Do I have nightmares she asked. Should I? 

Killing animals is part of my job. But I do wonder if it exacts a 
toll. The rabbits are the most visceral. The only live dispatch. With traps 
and bait there is a disconnect. It is the poison that kills, it the 
trap that kills. Not me. But at the rabbit job it is me that kills. I 
take the rabbit in my hands and kill it. A sudden act of controlled violence. 
Swift and brutal. I look it in the eyes as it expires. I think when I 
can't do that, I need to find another job. 

Or when I start having nightmares.