biochemical that's probably further fed by life situations, a
   sense of no control over ANYTHING, tired feeling like a puppet
   yet the strings hang limp because nobody's pulling your strings
   in a way that you'd like, and those that DO want to pull your
   strings are worth avoiding right now..

   I dunno. I suggest a night of melancholy music and lots of
   train-of-thought writing 'til something jumps out at you that
   seems interesting.

   Or watch old favorite chlidhood shows. I dunno - just random
   thoughts that popped up.