Well, that's where thought experiments in the form of planning
   comes into play. They can help you sort out your thoughts.

   For this, you have to be specific. Lay out every detail, and
   then the details of those details, and the details of the
   details of those details 'til you have a workable detailed plan
   that you could hand to a 10 year old kid and they could follow
   the directions. _that_ detailed.

   Two scenarios:
   a) You are forced to stay where you are. Plan every step.
   b) You've lost everywhere and MUST move to Washington with
   nothing, not even contacts. Plan every step.

   Real life has more than two options.

   But, you can switch back and forth between the two fictions,
   putting all possibilities, hopes, plans, one into each document.

   Then you have something tangible to work with, rather than
   awkward feelings.

   And... at the end of it all, you can just burn them and live
   your life however it comes at you.