She came back
let's do therapy 
instead 

Sure, I though...
but it's not good
I feel irritated

She said the words
but I though these
words for many years

The many time 
she told me 
she wanted 
to leave me

The many time
my heart was
broken 

This time
although I might
be able to 
glue it all together
it won't hold
for too long

My mom is home less
I received her here
a few days ago 

Her bank account frozen
I lend her money so she
could cross Canada

She live in my studio 
at the moment 
She wanted to come
live with us 
She has dream of a 
happy family 
re-united with
her son and her grandchild

She too threw me out
when I was 13
She chose her boyfriend
over her son 
Like some many divorced
couple

I've created quite
the pattern 
over the years

Now my ex-wife 
wants my mother out
My ex wants to live
here with me as we
'figure things out'

I'm stuck between 
an ex-wife that wants
to leave me
and a mother that
once kicked me out
of my home

I told my daugther 
that we'll have to
move out of the house
by the end of the summer

"Thank God"
she answered
Everyone wants
out of this reality
that I've created
not for me but for 
them

I want to vomit
I am sick in my stomach
I want out too
And for now
I'll just go
in front of... 

Drying my tears
my mother 
is coming up
I need to leave
I need to run