Since my ex left the house it's been
busier than normal. Neighbour visiting 
because his water line was broken, wood
guy delivery, different people showing up
at my house. 2 days ago my land lord showed
up, unannounced, wanting to work on the
property. 

[landlord rant]

I hosted him, I fed him, I helped him
on his work, I listen to all of his 'great'
accomplishment, and he still was an insulting
character. I mean he was insulting in a 
polite way, like people who think they are 
superior will do. It doesn't matter your
status, how much money you have in your
bank, if you're miserable, and haven't
dealt with your daddy issue, you're still
an asshole. He was not very aware, not 
compassionate, I couldn't believe how in this
moment I saw him for what he was. A little
boy who will never be enough, digging his
own grave with his bare hand, hoping someone
will celebrate his suffering. A lack of 
love, when you are a kid, will screw your 
whole life. 

Anyway, he left yesterday, that was a relief. 
With orders to get the house ready for the
15, as he's visiting and he would feel 
really bad if his wife wouldn't be comfortable.
But of course that is unsure, there is a 
probability he won't be there.

[/end of landlord rant]

(I really dislike this word btw, land lord... my ass yeah)

On a better note, my cat come and sleep
with me in my hammock, it is really cute. 
She curl herself at my feet, all warm and
cozy. I like spending time with her, it's 
the most stable element of my life right now.

I don't have a bed yet, but the hammock living
has been more than comfortable. It's really
healing. Not the most practical if I want 
to bring a date home, but that might never
really happens. 

A new season start, karate, theatre, meditation, 
Butoh... I am not sure how much of everything
I will be doing. Theatre being the most important
as I am directing, I feel I might be flaky 
with the rest of my activities as I will be
with my daughter half the time and I'd rather 
hang out with her, for now. We might get into 
a routine though... We'll see, it's a new
world!