Oh I love the psychology translation - Under all of this of
   course, is my core belief/assumption that somehow it *might* be
   possible that this stuff _could_ be figured out, maybe even by
   me

   But then again. ."figured out" - figures - numbers - not
   _everything_ can translate cleanly into figures.. into numbers,
   unless the numbers are also used metaphorically, as [1]Massimo
   Melli does - representing not only the numerical but what lies
   beneath the numerical or inside of it as it were.

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