Tue Nov 29 03:06:26 UTC 2022


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# Location: Home
# Input Device: Voice and Keyboard
# Audio: Unknown Hum from Above
# Visual: Messy Desk
# Energy: low sleepy
# Mental: fuzzy warm
# Emotional: mellow worried a little
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Main events for today were doing laundry going to have Dolsot 
bibimbap at the Korean restaurant and going to the dentist. More 
mundane things that were good were using the to do list board 
successfully for most of the tasks. I did not do one hour of 
studying or one hour of documenting, but I blame the dentist 
appointment.    

I really find myself being frustrated and quick to anger and when 
talking to friends, it seems that perhaps I just am burned out or 
stressed. I tend to agree. It just doesn't feel like a normal 
burn out to me. I'm afraid that this might be the big one where I 
suddenly find myself looking to change careers. I've been at the 
same job same company anyway for 15 years, can I make it another 
five? I'm not making any plans, but I am definitely going to make 
the most of this Christmas break this year.

There's a special Zen or meditative state that you enter into 
when you've resigned yourself to be in pain for an extended 
period of time. I haven't gone to that place mentally several 
years. I wonder if there are people that never have gone there. I 
wonder if they're people that live there all the time.We're all 
suffering or trying to avoid suffering. After I finish getting my 
dental work done I think I'm going to talk to a dental insurance 
place and see how much it is for an individual. I suspect that of 
the people I know who need dental work if I were to offer up 
dental insurance, and to pay, I don't know a few hundred or so 
towards dental work. That might make their life better. Kind of a 
weird thing right? I don't want to inflict pain on people, but I 
do know how horrible dental pain is. 

These are my thoughts before going to sleep. Thanks for reading 
and I'll see you and com or on mastodon.

-mnw-