I usually just want to be left alone so I can sit on my laptop
   on the porch and have conversations (I'd say "like this one",
   but this is a unique conversation never to be repeated exactly
   in the history of humanity.. .something that blows my mind on a
   regular basis) - I'm just a 43 year old guy on an ugly yellow
   chair who has egomaniac tendencies and likes putting words
   together tongue emoticon I also enjoy people from a distance,
   such as online. The idea of _really_ standing in front to lead?
   I'd have be pumped full of something just to get on stage... and
   picturing ppl in their underwear just has me laughing too hard
   to function.