20241024-frustration.txt

I've been stressed out lately. I backdated two glog entries that I
wrote prior to today when I didn't have the opportunity to ssh into
this space. 

Part of it is aggravation of my commute. Part of it is aggravation
with my end users not doing what they're obligated to do. I'm thinking
a big part of it is that I'm a massive FSU football fan and they're on
their way to yet another historic low point...1-6 right now with 5
games left and none of them seem like slam dunk wins. I've loved them
since before I really understood football, and to be honest, being an
FSU fan the past 10-11 months has been nothing but heartbreak and
agony.

I told some friend overseas about it. She asked why I didn't root for
another team. It's hard to explain sports fandom to people who have no
clue, but I basically told her real fans are fans even when the team
is at its worst. It's just mind-blowing how simple mistakes happen
every single time. The worst part is our defense is actually pretty
decent. It's just that our offense is so horrendously bad that it
wears out our decent/good defense or puts them in impossible
situations. Good freaking luck stopping a team that starts with the
football inside your 20...

I think the worst part is we came off a historic season: we went 13-1
and should have been in the playoffs. I won't get into that because it
still hurts me. And we were told all throughout the offseason that we
were going to have another good team this year: 10 wins, easy. Best
case scenario right now is 7-6: we'd have to win every single game
from here on out and win a bowl game...just to finish above .500. It
really, really sucks to think about it. Football season is usually the
one time I get to enjoy most Saturday nights, but this season even the
win was just horrible and hard to watch or celebrate.

Also I'm just freaking lonely sometimes. I hate being alone sometimes.