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shut it down
July 08th, 2018
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Sometimes the little frustrations add up and spill over. I tend to
get very quiet when I'm at my breaking point. I shut down. I walk
away. When I was young I'd walk away in grandiose ways: from
relationships, jobs, responsibility. I've learned how to siphon
off the steam before reaching that point. I meditate, I walk,
I pray. I can roll with it a lot more than when I was a kid.
Still, sometimes it feels like it would be easier to shut it all
down and walk away from my life. It's not a rational thought. My
life is pretty damn good. The frustrations are minor things,
meaningless really. You can't compare lives that way, though. It's
not rational, as I said, and it's not logical.

I'm going to drink a nice glass of gin, read a bit, and go for an
evening walk. Tomorrow will start a busy work-week and I'll be
walking into it already stressed. It's not a good recipe.