2024-11-15-15:38:27-Friday-4 ~inquiry ------------------------------------------------------------------ ### 2024-11-15-15:38:27-Friday-4 Okay, worked out lots of chords for the bass player, rehearsed with one vocalist. Two more to go this evening. Grandson was over for a bit. Weird day, although in part due to subdued lighting outdoors until mid-afternoon, when the clouds let the sun through. But, you know, sun be lower than where it seemed it was going to stay forever for a while there. Tomorrow we depart for some adventure with wife friends and their husbands, which includes hearing an old mostly 70s rock band, and possibly some craps table action. I mostly just want it to be over with. But others seem to have tremendous difficulty simply being happy: they gotta be elsewhere, or doing something that they currently aren't, or just basically anything other than here and now. Poor things.... ### 2024-11-15-06:54:55-Friday-3 So, wow, the joy is back! I had a modicum of leftovers to accompany the downing of vitamins and a couple "baby aspirin", then got with a piece of dark chocolate, and some of yesterday's coffee (my wife often doesn't finish the pot, and I've actually come to prefer room temperature - and even cold - coffee). And it's glorious!!! So, wow... should this lead to fixing whatever's been ailing the living shit out of my upper left ass, well... glory be. Online has become better again, between this place, the personal blog (that mostly echos what I post here), and then the pleasantly interactive Blue Dwarf. Now if only I could remember that "nothing's perfect", right? Perfection idolatry is such manic misery. One thing I wish I could rectify, though. Early on in my Blue Dwarf experience, someone came really hard at me with claims of my being a "troll". Well, I wasn't. And the site owner/moderator agreed, somewhat chiding the other. I let it go, and it honestly didn't bother me. But that person stopped posting. And then I had the odd experience of realizing it was someone who, independently of Blue Dwarf, I'd email'd in the past in order to praise and thank them for their blog. So... I wanted to make amends through Blue Dwarf's private messaging facility... but it turns out they'd deleted their account - I imagine due to the fallout they experienced due to their "troll" accusation. So now I'm agonizing over whether to email them again, explain the whole thing, and it hopefully leads to some chuckles, and our going forward maybe being occasional correspondents. BUT... (yes, that was brakes screeching you heard)... my GOSH how sensitive people have become, so... I dunno. Maybe it's just best to let it go utterly, continue enjoying their blog posts, and taking the whole "troll" incident as a sign that ongoing interaction wasn't meant to be...? ### 2024-11-15-06:11:48-Friday-2 It hit me that a possible gateway for me to greater inflammation was backing off coffee about half a year ago. I was getting tired of feeling like an addict, especially having to find "a fix" in late afternoons when out and about, or possibly suffer the sore neck and/or headache of withdrawal. But now that I've been reading more on what causes/reduces inflammation, I'm wondering if maybe higher coffee intake was silently cutting me a break? As usual, "information" I've found is contradictory. But it leans more in the direction of coffee reducing inflammation than the opposite. Needless to say, I'm excited to embarked on verifying that possibility, as I absolutely love coffee. ### 2024-11-15-05:38:52-Friday-1 After reading a few things on the topic of inflammation, I had some dark chocolate and a couple "baby" aspirin last night, and definitely feel better in the most afflicted areas this morning. Much hope. I wriggled out of grandson babysitting today (read: wife will be doing it alone). It's not that I don't enjoy aspects of it. But today would constitute twice in the same week, and that's feeling like too much - not to mention like something that could become even more frequent if I don't put a foot down. We've a lot going on, any neither my focus nor my physicality are what they used to be, so I desperately need to keep attention investment diversified. Because: - Adding the door knob and deadbolt to the second storm door didn't go as well as hoped, so I'll need to spend possibly a bunch more time making that actually useful. - The "cable guy" will be visiting another property during some span of time because our line somehow went down (my wife's convinced the neighbor had something to do with it, but I'm not as quick to suspicion). - I need to meet with three others to rehearse what they'll be performing Tuesday night. - We're away from home for the weekend, which of course requires preparation in order to enjoy it its diverse and sundry devilish details. Six to eight hours with a rather demanding child isn't the best way to make sure all that goes as I need it to.