lol well, I like to keep friendships deep and light at the same
   time if that makes any sense. I'm kind of a "service oriented"
   person: i like helping people, but I don't like to use people or
   them using me, so I try to avoid that sort of thing from either
   side tongue emoticon = Made plans long ago. it was, "if it
   happens it happens, if it doesnt it doesn't". I think I'm kind
   of a Newton - into whatever I'm into at the time, but not much
   in the relationship/marriage dept. I always figured I'd end up
   some day with someone who is compatible, was probably married
   and divorced already a few times, independent, whatever. But I
   dunno - I'm not against it, open for it, just hasn't been
   something I worry much about. There'll always be somebody out
   there for me, and me for them if I ever decide to go looking. My
   friend-pool is large enough that there's likely _somebody_ out
   there who will be like, "Wait, you? me? together? Ok!" ==
   "Are you awakened/enlightened ."
   I dunno. I'm always working on myself. Not sure if it's
   something someone can arrive at and stay there. I just keep
   trying to better myself, improve my way of thinking towards
   myself and the world. It's an ongoing challenge. I don't know I
   am compared to other ppl, so I can't say if I am or not honestly
   tongue emoticon
   ==
   *"You are the strangest guy I ever meet ever that's why it makes
   me think you might be enlightened... Don't be shy ...tell me"
   ==
   *Sometimes I see thing other ppl can't see. I don't know why
   they can't. I try to explain it as best I can. When I was 11, I
   was at a weekend campout with a youth group. I sat in a big
   wooden cabin with a fireplace - a common area. All by myself,
   late at night, tending the fire. I was studying light in school,
   and wondered, "What if there were no colors and the only way to
   distinguish objects was through their light refractions?" and
   just like that, I could see it, overlaid on reality. Through to
   the end of the Universe, zooming in and out, through my feet,
   but I could also see my feet, through the earth, to the other
   side and beyond.... It was cool - I can see it right now from
   where I am just thinking about it. I figure I just have a good
   imagination, but it was the first time I remember having that
   "omg woah" experience where I felt like I could see and
   understand everything all at once, both a part of it and
   separate from it at the same time. ['cause SOMEBODY had to be
   going, "woah" so that must be "me"]. So, that's one example. Is
   that enlightened? I dunno - I've always been easily drawn to
   mystical experience stuff.
   == "That's a technical from 112 techniques of vigyan bhairav
   tantra" "You are gifted indeed"
   "I'm not enlightened so I don't know what is it like"
   ===
   *I look at the world and I see "systems" and "processes". Like,
   if I'm at a restaurant, if I can see the kitchen, I see the
   lines of activity between them, their emotional states pop in my
   head, seeing the one guy preparing the one thing, seeing the
   food item cooking and in the stomach of the person who is going
   to eat it later, the cashier's unhappiness with her existence...
   .. stuff like that. Empathetic I guess. No idea if those things
   correspond to reality - it's just something my brain does.
   ==
   hehe - I'm not very goal oriented either tho'. Like, I don't
   really "plan" much of anything. I'm here. I deal with situations
   as they arise. I have no idea what I'm going to do until I do it
   (although I think about it just a moment before action)... I
   don't have much in the way of hopes and dreams - just a general
   positive sense about the world and everybody in, and a desire to
   comprehend it all with my heart and be able to explain it if
   someone asks. So, I dunno. I'm just "here" I guess.
   ===
   *I'd get approached and I'd figure out then what I wanted to do.
   I usually let happen whatever happens, found myself in some odd
   situations, some good and some bad. Learned as I went along. I
   could never answer that question, "Where do you see yourself in
   5 years?" I couldn't answer it in middle school. High school.
   Adult life. Still can't. I know the "secret of your future life
   is hidden in your daily routine" - that's one of my "shower
   thoughts" from when I was like 14 yrs old in the shower and I
   was like, "woah..." when the words popped in... but beyond that?
   no idea. Just whatever seemed most interesting at that moment
   and I'd decide either to run with it, or say "no thanks".
   ==
   *Hey if you got plans that you're working with, I think that's
   awesome! I guess I'm uber ADHD /hyper or something. I tried
   planning, goals, milestones. Read a great book on it once:
   "Getting Thing Done" - followed the GTD system... tried tons of
   others too. All were great systems... I just couldn't stick to
   them for more than a few months or a year at most.
   ==
   *lol I guess I kinda do too. I look around every moment of every
   day and try to imagine, "Ok. What's something NOBODY has thought
   of before?" and I try to think what that is. I used to be
   disappointed when I find I wasn't the first or only, but now I'm
   like, "Ok, good, someone else thought of it first. Now I can let
   it go and think of something else". And so, I keep going, tryng
   to avoid what's been done before and see where it leads.
   ==
   *I mean, I try other ppls stuff. Like, if I think "hey, these
   guys seem to know their stuff", I'll try it. I always learn
   something. In my religious questing phase, went through new age,
   a little buddhism, a little meditation, a little quaker, a
   little unitarian, almost ended up roman catholic, dove right
   into Eastern Orthodox, almost became a monk full time, ended up
   getting a good job somehow, became "Mr. Science" about
   everything - somehow ended up 1000 miles away from there in the
   woods with 12 ppl for 14 years now running a business for my
   brother to keep a mortgage going, talking to you right now. No
   idea why. But the experience of life is fantastic, even when
   it's bad, I always get something out of it.
   ==
   I tell ppl I'm agnostic. For me that means "I don't know". I'm
   open to possibilities. I rarely close anything off as
   "impossible" 'cause how the heck can little ol' me know
   everything? And yet, that' sone of my goals in life (I DO have
   some goal). I wanna know everything ... or rather, understand
   everything.
   ==
   *i get that sometimes. Personally? I think we all have many
   voices in our head that come from all sorts of unexpected places
   inside. We hear a bit of something, our brain sometimes pulls up
   the most interesting things and says, "Here! It was a girl's
   voice that you heard!". But then again, it could be something
   coming from the outside: someone communicating with you. The
   universe is such an amazingly awesomely full place that I'm open
   to a number of possibilities.
   ==