!Photographs
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agk's phlog 
23 June 2021 @ 0046
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written on Pinebook Pro late at night
after a long motorcycle ride
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I read a few recent gopher log entries about photo-
graphy by Holorose, Undo, Free Thinker, and Alex 
Schroeder. They commented particularly about smart-
phone cameras. 

One of the first ways my now-spouse showed me 
affection was by taking pictures of me on her now-dead 
iPhone. The pictures were the first time I consistently 
saw myself as beautiful in photos. I abused the 
privileged access to mech room keys my job gave me to 
take her to restricted places. Later I saw myself in 
her photos, glancing over a shoulder at her from a 
belltower in a flowered skirt or in teal in the 
telescope dome, laughing, hoping, obviously in love, 
radiant.

Today she tried to buy batteries for her old DSLR 
camera at the Best Buy so we can take photos of the 
baby. There were none in stock. None at Walmart either. 
She's been trying to get the batteries for a while.

I have albums in black and white from the 1950s of mom's 
parents. Unfortunately dad's mom scanned all her photos 
and slides. They're lost to me now, except a few albums 
from the '70s and '80s I saved from the trash.

The wedding photographer showed up so late to my wedding 
that we don't have professional wedding photos, just 
candids dad took on his DSLR and gave us on a compact 
flash card. I guess he also put some on facebook and 
emailed them to relatives. Grandpa had inkjet printouts 
of two of dad's favorites on his desk when we visited.

I can't take photos with my old Nokia dumbphone. I 
like it that way. I was always annoyed by dad's seeing 
double--through eyes and camera. When Evy photographed 
me during our courtship, though, she made love to me with 
her iPhone camera, wordlessly showing how she saw me.