Just throw the coffee away

July 26th 2024
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(I know this is posting on the 27th but it was my diary entry for the 
26th)

It's been a weird day, the kind that feel like time just started 
slipping away from me.

I woke up really early and had such trouble waking up that I ended up 
making a Way Too Strong pot of coffee and, being thoroughly grossed out 
by it but afraid of wasting things, ended up drinking it all so no one 
else had to have any.

So I kiiiiiinda made myself sick from that and just exhausted and too 
keyed up to concentrated for most of the day

I did, however, continue learning forth and had a few breakthroughs 
because I hadn't really understood how to make data structures with 
judicious use of 'here' or ',' &c. or how to do higher-order functions.

The experience I've been having with forth is that I'll feel nuts 
figuring out how to do something and then it turns out it's like six 
words I just had to get myself to think the right way about it first.

It's fun!

Now I just need a real project to do in it

I'm torn because on one hand I want to put together an oldschool 
roguelike in forth but if I start with an implementation like gforth I'm 
gonna have to implement a bunch of library code first and that would be 
cool, would help other people, but also sounds kinda boring

on the other hand there's making my own tic80-like with my own forth and 
that sounds fun but will be less useful to other people (probably?)

I suppose the secret third thing is adding a forth to actual tic80 then 
anyone could use that?

...aaand I suppose that option also has the advantage of letting me dig 
into the guts of an actual fantasy console to understand how it's put 
together better so I don't just reinvent wheels

huh

think I talked myself into something here

Other than that I actually went to the neighborhood bar with its huge 
outdoor patio and had a drink for the first time in ???

I'm not a teetotaler I just, over the pandemic, became a person who 
doesn't really drink

but it was nice to appreciate the cool summer evening air and just put 
down all the anxiety for a couple of hours

a weird day, but not a bad one

next time though I'll just dump out the bad coffee