I haven't been feeling great for the past few days. Two days ago,
particularly, was bad; I felt very nauseated most of the morning and was
having some bad mental health stuff going on. I collapsed/fell two or three
times, and at one point just laid on the floor and stared behind my stove for
a few minutes in contempt before bothering to get up. I'm not sure what spun
it on -- I guess just built-up stressors. For the most part I was still
*functional* at least and managed to get all of my clothes washed, which was
nice. It just makes me still worry about what I'm ready for or not ready for.
Just, oof. Big ol' oof.

I'm thinking about trying my hand at writing a text adventure or some small
game for the Altair in 8080 assembler, and I bought a CP/M manual on eBay so I
can more easily flip through the pages and try and understand how to
implement the CP/M libraries in my code (for file reads, especially, as well
as some other things). I'm not really sure if I'm skilled enough to pull it
off, lol, but I'm going to try and make something. My main problem is trying
to use ED (different from the Unix ed). It's an editor designed to work on
either a teletype or a terminal, which basically means it's a PAIN to work
with. Backspace does nothing but confuse the editor, and I *still* haven't
figured out how the heck to reload a file properly. I did manage to write a
few small program using it, but honestly, even though it's majorly cheating, I
might just write my programs in Vim and then import them to the Altair via PIP
lol. But hopefully I won't have to do that, and I'll learn ED like a good boy.
Heheheh. (Or, maybe, hopefully, someone out there has written an
8080-compatible implementation of Vim; I'll have to look into that...)

I honestly wasn't expecting the Altair project to get near as much attention
as it did lol (and Sector Disk to get as little as it did ^^;...), but I'm
happy about the fact that it has. I might actually have to decrease the
canvas size of the stream a bit, since I already had to up my internet plan a
bit more a month because I was getting *dangerously* close to my 300gb
bandwidth cap (which is now 600gb). I had a small brain fart when calculating
the max bandwidth that the stream would use and didn't realize OBS was
measuring in kbps instead of bps, so, yeah, whoooops. Glad I checked my
account portal. (In case you're from a more reasonable country and don't
realize what I'm talking about, American internet providers limit the total
amount of data you can use on your home internet connection unless you pay out
the a**, and the limit is usually pathetically low. We also have almost zero
competition in most non-urban areas, so there are also very few service plans
to actually choose from - limiting the speeds we can get a ridiculous amount
:)! Check out my rant on Mastodon about this).

I really, *really* want to build a new computer, but that is unfortunately out
of my unemployed (and not-profiting) budget right now. I do *need* to do it,
eventually, and get myself better beefed up for all the stuff I'm putting out
(livestream and two yoonix systems with websites/gopher holes/other services,
plus I use the server machine for web browsing and some games since it's
faster than my main desktop PC). Just... woof. I'd really love to make money
doing different vintage computing projects out of my living room and be able
to build all the stuff that I want to build and get people interested, and
y'know, I'm trying. Just gotta keep at it, and succeed eventually :p
(Hopefully before those savings run out)

Well, I'm awful sleepy, so I think I'm going to call it a night (it's 3am
central time). I started writing a phost the other day but ended up never
finishing it. Maybe it'll get found, someday lol.

Goodnight, everyone!