22.11.2023 * 15:24 / designed for change & cold

My co-worker A. and I went on a lunch walk today. 
It was 4 degrees celcius, but I was wearing loads 
of layers and actually felt hot by the time we came 
back to the office. I like A. well enough, even 
though I wouldn't normally talk to a guy like that 
(too indifferent on politics because social issues 
don't affect him), but it's easy to walk and talk.

Me: It's a bit much now with knowing that everything is 
going to change, but not knowing how and when.
Him: Ikr people are not designed to deal with change.

I thought it was pretty funny the way he phrased it. He 
has no idea.
Yesterday I was too tired and hormonal and during 
yoga-class I cried, afterwards I cried on the phone to 
my sister in the bus, after that I cried in the dark on 
my bed with my stuffies, after that I cried while 
roommate F. hugged me. Today I am feeling much better 
since I went to bed on time and watched a show on the 
train instead of scrolling reals. Everybody in the 
office is glad the  rain stopped for a bit and they 
don't mind that it's getting colder instead.

This evening F. and O. are going to cook for me, ramen 
I think. Good day good day.

I don't think people are not designed to deal with 
change at all.