the cat 
caught a bat
like mice
from the sky

ants and bug
ready to feast

I was afraid
of loosing myself
to her

completely
ruining 
my life

and then 
nothing

nothing but her
in my car 
laughting 
and gigling

nothing
just me
and my fears
disolving

teaching me
unknowingly
the shadows
the folies

and now
nothing
emptyness

this void
like a cloud
so familiar
comforting

a path
not taken

a path
that never
existed

I am back
in my tippi
naked 
alone
and content

I can stare
into the void
once again

Wait for the dream
wait for the sleep
and explore reality

one more victory
one more shadow
metling to my side