'm envious, as I do not have a powerful voice nor do I tell
   stories well. At least, that is the story I tell myself. My
   confidence I find in my writing but facing a social audience
   that I can see? I manage but find the experience overwhelming
   and avoid it.

   Genius I think is certainly both arrogance and humility. And
   same here; I make it up as I go along. I don't edit my writing;
   I let it come out and "let it go", in much the same way a
   speaker can't swallow their words that were misspoken but only
   continue moving forward.