Ennui
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I should have never said anything. What was I thinking?!

I don't want to talk to him again.

I have been stronger this time... emotionally. If this happened 3 years ago I
probably would have gone to darkness again. Trying my best anyway.

To be honest, I am so jaded. I don't want to have anything to do with anything
pertaining to love and emotions. They just suck.

Going solo now -- just what I always like doing.

I don't work very well with others... and I guess the same applies when it
comes to love and other sh!t like it.

I am meant to be alone. It's OK. I like being alone these days. I guess it's
the direction I'm heading to as I age?

It's just annoying I got ignored after the revelation. I guess it's just
backfiring at me since I have been doing it to someone.

I'm trying my best not to break again.