spoken of very highly. The same day, he took Sara
out and bought her a great many beautiful clothes--
clothes so grand and rich that only a very young
and inexperienced man would have bought them for
a mite of a child who was to be brought up in a
boarding-school. But the fact was that he was a rash,
innocent young man, and very sad at the thought of
parting with his little girl, who was all he had left
to remind him of her beautiful mother, whom he had
dearly loved. And he wished her to have everything
the most fortunate little girl could have; and so,
when the polite saleswomen in the shops said,
"Here is our very latest thing in hats, the plumes
are exactly the same as those we sold to Lady
Diana Sinclair yesterday," he immediately bought
what was offered to him, and paid whatever was asked.
The consequence was that Sara had a most
extraordinary wardrobe. Her dresses were silk
and velvet and India cashmere, her hats and
bonnets were covered with bows and plumes, her
small undergarments were adorned with real lace,
and she returned in the cab to Miss Minchin's
with a doll almost as large as herself, dressed
quite as grandly as herself, too.
Then her papa gave Miss Minchin some money
and went away, and for several days Sara would
neither touch the doll, nor her breakfast, nor her
dinner, nor her tea, and would do nothing but
crouch in a small corner by the window and cry.
She cried so much, indeed, that she made herself ill.
She was a queer little child, with old-fashioned
ways and strong feelings, and she had adored
her papa, and could not be made to think that
India and an interesting bungalow were not
better for her than London and Miss Minchin's
Select Seminary. The instant she had entered
the house, she had begun promptly to hate Miss
Minchin, and to think little of Miss Amelia
Minchin, who was smooth and dumpy, and lisped,
and was evidently afraid of her older sister.
Miss Minchin was tall, and had large, cold, fishy
eyes, and large, cold hands, which seemed fishy,
too, because they were damp and made chills run
down Sara's back when they touched her, as
Miss Minchin pushed her hair off her forehead
and said:
"A most beautiful and promising little girl,
Captain Crewe. She will be a favorite pupil;
quite a favorite pupil, I see."
For the first year she was a favorite pupil;
at least she was indulged a great deal more than
was good for her. And when the Select Seminary
went walking, two by two, she was always decked
out in her grandest clothes, and led by the hand
at the head of the genteel procession, by Miss
Minchin herself. And when the parents of any
of the pupils came, she was always dressed and
called into the parlor with her doll; and she used
to hear Miss Minchin say that her father was a
distinguished Indian officer, and she would be
heiress to a great fortune. That her father had
inherited a great deal of money, Sara had heard
before; and also that some day it would be
hers, and that he would not remain long in
the army, but would come to live in London.
And every time a letter came, she hoped it would
say he was coming, and they were to live together again.
But about the middle of the third year a letter
came bringing very different news. Because he
was not a business man himself, her papa had
given his affairs into the hands of a friend
he trusted. The friend had deceived and robbed him.
All the money was gone, no one knew exactly where,
and the shock was so great to the poor, rash young
officer, that, being attacked by jungle fever
shortly afterward, he had no strength to rally,
and so died, leaving Sara, with no one to take care
of her.
Miss Minchin's cold and fishy eyes had never
looked so cold and fishy as they did when Sara
went into the parlor, on being sent for, a few days
after the letter was received.
No one had said anything to the child about
mourning, so, in her old-fashioned way, she had
decided to find a black dress for herself, and had
picked out a black velvet she had outgrown, and
came into the room in it, looking the queerest little
figure in the world, and a sad little figure too.
The dress was too short and too tight, her face
was white, her eyes had dark rings around them,
and her doll, wrapped in a piece of old black
crape, was held under her arm. She was not a
pretty child. She was thin, and had a weird,
interesting little face, short black hair, and very
large, green-gray eyes fringed all around with
heavy black lashes.
I am the ugliest child in the school," she had
said once, after staring at herself in the glass for
some minutes.
But there had been a clever, good-natured little
French teacher who had said to the music-master:
"Zat leetle Crewe. Vat a child! A so ogly beauty!
Ze so large eyes! ze so little spirituelle face.
Waid till she grow up. You shall see!"
This morning, however, in the tight, small
black frock, she looked thinner and odder than
ever, and her eyes were fixed on Miss Minchin
with a queer steadiness as she slowly advanced
into the parlor, clutching her doll.
"Put your doll down!" said Miss Minchin.
"No," said the child, I won't put her down;
I want her with me. She is all I have. She has
stayed with me all the time since my papa died."
She had never been an obedient child. She had
had her own way ever since she was born, and there
was about her an air of silent determination under
which Miss Minchin had always felt secretly uncomfortable.
And that lady felt even now that perhaps it would be
as well not to insist on her point. So she looked
at her as severely as possible.
"You will have no time for dolls in future,"
she said; "you will have to work and improve
yourself, and make yourself useful."
Sara kept the big odd eyes fixed on her teacher
and said nothing.
"Everything will be very different now," Miss
Minchin went on. "I sent for you to talk to
you and make you understand. Your father
is dead. You have no friends. You have
no money. You have no home and no one to take
care of you."
The little pale olive face twitched nervously,
but the green-gray eyes did not move from Miss
Minchin's, and still Sara said nothing.
"What are you staring at?" demanded Miss
Minchin sharply. "Are you so stupid you don't
understand what I mean? I tell you that you are
quite alone in the world, and have no one to do
anything for you, unless I choose to keep you here."
The truth was, Miss Minchin was in her worst mood.
To be suddenly deprived of a large sum of money
yearly and a show pupil, and to find herself
with a little beggar on her hands, was more than
she could bear with any degree of calmness.
"Now listen to me," she went on, "and remember
what I say. If you work hard and prepare to make
yourself useful in a few years, I shall let you
stay here. You are only a child, but you are a
sharp child, and you pick up things almost
without being taught. You speak French very well,
and in a year or so you can begin to help with the
younger pupils. By the time you are fifteen you
ought to be able to do that much at least."
"I can speak French better than you, now," said
Sara; "I always spoke it with my papa in India."
Which was not at all polite, but was painfully true;
because Miss Minchin could not speak French at all,
and, indeed, was not in the least a clever person.
But she was a hard, grasping business woman; and,
after the first shock of disappointment, had seen
that at very little expense to herself she might
prepare this clever, determined child to be very
useful to her and save her the necessity of paying
large salaries to teachers of languages.
"Don't be impudent, or you will be punished," she said.
"You will have to improve your manners if you expect
to earn your bread. You are not a parlor boarder now.
Remember that if you don't please me, and I send you
away, you have no home but the street. You can go now."
Sara turned away.
"Stay," commanded Miss Minchin, "don't you intend
to thank me?"
Sara turned toward her. The nervous twitch
was to be seen again in her face, and she seemed
to be trying to control it.
"What for?" she said.
For my kindness to you," replied Miss Minchin.
"For my kindness in giving you a home."
Sara went two or three steps nearer to her.
Her thin little chest was heaving up and down,
and she spoke in a strange, unchildish voice.
"You are not kind," she said. "You are not kind."
And she turned again and went out of the room,
leaving Miss Minchin staring after her strange,
small figure in stony anger.
The child walked up the staircase, holding tightly
to her doll; she meant to go to her bedroom,
but at the door she was met by Miss Amelia.
"You are not to go in there," she said. "That is
not your room now."
"Where is my room? " asked Sara.
"You are to sleep in the attic next to the cook."
Sara walked on. She mounted two flights more,
and reached the door of the attic room, opened
it and went in, shutting it behind her. She stood
against it and looked about her. The room was
slanting-roofed and whitewashed; there was a
rusty grate, an iron bedstead, and some odd
articles of furniture, sent up from better rooms
below, where they had been used until they were
considered to be worn out. Under the skylight
in the roof, which showed nothing but an oblong
piece of dull gray sky, there was a battered
old red footstool.
Sara went to it and sat down. She was a queer child,
as I have said before, and quite unlike other children.
She seldom cried. She did not cry now. She laid her
doll, Emily, across her knees, and put her face down
upon her, and her arms around her, and sat there,
her little black head resting on the black crape,
not saying one word, not making one sound.
From that day her life changed entirely. Sometimes she
used to feel as if it must be another life altogether,
the life of some other child. She was a little
drudge and outcast; she was given her lessons at
odd times and expected to learn without being taught;
she was sent on errands by Miss Minchin, Miss Amelia
and the cook. Nobody took any notice of her except
when they ordered her about. She was often kept busy
all day and then sent into the deserted school-room
with a pile of books to learn her lessons or practise
at night. She had never been intimate with the
other pupils, and soon she became so shabby that,
taking her queer clothes together with her queer
little ways, they began to look upon her as a being
of another world than their own. The fact was that,
as a rule, Miss Minchin's pupils were rather dull,
matter-of-fact young people, accustomed to being rich
and comfortable; and Sara, with her elfish cleverness,
her desolate life, and her odd habit of fixing her
eyes upon them and staring them out of countenance,
was too much for them.
"She always looks as if she was finding you out,"
said one girl, who was sly and given to making mischief.
"I am," said Sara promptly, when she heard of it.
"That's what I look at them for. I like to know
about people. I think them over afterward."
She never made any mischief herself or interfered
with any one. She talked very little, did as she
was told, and thought a great deal. Nobody knew,
and in fact nobody cared, whether she was unhappy
or happy, unless, perhaps, it was Emily, who lived
in the attic and slept on the iron bedstead at night.
Sara thought Emily understood her feelings, though
she was only wax and had a habit of staring herself.
Sara used to talk to her at night.
"You are the only friend I have in the world,"
she would say to her. "Why don't you say something?
Why don't you speak? Sometimes I am sure you could,
if you would try. It ought to make you try,
to know you are the only thing I have. If I were
you, I should try. Why don't you try?"
It really was a very strange feeling she had
about Emily. It arose from her being so desolate.
She did not like to own to herself that her
only friend, her only companion, could feel and
hear nothing. She wanted to believe, or to pretend
to believe, that Emily understood and sympathized
with her, that she heard her even though she did
not speak in answer. She used to put her in a
chair sometimes and sit opposite to her on the old
red footstool, and stare at her and think and
pretend about her until her own eyes would grow
large with something which was almost like fear,
particularly at night, when the garret was so still,
when the only sound that was to be heard was the
occasional squeak and scurry of rats in the wainscot.
There were rat-holes in the garret, and Sara
detested rats, and was always glad Emily was with
her when she heard their hateful squeak and rush
and scratching. One of her "pretends" was that
Emily was a kind of good witch and could protect her.
Poor little Sara! everything was "pretend" with her.
She had a strong imagination; there was almost more
imagination than there was Sara, and her whole forlorn,
uncared-for child-life was made up of imaginings.
She imagined and pretended things until she almost
believed them, and she would scarcely have been surprised
at any remarkable thing that could have happened.
So she insisted to herself that Emily understood all
about her troubles and was really her friend.
"As to answering," she used to say, "I don't
answer very often. I never answer when I can
help it. When people are insulting you, there is
nothing so good for them as not to say a word--
just to look at them and think. Miss Minchin
turns pale with rage when I do it. Miss Amelia
looks frightened, so do the girls. They know you
are stronger than they are, because you are strong
enough to hold in your rage and they are not,
and they say stupid things they wish they hadn't
said afterward. There's nothing so strong as rage,
except what makes you hold it in--that's stronger.
It's a good thing not to answer your enemies.
I scarcely ever do. Perhaps Emily is more like
me than I am like myself. Perhaps she would
rather not answer her friends, even. She keeps
it all in her heart."
But though she tried to satisfy herself with these
arguments, Sara did not find it easy. When, after
a long, hard day, in which she had been sent
here and there, sometimes on long errands,
through wind and cold and rain; and, when she
came in wet and hungry, had been sent out again
because nobody chose to remember that she was
only a child, and that her thin little legs might be
tired, and her small body, clad in its forlorn, too
small finery, all too short and too tight, might be
chilled; when she had been given only harsh
words and cold, slighting looks for thanks, when
the cook had been vulgar and insolent; when
Miss Minchin had been in her worst moods, and
when she had seen the girls sneering at her among
themselves and making fun of her poor, outgrown
clothes--then Sara did not find Emily quite all
that her sore, proud, desolate little heart needed
as the doll sat in her little old chair and stared.
One of these nights, when she came up to the
garret cold, hungry, tired, and with a tempest
raging in her small breast, Emily's stare seemed
so vacant, her sawdust legs and arms so limp and
inexpressive, that Sara lost all control over herself.
"I shall die presently!" she said at first.
Emily stared.
"I can't bear this!" said the poor child, trembling.
"I know I shall die. I'm cold, I'm wet, I'm
starving to death. I've walked a thousand miles
to-day, and they have done nothing but scold me
from morning until night. And because I could
not find that last thing they sent me for, they
would not give me any supper. Some men
laughed at me because my old shoes made me
slip down in the mud. I'm covered with mud now.
And they laughed! Do you hear!"
She looked at the staring glass eyes and complacent
wax face, and suddenly a sort of heartbroken rage
seized her. She lifted her little savage hand and
knocked Emily off the chair, bursting into a passion
of sobbing.
You are nothing but a doll!" she cried.
"Nothing but a doll-doll-doll! You care for nothing.
You are stuffed with sawdust. You never had a heart.
Nothing could ever make you feel. You are a doll!"
Emily lay upon the floor, with her legs ignominiously
doubled up over her head, and a new flat place on the
end of her nose; but she was still calm, even dignified.
Sara hid her face on her arms and sobbed. Some rats
in the wall began to fight and bite each other,
and squeak and scramble. But, as I have already
intimated, Sara was not in the habit of crying.
After a while she stopped, and when she stopped
she looked at Emily, who seemed to be gazing at her
around the side of one ankle, and actually with a
kind of glassy-eyed sympathy. Sara bent and picked
her up. Remorse overtook her.
"You can't help being a doll," she said, with a
resigned sigh, "any more than those girls downstairs
can help not having any sense. We are not all alike.
Perhaps you do your sawdust best."
None of Miss Minchin's young ladies were very
remarkable for being brilliant; they were select,
but some of them were very dull, and some of them
were fond of applying themselves to their lessons.
Sara, who snatched her lessons at all sorts of
untimely hours from tattered and discarded books,
and who had a hungry craving for everything readable,
was often severe upon them in her small mind.
They had books they never read; she had no books
at all. If she had always had something to read,
she would not have been so lonely. She liked
romances and history and poetry; she would
read anything. There was a sentimental housemaid
in the establishment who bought the weekly penny
papers, and subscribed to a circulating library,
from which she got greasy volumes containing stories
of marquises and dukes who invariably fell in love
with orange-girls and gypsies and servant-maids,
and made them the proud brides of coronets; and
Sara often did parts of this maid's work so that
she might earn the privilege of reading these
romantic histories. There was also a fat,
dull pupil, whose name was Ermengarde St. John,
who was one of her resources. Ermengarde had an
intellectual father, who, in his despairing desire
to encourage his daughter, constantly sent her
valuable and interesting books, which were a
continual source of grief to her. Sara had once
actually found her crying over a big package of them.
"What is the matter with you?" she asked her,
perhaps rather disdainfully.
And it is just possible she would not have
spoken to her, if she had not seen the books.
The sight of books always gave Sara a hungry feeling,
and she could not help drawing near to them if
only to read their titles.
"What is the matter with you?" she asked.
"My papa has sent me some more books,"
answered Ermengarde woefully, "and he expects
me to read them."
"Don't you like reading?" said Sara.
"I hate it!" replied Miss Ermengarde St. John.
"And he will ask me questions when he sees me:
he will want to know how much I remember; how
would you like to have to read all those?"
"I'd like it better than anything else in the world,"
said Sara.
Ermengarde wiped her eyes to look at such a prodigy.
"Oh, gracious!" she exclaimed.
Sara returned the look with interest. A sudden plan
formed itself in her sharp mind.
"Look here!" she said. "If you'll lend me those books,
I'll read them and tell you everything that's in them
afterward, and I'll tell it to you so that you will
remember it. I know I can. The A B C children always
remember what I tell them."
"Oh, goodness!" said Ermengarde. "Do you
think you could?"
"I know I could," answered Sara. "I like to read,
and I always remember. I'll take care of the books,
too; they will look just as new as they do now,
when I give them back to you."
Ermengarde put her handkerchief in her pocket.
"If you'll do that," she said, "and if you'll make
me remember, I'll give you--I'll give you some money."
"I don't want your money," said Sara. "I want
your books--I want them." And her eyes grew
big and queer, and her chest heaved once.
"Take them, then," said Ermengarde; "I wish
I wanted them, but I am not clever, and my father
is, and he thinks I ought to be."
Sara picked up the books and marched off with them.
But when she was at the door, she stopped and turned around.
"What are you going to tell your father?" she asked.
"Oh," said Ermengarde, "he needn't know;
he'll think I've read them."
Sara looked down at the books; her heart really began
to beat fast.
"I won't do it," she said rather slowly, "if you are
going to tell him lies about it--I don't like lies.
Why can't you tell him I read them and then told you
about them?"
"But he wants me to read them," said Ermengarde.
"He wants you to know what is in them," said Sara;
and if I can tell it to you in an easy way and make
you remember, I should think he would like that."
"He would like it better if I read them myself,"
replied Ermengarde.
"He will like it, I dare say, if you learn anything in
any way," said Sara. "I should, if I were your father."
And though this was not a flattering way of
stating the case, Ermengarde was obliged to
admit it was true, and, after a little more
argument, gave in. And so she used afterward
always to hand over her books to Sara, and Sara
would carry them to her garret and devour them;
and after she had read each volume, she would return
it and tell Ermengarde about it in a way of her own.
She had a gift for making things interesting.
Her imagination helped her to make everything
rather like a story, and she managed this matter
so well that Miss St. John gained more information
from her books than she would have gained if she
had read them three times over by her poor
stupid little self. When Sara sat down by her
and began to tell some story of travel or history,
she made the travellers and historical people
seem real; and Ermengarde used to sit and regard
her dramatic gesticulations, her thin little flushed
cheeks, and her shining, odd eyes with amazement.
"It sounds nicer than it seems in the book," she
would say. "I never cared about Mary, Queen
of Scots, before, and I always hated the French
Revolution, but you make it seem like a story."
"It is a story," Sara would answer. "They are
all stories. Everything is a story--everything in
this world. You are a story--I am a story--Miss Minchin
is a story. You can make a story out of anything."
"I can't," said Ermengarde.
Sara stared at her a minute reflectively.
"No," she said at last. "I suppose you couldn't.
You are a little like Emily."
"Who is Emily?"
Sara recollected herself. She knew she was
sometimes rather impolite in the candor of her
remarks, and she did not want to be impolite
to a girl who was not unkind--only stupid.
Notwithstanding all her sharp little ways she had
the sense to wish to be just to everybody. In the
hours she spent alone, she used to argue out a great
many curious questions with herself. One thing
she had decided upon was, that a person who was
clever ought to be clever enough not to be unjust
or deliberately unkind to any one. Miss Minchin
was unjust and cruel, Miss Amelia was unkind
and spiteful, the cook was malicious and hasty-
tempered--they all were stupid, and made her
despise them, and she desired to be as unlike them
as possible. So she would be as polite as she
could to people who in the least deserved politeness.
"Emily is--a person--I know," she replied.
"Do you like her?" asked Ermengarde.
"Yes, I do," said Sara.
Ermengarde examined her queer little face and
figure again. She did look odd. She had on,
that day, a faded blue plush skirt, which barely
covered her knees, a brown Cloth sacque, and a
pair of olive-green stockings which Miss Minchin
had made her piece out with black ones, so that
they would be long enough to be kept on. And yet
Ermengarde was beginning slowly to admire her.
Such a forlorn, thin, neglected little thing
as that, who could read and read and remember
and tell you things so that they did not tire you
all out! A child who could speak French, and
who had learned German, no one knew how! One could
not help staring at her and feeling interested,
particularly one to whom the simplest lesson was
a trouble and a woe.
"Do you like me?" said Ermengarde, finally, at
the end of her scrutiny.
Sara hesitated one second, then she answered:
"I like you because you are not ill-natured--I
like you for letting me read your books--I like
you because you don't make spiteful fun of me for
what I can't help. It's not your fault that--"
She pulled herself up quickly. She had been
going to say, "that you are stupid."
"That what?" asked Ermengarde.
"That you can't learn things quickly. If you
can't, you can't. If I can, why, I can--that's all."
She paused a minute, looking at the plump face
before her, and then, rather slowly, one of her
wise, old-fashioned thoughts came to her.
"Perhaps," she said, "to be able to learn things
quickly isn't everything. To be kind is worth a
good deal to other people. If Miss Minchin knew
everything on earth, which she doesn't, and if she
was like what she is now, she'd still be a detestable
thing, and everybody would hate her. Lots of clever
people have done harm and been wicked. Look at Robespierre--"
She stopped again and examined her companion's countenance.
"Do you remember about him?" she demanded. "I believe
you've forgotten."
"Well, I don't remember all of it," admitted Ermengarde.
"Well," said Sara, with courage and determination,
"I'll tell it to you over again."
And she plunged once more into the gory records of
the French Revolution, and told such stories of it,
and made such vivid pictures of its horrors, that
Miss St. John was afraid to go to bed afterward,
and hid her head under the blankets when she did go,
and shivered until she fell asleep. But afterward
she preserved lively recollections of the character
of Robespierre, and did not even forget Marie Antoinette
and the Princess de Lamballe.
"You know they put her head on a pike and
danced around it," Sara had said; "and she had
beautiful blonde hair; and when I think of her, I
never see her head on her body, but always on a
pike, with those furious people dancing and howling."
Yes, it was true; to this imaginative child
everything was a story; and the more books she
read, the more imaginative she became. One of
her chief entertainments was to sit in her garret,
or walk about it, and "suppose" things. On a
cold night, when she had not had enough to eat,
she would draw the red footstool up before the
empty grate, and say in the most intense voice:
"Suppose there was a grate, wide steel grate
here, and a great glowing fire--a glowing fire--
with beds of red-hot coal and lots of little dancing,
flickering flames. Suppose there was a soft,
deep rug, and this was a comfortable chair, all
cushions and crimson velvet; and suppose I had
a crimson velvet frock on, and a deep lace collar,
like a child in a picture; and suppose all the rest
of the room was furnished in lovely colors, and
there were book-shelves full of books, which
changed by magic as soon as you had read them;
and suppose there was a little table here, with a
snow-white cover on it, and little silver dishes,
and in one there was hot, hot soup, and in another
a roast chicken, and in another some raspberry-jam
tarts with crisscross on them, and in another
some grapes; and suppose Emily could speak,
and we could sit and eat our supper, and then
talk and read; and then suppose there was a soft,
warm bed in the corner, and when we were tired
we could go to sleep, and sleep as long as we liked."
Sometimes, after she had supposed things like
these for half an hour, she would feel almost
warm, and would creep into bed with Emily and
fall asleep with a smile on her face.
"What large, downy pillows!" she would whisper.
"What white sheets and fleecy blankets!" And she
almost forgot that her real pillows had scarcely
any feathers in them at all, and smelled musty,
and that her blankets and coverlid were thin and
full of holes.
At another time she would "suppose" she was a
princess, and then she would go about the house
with an expression on her face which was a source
of great secret annoyance to Miss Minchin, because
it seemed as if the child scarcely heard the
spiteful, insulting things said to her, or, if
she heard them, did not care for them at all.
Sometimes, while she was in the midst of some harsh
and cruel speech, Miss Minchin would find the odd,
unchildish eyes fixed upon her with something like
a proud smile in them. At such times she did not
know that Sara was saying to herself:
"You don't know that you are saying these things
to a princess, and that if I chose I could
wave my hand and order you to execution. I only
spare you because I am a princess, and you are
a poor, stupid, old, vulgar thing, and don't
know any better."
This used to please and amuse her more than
anything else; and queer and fanciful as it was,
she found comfort in it, and it was not a bad
thing for her. It really kept her from being
made rude and malicious by the rudeness and
malice of those about her.
"A princess must be polite," she said to herself.
And so when the servants, who took their tone
from their mistress, were insolent and ordered
her about, she would hold her head erect, and
reply to them sometimes in a way which made
them stare at her, it was so quaintly civil.
"I am a princess in rags and tatters," she would
think, "but I am a princess, inside. It would be
easy to be a princess if I were dressed in cloth-of-
gold; it is a great deal more of a triumph to be
one all the time when no one knows it. There was
Marie Antoinette; when she was in prison,
and her throne was gone, and she had only a
black gown on, and her hair was white, and they
insulted her and called her the Widow Capet,--
she was a great deal more like a queen then than
when she was so gay and had everything grand.
I like her best then. Those howling mobs of
people did not frighten her. She was stronger
than they were even when they cut her head off."
Once when such thoughts were passing through
her mind the look in her eyes so enraged Miss
Minchin that she flew at Sara and boxed her ears.
Sara awakened from her dream, started a little,
and then broke into a laugh.
"What are you laughing at, you bold, impudent child!"
exclaimed Miss Minchin.
It took Sara a few seconds to remember she was
a princess. Her cheeks were red and smarting
from the blows she had received.
"I was thinking," she said.
"Beg my pardon immediately," said Miss Minchin.
"I will beg your pardon for laughing, if it was
rude," said Sara; "but I won't beg your pardon
for thinking."
"What were you thinking?" demanded Miss Minchin.
"How dare you think? What were you thinking?
This occurred in the school-room, and all the
girls looked up from their books to listen.
It always interested them when Miss Minchin flew at
Sara, because Sara always said something queer,
and never seemed in the least frightened. She was
not in the least frightened now, though her
boxed ears were scarlet, and her eyes were as
bright as stars.
"I was thinking," she answered gravely and
quite politely, "that you did not know what you
were doing."
"That I did not know what I was doing!"
Miss Minchin fairly gasped.
"Yes," said Sara, "and I was thinking what
would happen, if I were a princess and you boxed
my ears--what I should do to you. And I was
thinking that if I were one, you would never dare
to do it, whatever I said or did. And I was
thinking how surprised and frightened you would
be if you suddenly found out--"
She had the imagined picture so clearly before her eyes,
that she spoke in a manner which had an effect even
on Miss Minchin. It almost seemed for the moment
to her narrow, unimaginative mind that there must
be some real power behind this candid daring.
"What!" she exclaimed, "found out what?"
"That I really was a princess," said Sara, "and
could do anything--anything I liked."
"Go to your room," cried Miss Minchin breathlessly,
this instant. Leave the school-room. Attend to your
lessons, young ladies."
Sara made a little bow.
"Excuse me for laughing, if it was impolite,"
she said, and walked out of the room, leaving
Miss Minchin in a rage and the girls whispering
over their books.
"I shouldn't be at all surprised if she did
turn out to be something," said one of them.
"Suppose she should!"
That very afternoon Sara had an opportunity
of proving to herself whether she was really a
princess or not. It was a dreadful afternoon.
For several days it had rained continuously, the
streets were chilly and sloppy; there was mud
everywhere--sticky London mud--and over
everything a pall of fog and drizzle. Of course
there were several long and tiresome errands to
be done,--there always were on days like this,--
and Sara was sent out again and again, until her
shabby clothes were damp through. The absurd
old feathers on her forlorn hat were more draggled
and absurd than ever, and her down-trodden shoes
were so wet they could not hold any more water.
Added to this, she had been deprived of her dinner,
because Miss Minchin wished to punish her. She was
very hungry. She was so cold and hungry and tired
that her little face had a pinched look, and now
and then some kind-hearted person passing her in
the crowded street glanced at her with sympathy.
But she did not know that. She hurried on,
trying to comfort herself in that queer way of
hers by pretending and "supposing,"--but really
this time it was harder than she had ever found it,
and once or twice she thought it almost made her
more cold and hungry instead of less so. But she
persevered obstinately. "Suppose I had dry
clothes on," she thought. "Suppose I had good
shoes and a long, thick coat and merino stockings
and a whole umbrella. And suppose--suppose, just
when I was near a baker's where they sold hot buns,
I should find sixpence--which belonged to nobody.
Suppose, if I did, I should go into the shop and
buy six of the hottest buns, and should eat them
all without stopping."
Some very odd things happen in this world sometimes.
It certainly was an odd thing which happened
to Sara. She had to cross the street just as
she was saying this to herself--the mud was
dreadful--she almost had to wade. She picked
her way as carefully as she could, but she
could not save herself much, only, in picking her
way she had to look down at her feet and the mud,
and in looking down--just as she reached the
pavement--she saw something shining in the gutter.
A piece of silver--a tiny piece trodden upon by
many feet, but still with spirit enough to shine
a little. Not quite a sixpence, but the next
thing to it--a four-penny piece! In one second
it was in her cold, little red and blue hand.
"Oh!" she gasped. "It is true!"
And then, if you will believe me, she looked
straight before her at the shop directly facing her.
And it was a baker's, and a cheerful, stout,
motherly woman, with rosy cheeks, was just
putting into the window a tray of delicious hot
buns,--large, plump, shiny buns, with currants in them.
It almost made Sara feel faint for a few seconds--the
shock and the sight of the buns and the delightful
odors of warm bread floating up through the baker's
cellar-window.
She knew that she need not hesitate to use the
little piece of money. It had evidently been lying
in the mud for some time, and its owner was
completely lost in the streams of passing people
who crowded and jostled each other all through
the day.
"But I'll go and ask the baker's woman if she
has lost a piece of money," she said to herself,
rather faintly.
So she crossed the pavement and put her wet
foot on the step of the shop; and as she did so
she saw something which made her stop.
It was a little figure more forlorn than her own
--a little figure which was not much more than a
bundle of rags, from which small, bare, red and
muddy feet peeped out--only because the rags
with which the wearer was trying to cover them
were not long enough. Above the rags appeared
a shock head of tangled hair and a dirty face,
with big, hollow, hungry eyes.
Sara knew they were hungry eyes the moment
she saw them, and she felt a sudden sympathy.
"This," she said to herself, with a little sigh,
"is one of the Populace--and she is hungrier
than I am."
The child--this "one of the Populace"--stared up
at Sara, and shuffled herself aside a little, so
as to give her more room. She was used to being
made to give room to everybody. She knew that if
a policeman chanced to see her, he would tell her
to "move on."
Sara clutched her little four-penny piece, and
hesitated a few seconds. Then she spoke to her.
"Are you hungry?" she asked.
The child shuffled herself and her rags a little more.
"Ain't I jist!" she said, in a hoarse voice.
"Jist ain't I!"
"Haven't you had any dinner?" said Sara.
"No dinner," more hoarsely still and with more
shuffling, "nor yet no bre'fast--nor yet no supper
--nor nothin'."
"Since when?" asked Sara.
"Dun'no. Never got nothin' to-day--nowhere.
I've axed and axed."
Just to look at her made Sara more hungry and faint.
But those queer little thoughts were at work in her
brain, and she was talking to herself though she was
sick at heart.
"If I'm a princess," she was saying--"if I'm
a princess--! When they were poor and driven
from their thrones--they always shared--with the
Populace--if they met one poorer and hungrier.
They always shared. Buns are a penny each.
If it had been sixpence! I could have eaten six.
It won't be enough for either of us--but it will
be better than nothing."
"Wait a minute," she said to the beggar-child.
She went into the shop. It was warm and
smelled delightfully. The woman was just going
to put more hot buns in the window.
"If you please," said Sara, "have you lost fourpence--
a silver fourpence?" And she held the forlorn little
piece of money out to her.
The woman looked at it and at her--at her intense
little face and draggled, once-fine clothes.
"Bless us--no," she answered. "Did you find it?"
"In the gutter," said Sara.
"Keep it, then," said the woman. "It may have
been there a week, and goodness knows who lost it.
You could never find out."
"I know that," said Sara, "but I thought I'd ask you."
"Not many would," said the woman, looking puzzled
and interested and good-natured all at once.
"Do you want to buy something?" she added,
as she saw Sara glance toward the buns.
"Four buns, if you please," said Sara; "those
at a penny each."
The woman went to the window and put some in a
paper bag. Sara noticed that she put in six.
"I said four, if you please," she explained.
"I have only the fourpence."
"I'll throw in two for make-weight," said the
woman, with her good-natured look. "I dare say
you can eat them some time. Aren't you hungry?"
A mist rose before Sara's eyes.
"Yes," she answered. "I am very hungry, and
I am much obliged to you for your kindness, and,"
she was going to add, "there is a child outside
who is hungrier than I am." But just at that
moment two or three customers came in at once and
each one seemed in a hurry, so she could only
thank the woman again and go out.
The child was still huddled up on the corner of
the steps. She looked frightful in her wet and
dirty rags. She was staring with a stupid look
of suffering straight before her, and Sara saw her
suddenly draw the back of her roughened, black
hand across her eyes to rub away the tears which
seemed to have surprised her by forcing their way
from under her lids. She was muttering to herself.
Sara opened the paper bag and took out one of
the hot buns, which had already warmed her cold
hands a little.
"See," she said, putting the bun on the ragged lap,
"that is nice and hot. Eat it, and you will not be
so hungry."
The child started and stared up at her; then
she snatched up the bun and began to cram it
into her mouth with great wolfish bites.
"Oh, my! Oh, my!" Sara heard her say hoarsely,
in wild delight.
"Oh, my!"
Sara took out three more buns and put them down.
"She is hungrier than I am," she said to herself.
"She's starving." But her hand trembled when she
put down the fourth bun. "I'm not starving,"
she said--and she put down the fifth.
The little starving London savage was still
snatching and devouring when she turned away.
She was too ravenous to give any thanks, even if
she had been taught politeness--which she had not.
She was only a poor little wild animal.
"Good-bye," said Sara.
When she reached the other side of the street
she looked back. The child had a bun in both
hands, and had stopped in the middle of a bite to
watch her. Sara gave her a little nod, and the
child, after another stare,--a curious, longing
stare,--jerked her shaggy head in response, and
until Sara was out of sight she did not take
another bite or even finish the one she had begun.
At that moment the baker-woman glanced out
of her shop-window.
"Well, I never!" she exclaimed. "If that
young'un hasn't given her buns to a beggar-child!
It wasn't because she didn't want them, either--
well, well, she looked hungry enough. I'd give
something to know what she did it for." She stood
behind her window for a few moments and pondered.
Then her curiosity got the better of her. She went
to the door and spoke to the beggar-child.
"Who gave you those buns?" she asked her.
The child nodded her head toward Sara's vanishing figure.
"What did she say?" inquired the woman.
"Axed me if I was 'ungry," replied the hoarse voice.
"What did you say?"
"Said I was jist!"
"And then she came in and got buns and came out
and gave them to you, did she?"
The child nodded.
"How many?"
"Five."
The woman thought it over. "Left just one for
herself," she said, in a low voice. "And she could
have eaten the whole six--I saw it in her eyes."
She looked after the little, draggled, far-away
figure, and felt more disturbed in her usually
comfortable mind than she had felt for many a day.
"I wish she hadn't gone so quick," she said.
"I'm blest if she shouldn't have had a dozen."
Then she turned to the child.
"Are you hungry, yet?" she asked.
"I'm allus 'ungry," was the answer; "but 'tain't
so bad as it was."
"Come in here," said the woman, and she held open
the shop-door.
The child got up and shuffled in. To be invited into
a warm place full of bread seemed an incredible thing.
She did not know what was going to happen; she did not
care, even.
"Get yourself warm," said the woman, pointing
to a fire in a tiny back room. "And, look here,--
when you're hard up for a bite of bread, you can
come here and ask for it. I'm blest if I won't give
it to you for that young un's sake."
Sara found some comfort in her remaining bun. It was
hot; and it was a great deal better than nothing.
She broke off small pieces and ate them slowly to
make it last longer.
"Suppose it was a magic bun," she said, "and a bite
was as much as a whole dinner. I should be over-
eating myself if I went on like this."
It was dark when she reached the square in which
Miss Minchin's Select Seminary was situated; the
lamps were lighted, and in most of the windows
gleams of light were to be seen. It always
interested Sara to catch glimpses of the rooms
before the shutters were closed. She liked to
imagine things about people who sat before the
fires in the houses, or who bent over books at
the tables. There was, for instance, the Large
Family opposite. She called these people the Large
Family--not because they were large, for indeed
most of them were little,--but because there were
so many of them. There were eight children in
the Large Family, and a stout, rosy mother, and
a stout, rosy father, and a stout, rosy grand-mamma,
and any number of servants. The eight-}children
were always either being taken out to walk,
or to ride in perambulators, by comfortable
nurses; or they were going to drive with their
mamma; or they were flying to the door in the
evening to kiss their papa and dance around him
and drag off his overcoat and look for packages
in the pockets of it; or they were crowding about
the nursery windows and looking out and pushing
ach other and laughing,--in fact they were
always doing something which seemed enjoyable
and suited to the tastes of a large family.
Sara was quite attached to them, and had given
them all names out of books. She called them
the Montmorencys, when she did not call them the
Large Family. The fat, fair baby with the lace
cap was Ethelberta Beauchamp Montmorency;
the next baby was Violet Cholmondely Montmorency;
the little boy who could just stagger, and who had
such round legs, was Sydney Cecil Vivian Montmorency;
and then came Lilian Evangeline, Guy Clarence,
Maud Marian, Rosalind Gladys, Veronica Eustacia,
and Claude Harold Hector.
Next door to the Large Family lived the Maiden Lady,
who had a companion, and two parrots, and a King
Charles spaniel; but Sara was not so very fond of her,
because she did nothing in particular but talk to
the parrots and drive out with the spaniel. The most
interesting person of all lived next door to Miss
Minchin herself. Sara called him the Indian Gentleman.
He was an elderly gentleman who was said to have
lived in the East Indies, and to be immensely rich
and to have something the matter with his liver,--
in fact, it had been rumored that he had no liver
at all, and was much inconvenienced by the fact.
At any rate, he was very yellow and he did not look
happy; and when he went out to his carriage, he
was almost always wrapped up in shawls and
overcoats, as if he were cold. He had a native
servant who looked even colder than himself, and
he had a monkey who looked colder than the
native servant. Sara had seen the monkey sitting
on a table, in the sun, in the parlor window, and
he always wore such a mournful expression that
she sympathized with him deeply.
"I dare say," she used sometimes to remark to
herself, "he is thinking all the time of cocoanut
trees and of swinging by his tail under a tropical sun.
He might have had a family dependent on him too,
poor thing!"
The native servant, whom she called the Lascar,
looked mournful too, but he was evidently very
faithful to his master.
"Perhaps he saved his master's life in the Sepoy
rebellion," she thought. "They look as if they might
have had all sorts of adventures. I wish I could
speak to the Lascar. I remember a little Hindustani."
And one day she actually did speak to him, and his
start at the sound of his own language expressed
a great deal of surprise and delight. He was
waiting for his master to come out to the carriage,
and Sara, who was going on an errand as usual,
stopped and spoke a few words. She had a special
gift for languages and had remembered enough
Hindustani to make herself understood by him.
When his master came out, the Lascar spoke to him
quickly, and the Indian Gentleman turned and looked
at her curiously. And afterward the Lascar always
greeted her with salaams of the most profound description.
And occasionally they exchanged a few words. She learned
that it was true that the Sahib was very rich--that he
was ill--and also that he had no wife nor children,
and that England did not agree with the monkey.
"He must be as lonely as I am," thought Sara.
"Being rich does not seem to make him happy."
That evening, as she passed the windows, the Lascar
was closing the shutters, and she caught a glimpse of
the room inside. There was a bright fire glowing in
the grate, and the Indian Gentleman was sitting
before it, in a luxurious chair. The room was richly
furnished, and looked delightfully comfortable, but
the Indian Gentleman sat with his head resting on his
hand, and looked as lonely and unhappy as ever.
"Poor man!" said Sara; "I wonder what you are `supposing'?"
When she went into the house she met Miss Minchin
in the hall.
"Where have you wasted your time?" said
Miss Minchin. "You have been out for hours!"
"It was so wet and muddy," Sara answered.
"It was hard to walk, because my shoes were so
bad and slipped about so."
"Make no excuses," said Miss Minchin, "and tell
no falsehoods."
Sara went downstairs to the kitchen.
"Why didn't you stay all night?" said the cook.
"Here are the things," said Sara, and laid her
purchases on the table.
The cook looked over them, grumbling. She was in
a very bad temper indeed.
"May I have something to eat?" Sara asked
rather faintly.
"Tea's over and done with," was the answer.
"Did you expect me to keep it hot for you?
Sara was silent a second.
"I had no dinner," she said, and her voice was
quite low. She made it low, because she was
afraid it would tremble.
"There's some bread in the pantry," said the cook.
"That's all you'll get at this time of day."
Sara went and found the bread. It was old and
hard and dry. The cook was in too bad a humor
to give her anything to eat with it. She had just
been scolded by Miss Minchin, and it was always
safe and easy to vent her own spite on Sara.
Really it was hard for the child to climb the
three long flights of stairs leading to her garret.
She often found them long and steep when she
was tired, but to-night it seemed as if she would
never reach the top. Several times a lump rose
in her throat and she was obliged to stop to rest.
"I can't pretend anything more to-night," she
said wearily to herself. "I'm sure I can't.
I'll eat my bread and drink some water and then go
to sleep, and perhaps a dream will come and pretend
for me. I wonder what dreams are."
Yes, when she reached the top landing there were
tears in her eyes, and she did not feel like a
princess--only like a tired, hungry, lonely, lonely child.
"If my papa had lived," she said, "they would
not have treated me like this. If my papa had
lived, he would have taken care of me."
Then she turned the handle and opened the garret-door.
Can you imagine it--can you believe it? I find
it hard to believe it myself. And Sara found it
impossible; for the first few moments she thought
something strange had happened to her eyes--to
her mind--that the dream had come before she
had had time to fall asleep.
"Oh!" she exclaimed breathlessly. "Oh! it isn't true!
I know, I know it isn't true!" And she slipped into
the room and closed the door and locked it, and stood
with her back against it, staring straight before her.
Do you wonder? In the grate, which had been
empty and rusty and cold when she left it, but
which now was blackened and polished up quite
respectably, there was a glowing, blazing fire.
On the hob was a little brass kettle, hissing and
boiling; spread upon the floor was a warm, thick
rug; before the fire was a folding-chair, unfolded
and with cushions on it; by the chair was a small
folding-table, unfolded, covered with a white
cloth, and upon it were spread small covered
dishes, a cup and saucer, and a tea-pot; on the
bed were new, warm coverings, a curious wadded
silk robe, and some books. The little, cold,
miserable room seemed changed into Fairyland.
It was actually warm and glowing.
"It is bewitched!" said Sara. "Or I am bewitched.
I only think I see it all; but if I can only keep
on thinking it, I don't care--I don't care--
if I can only keep it up!"
She was afraid to move, for fear it would melt away.
She stood with her back against the door and looked
and looked. But soon she began to feel warm, and
then she moved forward.
"A fire that I only thought I saw surely wouldn't
feel warm," she said. "It feels real--real."
She went to it and knelt before it. She touched
the chair, the table; she lifted the cover of one
of the dishes. There was something hot and savory
in it--something delicious. The tea-pot had tea
in it, ready for the boiling water from the little
kettle; one plate had toast on it, another, muffins.
"It is real," said Sara. "The fire is real enough
to warm me; I can sit in the chair; the things are
real enough to eat."
It was like a fairy story come true--it was heavenly.
She went to the bed and touched the blankets and the wrap.
They were real too. She opened one book, and on the
title-page was written in a strange hand, "The little
girl in the attic."
Suddenly--was it a strange thing for her to do?
--Sara put her face down on the queer, foreign
looking quilted robe and burst into tears.
"I don't know who it is," she said, "but somebody
cares about me a little--somebody is my friend."
Somehow that thought warmed her more than the fire.
She had never had a friend since those happy,
luxurious days when she had had everything; and
those days had seemed such a long way off--so far
away as to be only like dreams--during these last
years at Miss Minchin's.
She really cried more at this strange thought of
having a friend--even though an unknown one--
than she had cried over many of her worst troubles.
But these tears seemed different from the others,
for when she had wiped them away they did not seem
to leave her eyes and her heart hot and smarting.
And then imagine, if you can, what the rest of
the evening was like. The delicious comfort of
taking off the damp clothes and putting on the
soft, warm, quilted robe before the glowing fire--
of slipping her cold feet into the luscious little
wool-lined slippers she found near her chair.
And then the hot tea and savory dishes, the
cushioned chair and the books!
It was just like Sara, that, once having found the
things real, she should give herself up to the
enjoyment of them to the very utmost. She had
lived such a life of imagining, and had found her
pleasure so long in improbabilities, that she was
quite equal to accepting any wonderful thing
that happened. After she was quite warm and
had eaten her supper and enjoyed herself for an
hour or so, it had almost ceased to be surprising
to her that such magical surroundings should be hers.
As to finding out who had done all this, she knew
that it was out of the question. She did not know
a human soul by whom it could seem in the least
degree probable that it could have been done.
"There is nobody," she said to herself, "nobody."
She discussed the matter with Emily, it is true,
but more because it was delightful to talk about it
than with a view to making any discoveries.
"But we have a friend, Emily," she said; "we have
a friend."
Sara could not even imagine a being charming enough
to fill her grand ideal of her mysterious benefactor.
If she tried to make in her mind a picture of him
or her, it ended by being something glittering and
strange--not at all like a real person, but bearing
resemblance to a sort of Eastern magician, with
long robes and a wand. And when she fell asleep,
beneath the soft white blanket, she dreamed all
night of this magnificent personage, and talked to
him in Hindustani, and made salaams to him.
Upon one thing she was determined. She would not
speak to any one of her good fortune--it should
be her own secret; in fact, she was rather
inclined to think that if Miss Minchin knew,
she would take her treasures from her or in
some way spoil her pleasure. So, when she
went down the next morning, she shut her door
very tight and did her best to look as if nothing
unusual had occurred. And yet this was rather
hard, because she could not help remembering,
every now and then, with a sort of start, and her
heart would beat quickly every time she repeated
to herself, "I have a friend!"
It was a friend who evidently meant to continue
to be kind, for when she went to her garret the
next night--and she opened the door, it must be
confessed, with rather an excited feeling--she
found that the same hands had been again at work,
and had done even more than before. The fire
and the supper were again there, and beside
them a number of other things which so altered
the look of the garret that Sara quite lost
her breath. A piece of bright, strange, heavy
cloth covered the battered mantel, and on it
some ornaments had been placed. All the bare,
ugly things which could be covered with draperies
had been concealed and made to look quite pretty.
Some odd materials in rich colors had been
fastened against the walls with sharp, fine
tacks--so sharp that they could be pressed into
the wood without hammering. Some brilliant
fans were pinned up, and there were several
large cushions. A long, old wooden box was covered
with a rug, and some cushions lay on it, so that it
wore quite the air of a sofa.
Sara simply sat down, and looked, and looked again.
"It is exactly like something fairy come true,"
she said; "there isn't the least difference. I feel
as if I might wish for anything--diamonds and bags
of gold--and they would appear! That couldn't be
any stranger than this. Is this my garret?
Am I the same cold, ragged, damp Sara? And to
think how I used to pretend, and pretend, and
wish there were fairies! The one thing I always
wanted was to see a fairy story come true. I am
living in a fairy story! I feel as if I might be
a fairy myself, and be able to turn things into
anything else!"
It was like a fairy story, and, what was best of all,
it continued. Almost every day something new was
done to the garret. Some new comfort or ornament
appeared in it when Sara opened her door at night,
until actually, in a short time it was a bright
little room, full of all sorts of odd and
luxurious things. And the magician had taken
care that the child should not be hungry, and that
she should have as many books as she could read.
When she left the room in the morning, the remains
of her supper were on the table, and when she
returned in the evening, the magician had removed them,
and left another nice little meal. Downstairs Miss
Minchin was as cruel and insulting as ever, Miss
Amelia was as peevish, and the servants were as vulgar.
Sara was sent on errands, and scolded, and driven
hither and thither, but somehow it seemed as if she
could bear it all. The delightful sense of romance
and mystery lifted her above the cook's temper
and malice. The comfort she enjoyed and could
always look forward to was making her stronger.
If she came home from her errands wet and tired,
she knew she would soon be warm, after she had
climbed the stairs. In a few weeks she began
to look less thin. A little color came into her
cheeks, and her eyes did not seem much too big
for her face.
It was just when this was beginning to be so
apparent that Miss Minchin sometimes stared at
her questioningly, that another wonderful
thing happened. A man came to the door and left
several parcels. All were addressed (in large
letters) to "the little girl in the attic."
Sara herself was sent to open the door, and she
took them in. She laid the two largest parcels
down on the hall-table and was looking at the
address, when Miss Minchin came down the stairs.
"Take the things upstairs to the young lady to
whom they belong," she said. "Don't stand there
staring at them."
"They belong to me," answered Sara, quietly.
"To you!" exclaimed Miss Minchin. "What do you mean?"
"I don't know where they came from," said Sara,
"but they're addressed to me."
Miss Minchin came to her side and looked at
them with an excited expression.
"What is in them?" she demanded.
"I don't know," said Sara.
"Open them!" she demanded, still more excitedly.
Sara did as she was told. They contained pretty
and comfortable clothing,--clothing of different
kinds; shoes and stockings and gloves, a warm
coat, and even an umbrella. On the pocket of
the coat was pinned a paper on which was written,
"To be worn every day--will be replaced by others
when necessary."
Miss Minchin was quite agitated. This was an
incident which suggested strange things to her
sordid mind. Could it be that she had made a
mistake after all, and that the child so neglected
and so unkindly treated by her had some powerful
friend in the background? It would not be very
pleasant if there should be such a friend,
and he or she should learn all the truth about the
thin, shabby clothes, the scant food, the hard work.
She felt queer indeed and uncertain, and she gave a
side-glance at Sara.
"Well," she said, in a voice such as she had
never used since the day the child lost her father
--"well, some one is very kind to you. As you
have the things and are to have new ones when
they are worn out, you may as well go and put
them on and look respectable; and after you are
dressed, you may come downstairs and learn your
lessons in the school-room."
So it happened that, about half an hour afterward,
Sara struck the entire school-room of pupils
dumb with amazement, by making her appearance
in a costume such as she had never worn since
the change of fortune whereby she ceased to be
a show-pupil and a parlor-boarder. She scarcely
seemed to be the same Sara. She was neatly
dressed in a pretty gown of warm browns and
reds, and even her stockings and slippers were
nice and dainty.
"Perhaps some one has left her a fortune," one
of the girls whispered. "I always thought something
would happen to her, she is so queer."
That night when Sara went to her room she carried
out a plan she had been devising for some time.
She wrote a note to her unknown friend. It ran
as follows:
"I hope you will not think it is not polite that I
should write this note to you when you wish to keep
yourself a secret, but I do not mean to be impolite,
or to try to find out at all, only I want to thank
you for being so kind to me--so beautiful kind, and
making everything like a fairy story. I am so
grateful to you and I am so happy! I used to be so
lonely and cold and, hungry, and now, oh, just think
what you have done for me! Please let me say just
these words. It seems as if I ought to say them.
Thank you--thank you--thank you!
"THE LITTLE GIRL IN THE ATTIC."
The next morning she left this on the little table,
and it was taken away with the other things;
so she felt sure the magician had received it,
and she was happier for the thought.
A few nights later a very odd thing happened.
She found something in the room which she certainly
would never have expected. When she came in as
usual she saw something small and dark in her chair,--
an odd, tiny figure, which turned toward her a little,
weird-looking, wistful face.
"Why, it's the monkey!" she cried. "It is the Indian
Gentleman's monkey! Where can he have come from?"
It was the monkey, sitting up and looking so
like a mite of a child that it really was quite
pathetic; and very soon Sara found out how he
happened to be in her room. The skylight was
open, and it was easy to guess that he had crept
out of his master's garret-window, which was only
a few feet away and perfectly easy to get in and
out of, even for a climber less agile than a monkey.
He had probably climbed to the garret on a tour of
investigation, and getting out upon the roof,
and being attracted by the light in Sara's attic,
had crept in. At all events this seemed
quite reasonable, and there he was; and when
Sara went to him, he actually put out his queer,
elfish little hands, caught her dress, and jumped
into her arms.
"Oh, you queer, poor, ugly, foreign little thing!"
said Sara, caressing him. "I can't help
liking you. You look like a sort of baby, but I
am so glad you are not, because your mother
could not be proud of you, and nobody would dare
to say you were like any of your relations. But I
do like you; you have such a forlorn little look
in your face. Perhaps you are sorry you are so
ugly, and it's always on your mind. I wonder if
you have a mind?"
The monkey sat and looked at her while she talked,
and seemed much interested in her remarks, if one
could judge by his eyes and his forehead, and the
way he moved his head up and down, and held it
sideways and scratched it with his little hand.
He examined Sara quite seriously, and anxiously, too.
He felt the stuff of her dress, touched her hands,
climbed up and examined her ears, and then sat on
her shoulder holding a lock of her hair, looking
mournful but not at all agitated. Upon the whole,
he seemed pleased with Sara.
"But I must take you back," she said to him,
"though I'm sorry to have to do it. Oh, the
company you would be to a person!"
She lifted him from her shoulder, set him on
her knee, and gave him a bit of cake. He sat
and nibbled it, and then put his head on one side,
looked at her, wrinkled his forehead, and then
nibbled again, in the most companionable manner.
"But you must go home," said Sara at last; and
she took him in her arms to carry him downstairs.
Evidently he did not want to leave the room,
for as they reached the door he clung to
her neck and gave a little scream of anger.
"You mustn't be an ungrateful monkey," said Sara.
"You ought to be fondest of your own family.
I am sure the Lascar is good to you."
Nobody saw her on her way out, and very soon
she was standing on the Indian Gentleman's front
steps, and the Lascar had opened the door for her.
"I found your monkey in my room," she said
in Hindustani. "I think he got in through
the window."
The man began a rapid outpouring of thanks;
but, just as he was in the midst of them, a fretful,
hollow voice was heard through the open door of
the nearest room. The instant he heard it the
Lascar disappeared, and left Sara still holding
the monkey.
It was not many moments, however, before he came
back bringing a message. His master had told
him to bring Missy into the library. The Sahib
was very ill, but he wished to see Missy.
Sara thought this odd, but she remembered
reading stories of Indian gentlemen who, having
no constitutions, were extremely cross and full of
whims, and who must have their own way. So she
followed the Lascar.
When she entered the room the Indian Gentleman was
lying on an easy chair, propped up with pillows.
He looked frightfully ill. His yellow face was thin,
and his eyes were hollow. He gave Sara a rather
curious look--it was as if she wakened in him some
anxious interest.
"You live next door?" he said.
"Yes," answered Sara. "I live at Miss Minchin's."
"She keeps a boarding-school?"
"Yes," said Sara.
"And you are one of her pupils?"
Sara hesitated a moment.
"I don't know exactly what I am," she replied.
"Why not?" asked the Indian Gentleman.
The monkey gave a tiny squeak, and Sara
stroked him.
"At first," she said, "I was a pupil and a parlor
boarder; but now--"
"What do you mean by `at first'?" asked the
Indian Gentleman.
"When I was first taken there by my papa."
"Well, what has happened since then?" said the
invalid, staring at her and knitting his brows
with a puzzled expression.
"My papa died," said Sara. "He lost all his money,
and there was none left for me--and there was no
one to take care of me or pay Miss Minchin, so--"
"So you were sent up into the garret and
neglected, and made into a half-starved little
drudge!" put in the Indian Gentleman. That is
about it, isn't it?"
The color deepened on Sara's cheeks.
"There was no one to take care of me, and no
money," she said. "I belong to nobody."
"What did your father mean by losing his money?"
said the gentleman, fretfully.
The red in Sara's cheeks grew deeper, and she
fixed her odd eyes on the yellow face.
"He did not lose it himself," she said. "He had a
friend he was fond of, and it was his friend, who
took his money. I don't know how. I don't understand.
He trusted his friend too much."
She saw the invalid start--the strangest start--
as if he had been suddenly frightened. Then he
spoke nervously and excitedly:
"That's an old story," he said. "It happens
every day; but sometimes those who are blamed
--those who do the wrong--don't intend it, and
are not so bad. It may happen through a mistake
--a miscalculation; they may not be so bad."
"No," said Sara, "but the suffering is just as
bad for the others. It killed my papa."
The Indian Gentleman pushed aside some of
the gorgeous wraps that covered him.
"Come a little nearer, and let me look at you,"
he said.
His voice sounded very strange; it had a more
nervous and excited tone than before. Sara had
an odd fancy that he was half afraid to look at her.
She came and stood nearer, the monkey clinging to her
and watching his master anxiously over his shoulder.
The Indian Gentleman's hollow, restless eyes
fixed themselves on her.
"Yes," he said at last. "Yes; I can see it.
Tell me your father's name."
"His name was Ralph Crewe," said Sara. "Captain Crewe.
Perhaps,"--a sudden thought flashing upon her,--
"perhaps you may have heard of him? He died in India."
The Indian Gentleman sank back upon his pillows.
He looked very weak, and seemed out of breath.
"Yes," he said, "I knew him. I was his friend.
I meant no harm. If he had only lived he would
have known. It turned out well after all. He was
a fine young fellow. I was fond of him. I will
make it right. Call--call the man."
Sara thought he was going to die. But there
was no need to call the Lascar. He must have
been waiting at the door. He was in the room
and by his master's side in an instant. He seemed
to know what to do. He lifted the drooping head,
and gave the invalid something in a small glass.
The Indian Gentleman lay panting for a few minutes,
and then he spoke in an exhausted but eager voice,
addressing the Lascar in Hindustani:
"Go for Carmichael," he said. Tell him to come
here at once. Tell him I have found the child!"
When Mr. Carmichael arrived (which occurred
in a very few minutes, for it turned out that he
was no other than the father of the Large Family
across the street), Sara went home, and was allowed
to take the monkey with her. She certainly did
not sleep very much that night, though the monkey
behaved beautifully, and did not disturb her in
the least. It was not the monkey that kept her
awake--it was her thoughts, and her wonders as to
what the Indian Gentleman had meant when he said,
"Tell him I have found the child." "What child?"
Sara kept asking herself.
"I was the only child there; but how had he
found me, and why did he want to find me?
And what is he going to do, now I am found?
Is it something about my papa? Do I belong
to somebody? Is he one of my relations?
Is something going to happen?"
But she found out the very next day, in the
morning; and it seemed that she had been living
in a story even more than she had imagined.
First, Mr. Carmichael came and had an interview
with Miss Minchin. And it appeared that Mr.
Carmichael, besides occupying the important
situation of father to the Large Family was a
lawyer, and had charge of the affairs of Mr.
Carrisford--which was the real name of the Indian
Gentleman--and, as Mr. Carrisford's lawyer, Mr.
Carmichael had come to explain something curious
to Miss Minchin regarding Sara. But, being
the father of the Large Family, he had a very
kind and fatherly feeling for children; and so,
after seeing Miss Minchin alone, what did he do
but go and bring across the square his rosy,
motherly, warm-hearted wife, so that she herself
might talk to the little lonely girl, and tell
her everything in the best and most motherly way.
And then Sara learned that she was to be a poor
little drudge and outcast no more, and that
a great change had come in her fortunes; for all
the lost fortune had come back to her, and a great
deal had even been added to it. It was Mr. Carrisford
who had been her father's friend, and who had made
the investments which had caused him the apparent
loss of his money; but it had so happened that
after poor young Captain Crewe's death one of the
investments which had seemed at the time the very
worst had taken a sudden turn, and proved to be
such a success that it had been a mine of wealth,
and had more than doubled the Captain's lost
fortune, as well as making a fortune for Mr.
Carrisford himself. But Mr. Carrisford had
been very unhappy. He had truly loved his poor,
handsome, generous young friend, and the
knowledge that he had caused his death
had weighed upon him always, and broken both
his health and spirit. The worst of it had been
that, when first he thought himself and Captain
Crewe ruined, he had lost courage and gone
away because he was not brave enough to face
the consequences of what he had done, and so he
had not even known where the young soldier's
little girl had been placed. When he wanted to
find her, and make restitution, he could discover
no trace of her; and the certainty that she was
poor and friendless somewhere had made him
more miserable than ever. When he had taken
the house next to Miss Minchin's he had been
so ill and wretched that he had for the time
given up the search. His troubles and the Indian
climate had brought him almost to death's door--
indeed, he had not expected to live more than a
few months. And then one day the Lascar had
told him about Sara's speaking Hindustani, and
gradually he had begun to take a sort of interest
in the forlorn child, though he had only caught a
glimpse of her once or twice and he had not
connected her with the child of his friend,
perhaps because he was too languid to think much
about anything. But the Lascar had found out
something of Sara's unhappy little life, and about
the garret. One evening he had actually crept out
of his own garret-window and looked into hers, which
was a very easy matter, because, as I have said,
it was only a few feet away--and he had told his
master what he had seen, and in a moment of
compassion the Indian Gentleman had told him to
take into the wretched little room such comforts
as he could carry from the one window to the other.
And the Lascar, who had developed an interest in,
and an odd fondness for, the child who had
spoken to him in his own tongue, had been
pleased with the work; and, having the silent
swiftness and agile movements of many of his
race, he had made his evening journeys across
the few feet of roof from garret-window to garret-
window, without any trouble at all. He had
watched Sara's movements until he knew exactly
when she was absent from her room and when
she returned to it, and so he had been able to
calculate the best times for his work. Generally he
had made them in the dusk of the evening; but
once or twice, when he had seen her go out on
errands, he had dared to go over in the daytime,
being quite sure that the garret was never entered
by any one but herself. His pleasure in the work
and his reports of the results had added to the
invalid's interest in it, and sometimes the master
had found the planning gave him something to
think of, which made him almost forget his weariness
and pain. And at last, when Sara brought home the
truant monkey, he had felt a wish to see her,
and then her likeness to her father had done the rest.
"And now, my dear," said good Mrs. Carmichael,
patting Sara's hand, "all your troubles are over,
I am sure, and you are to come home with me and
be taken care of as if you were one of my own
little girls; and we are so pleased to think of
having you with us until everything is settled,
and Mr. Carrisford is better. The excitement of
last night has made him very weak, but we really
think he will get well, now that such a load is
taken from his mind. And when he is stronger,
I am sure he will be as kind to you as your own
papa would have been. He has a very good heart,
and he is fond of children--and he has no family
at all. But we must make you happy and rosy,
and you must learn to play and run about,
as my little girls do--"
"As your little girls do?" said Sara. "I wonder if
I could. I used to watch them and wonder what it
was like. Shall I feel as if I belonged to somebody?"
"Ah, my love, yes!--yes!" said Mrs. Carmichael;
"dear me, yes!" And her motherly blue eyes grew
quite moist, and she suddenly took Sara in her
arms and kissed her. That very night, before
she went to sleep, Sara had made the acquaintance
of the entire Large Family, and such excitement
as she and the monkey had caused in that joyous
circle could hardly be described. There was not
a child in the nursery, from the Eton boy who
was the eldest, to the baby who was the youngest,
who had not laid some offering on her shrine.
All the older ones knew something of her
wonderful story. She had been born in India;
she had been poor and lonely and unhappy, and
had lived in a garret and been treated unkindly;
and now she was to be rich and happy, and be
taken care of. They were so sorry for her, and
so delighted and curious about her, all at once.
The girls wished to be with her constantly, and
the little boys wished to be told about India;
the second baby, with the short round legs, simply
sat and stared at her and the monkey, possibly
wondering why she had not brought a hand-organ
with her.
"I shall certainly wake up presently," Sara kept
saying to herself. "This one must be a dream.
The other one turned out to be real; but this
couldn't be. But, oh! how happy it is!"
And even when she went to bed, in the bright,
pretty room not far from Mrs. Carmichael's own,
and Mrs. Carmichael came and kissed her and
patted her and tucked her in cozily, she was not
sure that she would not wake up in the garret in
the morning.
"And oh, Charles, dear," Mrs. Carmichael said
to her husband, when she went downstairs to him,
"We must get that lonely look out of her eyes!
It isn't a child's look at all. I couldn't bear to
see it in one of my own children. What the poor
little love must have had to bear in that dreadful
woman's house! But, surely, she will forget it in time."
But though the lonely look passed away from
Sara's face, she never quite forgot the garret at
Miss Minchin's; and, indeed, she always liked to
remember the wonderful night when the tired
princess crept upstairs, cold and wet, and opening
the door found fairy-land waiting for her.
And there was no one of the many stories she was
always being called upon to tell in the nursery
of the Large Family which was more popular than
that particular one; and there was no one of
whom the Large Family were so fond as of Sara.
Mr. Carrisford did not die, but recovered, and
Sara went to live with him; and no real princess
could have been better taken care of than she was.
It seemed that the Indian Gentleman could not
do enough to make her happy, and to repay her for
the past; and the Lascar was her devoted slave.
As her odd little face grew brighter, it grew so
pretty and interesting that Mr. Carrisford used
to sit and watch it many an evening, as they
sat by the fire together.
They became great friends, and they used to
spend hours reading and talking together; and,
in a very short time, there was no pleasanter
sight to the Indian Gentleman than Sara sitting
in her big chair on the opposite side of the
hearth, with a book on her knee and her soft,
dark hair tumbling over her warm cheeks.
She had a pretty habit of looking up at him
suddenly, with a bright smile, and then he
would often say to her:
"Are you happy, Sara?"
And then she would answer:
"I feel like a real princess, Uncle Tom."
He had told her to call him Uncle Tom.
"There doesn't seem to be anything left to
`suppose,'" she added.
There was a little joke between them that he
was a magician, and so could do anything he
liked; and it was one of his pleasures to invent
plans to surprise her with enjoyments she had not
thought of. Scarcely a day passed in which he
did not do something new for her. Sometimes she
found new flowers in her room; sometimes a
fanciful little gift tucked into some odd corner,
sometimes a new book on her pillow;--once as
they sat together in the evening they heard the
scratch of a heavy paw on the door of the room,
and when Sara went to find out what it was, there
stood a great dog--a splendid Russian boar-hound
with a grand silver and gold collar. Stooping to
read the inscription upon the collar, Sara was
delighted to read the words: "I am Boris; I serve
the Princess Sara."
Then there was a sort of fairy nursery arranged
for the entertainment of the juvenile members of
the Large Family, who were always coming to see
Sara and the Lascar and the monkey. Sara was
as fond of the Large Family as they were of her.
She soon felt as if she were a member of it,
and the companionship of the healthy, happy
children was very good for her. All the children
rather looked up to her and regarded her as the
cleverest and most brilliant of creatures--
particularly after it was discovered that she not
only knew stories of every kind, and could invent
new ones at a moment's notice, but that she could
help with lessons, and speak French and German,
and discourse with the Lascar in Hindustani.
It was rather a painful experience for Miss
Minchin to watch her ex-pupil's fortunes, as she
had the daily opportunity to do, and to feel that
she had made a serious mistake, from a business
point of view. She had even tried to retrieve it
by suggesting that Sara's education should be
continued under her care, and had gone to the
length of making an appeal to the child herself.
"I have always been very fond of you," she said.
Then Sara fixed her eyes upon her and gave her
one of her odd looks.
"Have you?" she answered.
"Yes," said Miss Minchin. "Amelia and I have
always said you were the cleverest child we had
with us, and I am sure we could make you happy
--as a parlor boarder."
Sara thought of the garret and the day her ears
were boxed,--and of that other day, that dreadful,
desolate day when she had been told that she
belonged to nobody; that she had no home and
no friends,--and she kept her eyes fixed on Miss
Minchin's face.
"You know why I would not stay with you,"
she said.
And it seems probable that Miss Minchin did,
for after that simple answer she had not the
boldness to pursue the subject. She merely sent
in a bill for the expense of Sara's education and
support, and she made it quite large enough.
And because Mr. Carrisford thought Sara would wish
it paid, it was paid. When Mr. Carmichael paid
it he had a brief interview with Miss Minchin in
which he expressed his opinion with much clearness
and force; and it is quite certain that Miss
Minchin did not enjoy the conversation.
Sara had been about a month with Mr. Carrisford,
and had begun to realize that her happiness was not
a dream, when one night the Indian Gentleman saw
that she sat a long time with her cheek on her hand
looking at the fire.
"What are you `supposing,' Sara?" he asked.
Sara looked up with a bright color on her cheeks.
"I was `supposing,'" she said; "I was remembering
that hungry day, and a child I saw."
"But there were a great many hungry days,"
said the Indian Gentleman, with a rather sad tone
in his voice. "Which hungry day was it?"
"I forgot you didn't know," said Sara. "It was
the day I found the things in my garret."
And then she told him the story of the bun-shop,
and the fourpence, and the child who was hungrier
than herself; and somehow as she told it, though
she told it very simply indeed, the Indian Gentleman
found it necessary to shade his eyes with his hand
and look down at the floor.
"And I was `supposing' a kind of plan," said
Sara, when she had finished; "I was thinking I
would like to do something."
"What is it?" said her guardian in a low tone.
"You may do anything you like to do, Princess."
"I was wondering," said Sara,--"you know you
say I have a great deal of money--and I was
wondering if I could go and see the bun-woman
and tell her that if, when hungry children--
particularly on those dreadful days--come and
sit on the steps or look in at the window, she
would just call them in and give them something
to eat, she might send the bills to me and I
would pay them--could I do that?"
"You shall do it to-morrow morning," said the
Indian Gentleman.
"Thank you," said Sara; "you see I know what it
is to be hungry, and it is very hard when one
can't even pretend it away."
"Yes, yes, my dear," said the Indian Gentleman.
"Yes, it must be. Try to forget it. Come and
sit on this footstool near my knee, and only
remember you are a princess."
"Yes," said Sara, "and I can give buns and
bread to the Populace." And she went and
sat on the stool, and the Indian Gentleman (he
used to like her to call him that, too, sometimes,
--in fact very often) drew her small, dark head
down upon his knee and stroked her hair.
The next morning a carriage drew up before
the door of the baker's shop, and a gentleman
and a little girl got out,--oddly enough, just as
the bun-woman was putting a tray of smoking
hotbuns into the window. When Sara entered
the shop the woman turned and looked at her and,
leaving the buns, came and stood behind the counter.
For a moment she looked at Sara very hard indeed,
and then her good-natured face lighted up.
"I'm that sure I remember you, miss," she said.
"And yet--"
"Yes," said Sara, "once you gave me six buns for
fourpence, and--"
"And you gave five of 'em to a beggar-child,"
said the woman. "I've always remembered it.
I couldn't make it out at first. I beg pardon,
sir, but there's not many young people that
notices a hungry face in that way, and I've
thought of it many a time. Excuse the liberty,
miss, but you look rosier and better than you did
that day."
"I am better, thank you," said Sara, "and--and
I am happier, and I have come to ask you to do
something for me."
"Me, miss!" exclaimed the woman, "why, bless you,
yes, miss! What can I do?"
And then Sara made her little proposal, and the
woman listened to it with an astonished face.
"Why, bless me!" she said, when she had heard
it all. "Yes, miss, it'll be a pleasure to me to
do it. I am a working woman, myself, and can't
afford to do much on my own account, and there's
sights of trouble on every side; but if you'll
excuse me, I'm bound to say I've given many a bit
of bread away since that wet afternoon, just along
o' thinkin' of you. An' how wet an' cold you was,
an' how you looked,--an' yet you give away your
hot buns as if you was a princess."
The Indian Gentleman smiled involuntarily,
and Sara smiled a little too. "She looked so
hungry," she said. "She was hungrier than I was."
"She was starving," said the woman. "Many's the
time she's told me of it since--how she sat there
in the wet, and felt as if a wolf was a-tearing at
her poor young insides."
"Oh, have you seen her since then?" exclaimed Sara.
"Do you know where she is?"
"I know!" said the woman. "Why, she's in
that there back room now, miss, an' has been for
a month, an' a decent, well-meaning girl she's
going to turn out, an' such a help to me in the
day shop, an' in the kitchen, as you'd scarce believe,
knowing how she's lived."
She stepped to the door of the little back parlor
and spoke; and the next minute a girl came out
and followed her behind the counter. And actually
it was the beggar-child, clean and neatly clothed,
and looking as if she had not been hungry for a
long time. She looked shy, but she had a nice face,
now that she was no longer a savage; and the wild
look had gone from her eyes. And she knew Sara in
an instant, and stood and looked at her as if she
could never look enough.
"You see," said the woman, "I told her to
come here when she was hungry, and when she'd
come I'd give her odd jobs to do, an' I found she
was willing, an' somehow I got to like her; an'
the end of it was I've given her a place an' a home,
an' she helps me, an' behaves as well, an' is as
thankful as a girl can be. Her name's Anne--she
has no other."
The two children stood and looked at each
other a few moments. In Sara's eyes a new
thought was growing.
"I'm glad you have such a good home," she said.
"Perhaps Mrs. Brown will let you give the buns
and bread to the children--perhaps you would
like to do it--because you know what it is to
be hungry, too."
"Yes, miss," said the girl.
And somehow Sara felt as if she understood her,
though the girl said nothing more, and only stood
still and looked, and looked after her as she
went out of the shop and got into the carriage
and drove away.
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