AN ADOPTION STORY: HELEN, A BIRTH MOTHER

This Christmas, I am buying a present for a very special young woman. I 
never thought that I would get to buy a present for her. This may not sound 
extraordinary to you, but to me it is, because the young woman is my 
daughter, the baby girl I gave up for adoption twenty years ago and thought 
I'd never see.

I am writing this today in an effort to convey the joy I feel when I look 
at this beautiful young woman. I am very happy that she was adopted by two 
people who weren't afraid to help her find her birth mother. I am grateful 
to her adoptive parents, because they took this child and raised her, 
sharing their love and values, and enabling her to become the warm, loving 
young mother she is today. Not only was she raised without animosity toward 
the girl who gave her up, but her parents enabled us to find each other.

I would be lying if I didn't admit that I went through a great deal of 
self-doubt and regret in the years following my decision for adoption. I 
remember considering other options, suicide or abortion, very briefly, when 
I learned I was pregnant, but I couldn't deny my baby a chance to have her 
own life. Through the years since her birth, I often thought about my 
child, wondering where she was, what she looked like, what kind of person 
she had become, and even, was she still alive?

I feel very blessed that all these questions have now been answered and 
even more blessed because this young woman and I are becoming friends.

I gave birth to her, and her adoptive parents raised her, but this young 
woman has made a place for herself in this world. She had a right to her 
life and to become the kind of person she is. I believe she is an asset. As 
a wife and mother she is passing on her love and values to the people 
around her.

I am happy that I made the right decision for both of us twenty years ago.  
I am also happy to be able to give my child a gift this Christmas season. I 
hope that if there is another girl or woman who is pregnant and reads this, 
that she will understand and be proud to give her baby the greatest gift 
she can, LIFE.

In the early morning hours of Tuesday, June 2, 1970, a baby girl was born. 
The labor had been long and difficult, and the young woman who bore the 
child did not know if it was June 1st or June 2nd, or whether she had had a 
boy or a girl. She did not get to see her child; the baby went to one floor 
and the young woman to another.

That courageous young woman was not married and knew she could not take 
care of a baby by herself, especially when her parents were upset with her 
and didn't want anyone else to know about it. But she carried that baby 
girl and gave birth to her. She gave her the most precious gift of all, 
LIFE, and she loved her little baby so much that she knew the best thing 
she could do was to give her up for adoption.

Linda & Gary, Adoptive Parents

The precious baby girl, the wonderful miracle, became our daughter! On a 
dark, dreary, rainy afternoon my day was brightened by a phone call 
wondering if we would like to make the baby ours. I had been fixing supper, 
stirring creamed peas at the stove. To this day, I still don't remember if 
those creamed peas were edible!

The next day, Thursday, June 4, was our 9th anniversary. Seeing our newest 
child was the best gift imaginable. She had lots of reddish-blonde hair and 
big blue eyes-she was so beautiful! But we could only look, we could not 
touch her or hold her, not yet. We went back to see her on Friday, too, 
thinking we could take her home that day, but we didn't have all the 
paperwork completed. We worked on those papers all day Saturday. (Anyone 
who has ever tried to get a lawyer to work on Saturday knows what a 
challenge we faced!)

Finally, on Monday, June 8, we brought our baby daughter home with us. Hope 
Eileen came home to a big sister, 8-year-old Faith, and a big brother, 23-
month-old Rodney.

We had given birth to Faith, but we then lost 8 babies through 
miscarriages. Rodney had been our first experience with adoption, and he 
was such a wonderful child, just like his big sister, that we decided to 
adopt more.

Rod and Hope have always known that they were adopted. Though Rod never had 
many questions about his adoption, Hope was much more curious. She asked 
many questions, but we could only give her a few answers. We knew her birth 
mother's name and the area she was from, but that was all.

When Hope grew older, she still wanted to know about her biological 
history. We decided it was time to help her find some answers, but we all 
feared the possibility of rejection. So, without Hope's knowledge, her dad 
made some phone calls, and early on the morning of Saturday May 5, 1990, we 
spoke to the woman who had given birth to our daughter.

Helen was thrilled to hear from us and told us she had not known for sure 
about the baby's birth date or sex until we told her. She had wanted to try 
to find the child she gave up but had also been afraid of rejection. By 3-
way-dialing, we got Hope on the line for a very tearful and emotional 
reunion. Through later phone calls, letters, and picture exchanges, many 
questions have been answered for all of us, Hope and Helen especially!

Since that very important call, Hope, Helen and we were able to finally 
meet. Helen came here to spend some time getting to know Hope and to meet 2 
extra bonuses, Jacob and Zachary, Hope's babies and our grandchildren!

To anyone who is pregnant and considering abortion or suicide, please 
don't! Murder is never the answer. Adoption can solve a lot of problems. 
The child will have life instead of death. Rather than nightmares, you will 
have peace of mind and the knowledge that you did the right thing. The 
adoptive parents will have love, joy, and a child of their own.

Helen gave us a gift beyond compare when she gave us the beautiful baby 
girl who has since grown into a wonderful young woman. Thank you, Helen!

Linda and Gary Rickman have been actively involved pro-lifers for more than 
ten years. Gary is a member of the board of directors for Right to Life of 
Kansas. Besides their three children, Faith, Rodney, and Hope, the Rickmans 
have seven grandchildren.

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