________________________________________________________________________________  DATE : 2021.06.16
  TIME : 09:56
AUTHOR : nelliott@sdf.org
  MOOD : FINE
 TITLE : ON THE FLY KINDA GUY
 
________________________________________________________________________________All my life I've had the inability to focus on things.  I have
always needed to learn new things in fast paced manner.  I feel
like it's some type of trickery that my conscious mind is not
in on.  As things quickly approach the deadline, it becomes very
clear which things are more important than other things. The
detail of tasks begin to condense into a simpler manner. I feel
that my body has been conditioned to the adrenaline rush from
fear of missing deadlines. I've unintentionally trained myself
to come alive during the eleventh hour. I often wonder if fire
fighters have the same feeling, where they're more productive
during emergency situations, but fail to be productive in long
term things.  As I grow older I understand now that my weakness
is failing to focus on long term things, but my strength is
handling real-time chaotic events. In the IT world I fit into an
operational or development environment.
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