Iain Taylor: What does having integrity mean to you physically,
   personally and socially? Kenneth Udut Physically? I like having
   a close enough balance in proteins, carbs and fats. No specific
   numbers, just a 'sense' that started with numbers. Oh wait -
   yeah it is numbers Over 50g protein (75g-100g max), try to keep
   carbs under 60g a meal or under 30g per snacks and if I have
   saturated fat, I make sure I have some unsaturated fat during
   the day. I try to not have excessive salt but drink extra water
   when I do to "spread it out". [I dont need salt-caves in me]...
   and I try to avoid white flour and sugar but they're not
   demonized - I'll still eat them. Personally? That's the feeling
   or emotion of integrity right? Integrity feeling comes from
   staying close to my methodology of internal thought processes.
   How it's produced rather than results. Brutal honesty with
   myself as well as lying to myself are each acceptable to my
   integrity as I've never found a way to entirely eliminate
   self-lying. Sugar-coating/spin within my own mind is included in
   integrity and when I harm myself by excessive brutality via
   excess precision (beyond what I'm capable of), then I have lost
   my integrity. Integrity also means keeping to my own pace,
   following my own music as it were. Very difficult in practice as
   the world pulls me to and fro at slower and faster rates than
   I'd like. Social integrity? I want people to like me, so I give
   them what I think they want from me, which is validation (and
   that includes debating and arguing if I think they're wrong
   because that treats them as equals) with contrition and
   compliance with an eye to making a friend in the end. I'm
   emotionally expressive in my writing yet also know I lecture and
   am long and boring, but brevity is only sometimes a mark of
   integrity for me. Brevity is more of a game; how to fit the most
   concepts in the least amount of words and hoping the listener
   unravels my package of words correctly. So there you go. I never
   knew the answer to that question until now, and so now, I know
   myself a little better now. That's at the core of my integrity:
   knowing the world better through knowing myself better. If I'm
   moving away from that as my goal, then I've moved away from
   what's integral to me. I don't mean integral in a literal
   mathematical sense, although come to think about it, perhaps it
   *is* literal and mathematical. O_O Personal Integrity shortened:
   Protect the young Kenneth Udut (pre-3rd Grade) from the
   activities, thought processes and emotional activities of the
   3rd Grade-and-beyond Kenneth Udut and educate him about
   everything I experience. He needs protection and a *proper*
   education (which only his older self can give) because 2nd grade
   was horrible and I had no idea what was going on. Been taking a
   lifetime to explain it all to him. December 9, 2014