`jax9999` [Thread]

One morning I woke up to my grandmotehr calling my cellphone. I was
upstairs, and it was weird for her to call me.

"there's something wrong with your father."

so, I came downstairs and she was in the hallway looking towards the
living room where my father was on the flat of his back not moving.

I went to him and tried to see what was wrong. he was cold. I ushered my
grandmother into the kitchen to sit down. and called 911.

In the meantime I started CPR.

He was down for hours, must have died during the night.

there is a certain type of desperation when you're doing CPR on your own
father. I've done it before, when being trained, and a few times over
the years in emergency situations. but this was different. I was doing
CPR, and the phone was on my shoulder, and I was telling my grandmother
everything was going to be alright at the same time trying not to lose
it myself.

Then a big mouthful of cold dead black blood came up.

I'm not sure how much I swallowed. I know some went to my sinuses and
came out my nose.

This froze my entire soul. I could taste my fathers cold dead blood. My
brain shut off dead for a minute. I don't remember getting up and going
to the sink. In that missing time I had gotten up went into the kitchen
and was trying to wash his blood off of my face. I had my grandmother
behind me asking what was wrong, but I couldn't talk. I couldn't even
think barely. I was just trying to wash that smell, that taste out of my
mouth and nose.

that was four years ago. I still wake up in the middle of the night in a
cold sweat, and all I can smell or taste is my fathers dead blood.

I hid this for years. I kinda had a mental breakdown, and lost it for 2
years. Didn't tell a soul. Eventually I told my boyfriend. I had an
irrational fear if i ever told him he'd never want to kiss me again. but
he did. so that's ok.

I hope I'm never in another situation where I have to do CPR, because I
don't honestly think I could do it.

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