!Breathing Hole cave hurt me
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agk's diary 
20 February 2024 @ 04:17 UTC
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written on GPD Win 1 & ThinkPad X61 w/model m&vf15
in living room while daughter naps and kitchen as
she monologues, sings, and climbs all over me
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Last month I tagged along with Bloomington Indiana
Grotto and Central Indiana Grotto on a trip down 
into Breathing Hole Cave. Breathing Hole is in
Harrison-Crawford Forest in southern Indiana, in
the Wyandotte Caves area. Nate, the trip leader,
handled the DNR permit. My famous 3-year-old sat
this one out at the campsite with some friends, and
good thing she did!

About 19 of us suited up and headed out into the
woods, off-trail, over a couple small ridges. A
couple cavers opted to not go, because the cave's
mean. "Mean?" I thought. "I'm a tough, wild-assed
caver. How mean can it be?" A couple hours later I
learned how mean.

The entrance is an unassuming meter-wide hole in
in the forest floor, a little tighter than a
manhole in a city street. We moved down slowly, 
sweating, over ledges, down short drops, through
squeezes. We passed packs (but didn't rock any),
encouraged people behind us to put their foot
somewhere good, and paused often.

During the pauses as we all slowly wormed our way
down 50 meters, I got some of the cave's story.
Supposedly a caver was obsessed with it for the
better part of a decade, when it was a hole in the
ground that didn't go very deep at all. A cigarette
held over the hole showed bilateral air movement,
in and out, indicating some huge passages somewhere
down there.

So, the story I was told goes, the maniac dug and
and dug, for years and years, assisted by whoever
would help. All the shelves and drops, squeezes,
and crawls we descended between 50 meters of what
looked to me like big seperate rocks, connected
only by dirt and mud, were dug.

The descent took a while before it got cave-cold. I
run hot, even in my sleeveless spandex top, and
found myself dreaming of the cold water and smooth
walls in Mullins Springs cave as I descended 
between jagged rock after jagged rock. But the cave
had not yet been mean to me. That came later.

The slow clambering descent through what I can only
think to call breakdown ended in a horizontal
stream passage big enough to easily walk. Most
people opted to stay out of the ankle-deep water as
much as possible, but anybody in DUG knows my
dolphin ass stayed in it.

The stream deepened to 30 cm or a half meter, 
usually with a sandy bank or breakdown to walk on.
It was always full of big jagged rocks. The rocks
didn't break square, but into horrible dagger-like
wedges, like Imperial Star Destroyers from Star
Wars. I splashed on, banging my shins on those
shitty rocks but enjoying the cold water.

The stream passage frequently split into upper and
lower passages. Eighteen people clambered up over
the jagged breakdown at these points. I dolphined 
down under it, and shook the water out of my ear
each time I came up. 

After a couple of these, I figured I could race the
people above me. Shin-banging intensified, and
became increasingly painful. Once or twice someone
followed me through the water under one of these
breakdown bifurcations. Gosh, I was a hot-shot.

Lesson of the day: just 'cause you can do something
in a cave creek with a sandy or pebbly bottom don't
mean you can do it in a cave creek full of thousand
kilogram pointy things that want to hurt you.

The passage opened up into a series of cavernous
rooms, with steep mud slides to perilously slip 
down and slip and slide up. The walls, jagged rocks
emerging from the mud, and the mud itself were
encrusted with glittering gypsum crystals, needle-
sharp. We moved single-file through the huge 
auditorium of a room, to disturb the crystals as
little as possible.

We'd been in the cave two or three hours. I started
slowly realizing I had a problem, possibly bad. My
left ankle ached like I'd sprained or strained it.
Each step was worse than the last. I wracked my
brain, but couldn't remember landing wrong. Just
those dagger-like rocks hiding under the water, the
water that no longer iced my ankle, as we'd left it
behind.

We stopped for lunch in the hugest room yet. Not an
auditorium, a stadium. There were a few spectacular
pillars, stalagmites and stalactites, including
some that charged under UV light and glowed in the 
dark. There was a waterfall, and a snake skeleton
more than twenty years old.

I told Nate I'd hurt my ankle, and expected I'd
need some help getting out. We couldn't come up
with any splint ideas better than just leaving my
boot on. "Well," Nate said. "If this turns out to
be your last cave trip, you really can't be buried 
deeper for cheaper!"

The way out just got tougher for me over time. Each
limping step hurt more than the previous. I hurt
too much to do any hot-shotting. At key points the
bunch in the front stopped and waited for Nate, 
Springtime, and the rest of the group that stayed
with me. I kept my foot in the cool water when I
could, and envied Springtime's new kneepad/shin
protectors.

My slow pace allowed others to find wildlife, the
coolest of which were a number of blind fish.
Finally we were back at the bottom of that jagged,
tight, long 50 meter climb, one by one, back to the
surface. Everybody's pace slowed. My three points
of contact meant I didn't really need my bad foot
much.

Sometimes I could keep moving with just three
limbs. Sometimes the knee above the ankle came into
play. But that ankle couldn't tolerate any weight
by this point. I couldn't push with it. A few spots
that meant I lay for a while and thought, tried a
lot of approaches with pauses between each and 
a few people below and above me offering
encouragement or suggestions til I managed inch by
inch to continue.

I wasn't the only one. Another member of our party
got stuck at the tightest part of the ascent for 
at least 20 minutes. I rested on my back, foot
propped higher than my heart, singing softly for
pain control, appreciating the indefinite break til
a few cavers who'd scampered up to him finally got
him through.

The last five meters the cave was sucking in 
cigarette smoke. The movement of air was really
dramatic. When everybody else took off back
through the trailless woods, Springtime and Nate
hung back with me. I leaned on Springtime and a
stick and yelped a lot. Nate kept us smiling as we
blundered our way slowly back to the cars.

That was when I finally got a look at my foot, and
got to poke and prod and wiggle my way into a guess
of what to do to help it heal. The biggest thing,
other than awful pain when it bore weight, was it
wanted to drop. I had to consciously use my muscles
to keep my toes from drooping. There was blunt
trauma all over the shin. I figured I'd bruised
stuff that loses function when bruised: a tendon or
ligament, a nerve, or damaged a muscle.

Back at camp, my old friends from Indianapolis
who'd been watching my daughter, Springtime, and I
went through a dozen revisions of a homemade
orthopedic boot to stabilize my ankle and prevent
foot drop. The final one's foot support was a 
child's board book extended with some scrap
cardboard and wrapped in duct tape. The vertical 
ankle support was a flexible cutting board from the
dollar store, a sock, and a bunch more duct tape.

It was possible to get the boot off when my foot
needed to breathe, but I mostly kept it on, took
Ibuprofin, and stayed off it as much as possible
the rest of the night and the next day, with a LOT
of help from my friends. I had to skip the Sunday
morning cave trip, very slowly broke camp, and 
yelped as I drove home every time that foot had to
engage the clutch to shift gears.

At work I called in sick and managed to get a week
of light-duty accomodations. I was mostly out of
the boot in 4 days, and mostly out of ace wraps,
linaments, and pain in two weeks. A month later I
still have a nodule below the skin two-thirds of
the way up my shin, where Breathing Hole kissed me.

It's best to keep your boot on while you evacuate an 
ankle injury. They swell, the boot's a good splint,
and what comes off may not go back on. Once
evacuation's complete, somebody reasonably qualified
should assess it. I host a good assessment guide at
agk.sdf.org/lib/cse that can jog the memory. When
in doubt get high-tech assessment and further care.

I can't be entirely certain what happened, since I
ruled out really bad stuff so decided to skip the
high-tech assessment. The hospital would have given
me a more definite diagnosis, but their care would
have been the same as what my friends helped me
improvise in the woods.

Breathing hole was beautiful, if mean. My friends
made up for it with an abundance of care. Next time
I guess I'll be more careful.