!Fourth covid winter --- agk's diary 9 Jan 2023 @ 15:58 UTC --- started on GPD Win 1 via PuTTY in living room Evy works, daughter plays with scrabble tiles under record playing southern US traditional songs finished in bed feeling sick before work --- At playground while first daughter climbed, slid, Evy said "I can't stop thinking about one woman I bodybagged last winter. I think about her at least once every week. I guess her mouth had been full of secretions. When I turned her...." Evy wants to work closer to home. Every hospital's short-staffed but not hiring days or replying to applicants. I read somewhere administrators are preparing for recession, not replacing attrition. Masks aren't manditory in my hospital anymore. I asked if I could have one to wear against the leading edge of the XBB1.2 "Kraken" variant from New York. Only Santa Claus masks. When gone, no more. Bring your own or whatever. Clinical staff out with covid from most every unit. Extensive endothelial injury causes multi-organ failure without acute respiratory distress. Spike proteins scratched up everybody's vasculature; young dead of heart stuff. New Yorker cover story ridicules dirty superstitious people who still mask. Covid's long been officially over. Yet everyone's sick again. Cassie has covid for the third time. Evy's family Christmas party, postponed into new year by weather was hosted by covid+ cousin, apologetic in mask, psych nurse married to plastic surgeon. Her mask justified, the only one. Stopped by Bugz' house after dark, lights out; she's covid+. Evy woke Sunday from a nightmare: last winter's Delta wave, couldn't remember details to tell; couldn't shake the anger. In church, concerns: retired teacher & city council member seriously ill with something undiagnosed diverted to a hospital in another city. Grandmother with covid turned away from emergency, sent home because "we're full." Prayers for families of members who died this week. Elderly parishioner stands: thank you all for prayers & cards these last 2 months. I was very, very sick. I'm weak. My recovery'll take a long time. It wasn't covid, but you don't want it.