Maybe I should just do something that I really love,
and everything else would just fix itself.

Who am I kidding, the real problem here is my constant
need for acceptance and reward. From friends, family,
random people passing in the street.

Maybe I should just face the fact that
1. I don't really matter to people*
2. people* shouldn't really matter to me

Where people* = {x: x \in people - (friends U family)}

And then just concentrate on friends and family above.

Which doesn't solve the problem. Because having somebody
in constant need of validation and acceptance is simply
unhealthy for relationships, each and every of them.

I should learn to love me as I am; then it wouldn't be
a surprise or shock when others do. And I would maybe
lose some of my addictive personality.

And the question today is: how come you're coming back?
I left you last week and thought I had messed up
everything, yet you seem to want to see me again.

Are you messed up as I am, or am I misunderstanding the
depth of what's shaping as our relationship? In any
case, you've won the mistery award, my good lady.
And I'm learning something new.