I decided, in light of what I said about the UI + music, that I
   would try *yet again* to go through the bother of learning
   trackers. I've seen and hated trackers since MOD files in the
   late 1980s/early 90s, and THEY HAVEN'T CHANGED, which for some
   reason always made me mad.

   Yet, I've become a pro at Microsoft Excel through the years.

   I NEVER REALIZED until going through an instructional video for
   Buzz (an old freeware tracking/sequencing software that I want
   to play with), that TRACKERS ARE SPREADSHEETS

   I feel so *stupid*. I'm a pro with spreadsheets. Why I NEVER
   made the connection in all these years I'll never know, but at
   least I figured it out now.

   [the video didn't say they're like a spreadsheet... I was just
   watching the tutorial and I was like... woah, it's like a REALLY
   PRIMITIVE spreadsheet] I downloaded a version of it a while
   back. I liked it... but I've got an ancient bias and here's
   where I've been weird for a long time:

   Last time I was _really successful_ at merging my love of
   computers, programming, and music was when I was like 12 years
   old, using a special music cartridge that did 5 voice sound
   called Orchestra 90CC for my "plugs into the TV set" Tandy Color
   Computer 2.. I programmed all the sound patterns, the music,
   created a bunch of music, which Young Ken was smart enough to
   save way back in 1984-7.

   Then I had further success in the late 80s with some 3 -voice
   thing on my Tandy 1000 computer (my first "PC")

   But then, ADULTHOOD/RESPONSIBILITY/BULLSHIT came up. I saw mod
   trackers, found the whole format annoying, tried learning
   them... gave up... they wouldn't go away.

   So, every computer software I see for making music has
   gazillions of controls, I have _no_ MIDI setup and just never
   wanted to go into that world. To me, it was just fancier version
   of the style I couldn't stand.

   So, ,computer stuff stayed with computer stuff. Music stuff
   stayed with whatever playable instruments I could find/make
   (analog) - although I do love messing directly with sound
   files/wavs/MP3s in audacity.

   Anyway... yeah - I gotta get over my cognitive bias and stop
   making excuses.