### Date: 10/01/2022
### Time: 10:00pm
### Device: Abulafia.portable
### Location: A.

2021 closed with a... well kind of a bang. New year's eve I was in the taxi to the airport and I remember pushing my head against the glass. During the past couple of months I went through a lot, where do I start: my relationship deteriorating, my mom having an accident, my dad's health deteriorating, and covid: what a disastrous life-limiting factor that is.

I've spent Christmas taking care of my parents and helping them recover, visiting doctors, most weird Christmas of my life. I couldn't even see friends due to fear of covid. Maybe I never appreciated what I had but I miss the freedom and I miss the feeling that everyone is well and good and having a good time.

I was sleeping in my old room: my parents have kept practically everything, among other things a 386 computer and a dot matrix printer + numerous old magazines, books, notes, my God I threw away so many things (but kept a few as well). It was a bit like stepping back in time.

I have quited smoking for probably good 15 years but I started having a mini cigar now and then. I miss smoking so much and having a cigar now and then helps me cope with things. There is nothing better than a smoke together with coffee.

Today L. came over after a few days apart. I had missed her. She is such a big part of me.