Miracles I've Seen Okay! So I stole. I was desperate, okay? I deeply regret what I did and have learned that no matter how hard life gets we have to keep trying harder and not be tempted. You have to admit it was a brilliant piece of work; contracts, enticements, dodges and set-ups. It wasn't illegal but it wasn't right. Just an opportunity to take advantage of some people who didn't see their mistake. It wasn't the money. It was the intellectual challenge that tempted me. I've returned all the property and have found more socially cohesive ways to invest my limited intellect. Nonetheless I did something I regret and will never do again, I stole. The one thing I do regret, and you're going to think I'm crazy, is that I stopped dreaming about flying. Up until I stole I always had these beautiful dreams where I would just lift up and fly. It's not uncommon for people to fly in their dreams and most say how wonderful of an experience it was. Mine were the same. I'd be solving problems, discovering new places, seeing the city from a different point of view, the air and more. It's hard to describe just how beautiful the flying dream experiences were, but they were real and I always woke up wondering 'why can't we do something as simple as fly'. But there you have it. I was an honest, hard working, kind, conscientious, church raised citizen until the day I stole. I've always believed in God and Jesus and that the social fabric of the Christian way of life was necessary for our great country to survive. But there you have it. I belayed that trust and I can no longer fly, in my dreams. What happened? Do angels who love us very much, our guardian angels, show us how to fly in our dreams, how to anticipate the best, how to dream for the most we can be, how to get the look up and always look at the best. Did my guardian angel become so disgusted with me when I stole, that he left. He could no longer stand to be around one who committed such a grievous sin and break one of the ten commandments: thous shalt no steel. I dearly miss the ability to fly in my dreams. There was so much hope. So much good. I pray for forgiveness. Now it's thirty years later. My eyes have been opened to see miracles around me. Subtle things, little things. You wouldn't notice them if you hadn't of had some recourse in miracles. They're so subtle. Many people would not believe they are miracles and label me as crazy if I say so, but how can we deny it. These are true out and out miracles given by gentle beings that, I believe, don't want any recognition. Their compassion is beyond my understanding. They are gentle, humble and provide these miracles in the sincerest of forms that only a true believer would recognize them as miracles and those who don't want to see them don't have have to. The first miracle I noticed was when my father died. He had bone cancer, but he died without any bones breaking other than the first one, his collar bone, which led us to take him to the doctor's office where we discovered he had bone cancer. His bones were riddled with holes. It's a scary diagnosis, but somehow, he lived the next seven months of his life without breaking any more bones. Praise the Lord. I wouldn't wish that tribulation on anyone and I'm so thankful, my father, who sacrificed so much for me and mine, lived in comfort. There was a whole series of miracles preceding his death. He didn't have to take morphine. We were deathly afraid of morphine and my father expressed a concern for his cognitive ability if he took it. Hospice was coming out to the house to help take care of my father and their primary take was morphine. They strongly recommended he take it. We debated the issue. Some family members wanted him to take, others didn't. Some of the hospice nurses got donw right angry. We won out had he didn't, until the last couple of days when he had a very diluted trial dosage. Amazingly, and this is probably the miracle, he kept cognitive ability to the end and was able to use an over the counter pain killer instead. Another miracle involving my Dad was that he was diagnosed to be loosing his site a few years prior but never lost it. He had also had high blood pressure that went away. Miracles that have affected me are probably less obvious. I've learned to forgive people. I've been given a reprieve on my health a couple of times, I think to be able to help my parents in their declining years. Something happened the other day that just astounds me. I live in a trailer surrounded by trees. Wind storms are scary. A couple of years ago, 2006, we had a second only to the Columbus Day storm wind event that took out power and roads for a week. I'm very fortunate to have made it this far in this location without a tree taking out my trailer while I'm inside possibly. So we had a storm brewing in the pacific, a couple of weeks ago, in October (2016). The forecasts were definite. NOAA, the weather stations, local TV and radio all predicted that path of this record breaking wind storm right up to the last minute. And then for no reason at all, fifty miles off the coast, the storm took a forty five degree turn and headed North. The weather forecasters were bewildered. Even one mentioned he had never seen anything like this, and they were all absolutely sure, up until a couple of hours before the diversion that we would be hit by this storm. I'm not an expert meteorologist, but I enjoy the data, and I was perplexed. Thinking back on it it was an amazing weather event, looking at the satellite pictures and all, it was as if an Angel came down and stood there to divert this storm to protect some individual or many in our area. kbushnel.sdf-us.org/contact.html