Delete myself
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This is what I am feeling now.

... I just thought about it and I could not stop not thinking about it... by
trying not to think about it, it just makes me think about it more and more.

Seriously, the world is fucked up. I've been trying so hard to find the good
things and dwell in them... but they just get snatched away from me or get
buried by the bad things. The latter just gets too overwhelming to deal with.
Nothing seems helping.

Writing about this seems to make the matter worse.

I can't find any more reason t