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2017-09-25 / \/ \/ / \
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The phlog post that follows covers the / _/ / /
second week of my excursion into psychedelic \_______/_\___/____/\___/____/_
microdosing in September 2017. Disclaimer: / \/ \/ / \
One last time, I am not a doctor or a / _/ /_ _/
scientist or a chemist so do not consider /- / _/ /
this log evidence or endorsement of \________/\________/\___/____/
anything. This post is just a record of my
thoughts and experiences during the process and nothing else.
2017-09-18 (Day 7)
So after dwelling on Friday's dose I decided to reduce how much I was
taking, it really wasn't effective, the afternoon was good but the morning was
a write-off. It felt fun but I couldn't get anything done. Today I cut one of
the doses in half so it should be somewhere around 10ug. I can feel it
pressing in on the sides but the fog is nowhere near as thick as it was on
Friday. Stay tuned, sports fans.
I genuinely miss the taste of energy drinks in the morning.
2017-09-19 (Day 8)
Headache today, only mild but still, I thought I was past this. Yesterday
was really good. I didn't feel wired or online, it just felt like a pretty
good day. Running out of things to write here, I feel like the whole thing has
kind of fizzled out, last week was rough and this week has been pretty boring
so far.
Even on days when I don't dose I have a bounce in my step and I'm noticing
I'm far more upbeat than normally. Whether that is the effect of drug or just
the effect of me having a cheeky secret, I couldn't say.
2017-09-20 (Day 9)
Yesterday was a good day, stressful but I handled it. Other people are
starting to notice a real shift in my mood and attitude, Danielle noted that
I'm a lot happier after work and that I seem to be finding it easier to
disconnect from work at the end of the day, rather than carrying it around and
stressing about it.
Today is going to be full on, the timeline for the project I'm on got
brought forward so I have two days to complete the build. It's a dose day but
I also had an energy drink. I'm finding that the dosing does wonders for my
mood, attitude and interpersonal skills but it's not delivering on making me
feel more engaged with my work, I am getting stuff done but at a plodding
pace, I'm missing that ferocity that you get from caffeine.
Drinks with friends on Friday probably, I haven't seen them in a while so
it'll be interesting to see if they notice any difference.
I read an account earlier of a microdoser using diluted LSD in a nasal
spray (hayfever season, got me thinking) and that just sounds like genius, so
much smarter than chasing a tiny piece of paper around your mouth so I might
try that down the line. I'd need to source liquid LSD though so. Since I'm on
10ug for the time being I have enough from what I bought to probably last me
another month or so, this stuff goes a long way.
2017-09-21 (Day 10)
Yesterday was alright, work has been high-stress lately but I'm staying
above it. Can't really say whether that's the drug or I'm taking stuff in-
stride. Reading posts by other people who have done this is starting to get a
bit disheartening, they speak of all these miraculous changes and euphoria and
magic but I'm over here like, ok this is better but barely. Maybe I need to
try a different type of LSD? Tomorrow I'll dose around 15ug and see what
shakes loose.
2017-09-22 (Day 11)
This is it, my droogs. I think I found my groove at ~15ug. I feel cheerful,
I feel engaged, I can concentrate, only a little light-headed.
Frustratingly all my measures are a best guess since it relies on the LSD
being evenly distributed on the blotter which is probably not really true. I'm
going to pull the trigger on the 60ug blotters tonight. Less division means I
can have more faith in the amount, right now I'm fussing with pieces as small
as 1/20th of the blotter and it's just getting silly. A properly mic'd out
liquid would be so much more accurate but the smallest amount I could find in
a quick search was 100 doses of 150ug for $750, at my current consumption it'd
last me, what? Like six and a half years? It'd be a pretty good investment if
I was certain I was going to continue this for that long but I suppose right
now it's a moot point anyway because I don't have $750 to blow on fucking acid
hahaha.
I'll also admit that now that I'm getting a feel for it I'm curious to see
if other formulas will have different results, the drug I'm using now is
called VoidRealm, the one in the 60ug blotters is called Parvati's Tears. I
think they're named for the design on the blotter? I dunno. Don't listen to
me, I don't know shit.
Anyway, so I'll check back in at the end of the day with any insight then
tidy all this up to post it on FAX SEX and that'll be that.
Update: It's like 13:30 and I am just having the best day, wow. Spring in
my step, head clear, feeling way on top of shit. I might leave this file open
for a summary on Monday and see if Monday at the same dose feels the same.
That rounds it out at two weeks proper, since my first dose day fizzled out
when I was still waiting on the drug.
2017-09-25 (Day 14)
I feel really good, like really, really good. No headache, no stress. I
feel like I'm doing so much better at taking shit in-stride instead of getting
angry at things that don't matter. Even between doses I'm noticing really
great results and the people around me are noticing too. We had anime club on
the weekend and it was just as dumb and awkward as the last meeting but this
time I ENJOYED it being dumb and awkward. I just had a really good time.
I'm going to have a shadow at work today so let me nail this down quick.
It's the last day I'll keep this running log for, any exciting developments
after this I'll just put in a regular phlog post or crow about on the
fediverse.
Let's answer the big questions but, keep in mind that this is entirely
subjective, no two people have the same brain and all I can base this on is my
specific experience.
Was it worth trying? Absolutely. This kind of wetware hacking is a trip
(pun intended) and pretty safe, LSD is not physically addictive so if you
aren't feeling it then stopping will be pretty painless and if you're worried
about accidentally miss-dosing there's other drugs you can get to keep on hand
that will ease you through or abort a trip. The only other thing I'd really
recommend if you do try is to make sure someone you trust knows what you're
doing. Don't go it alone, make sure you have someone to talk to about how
you're feeling and what you're feeling and someone to gauge how you're
behaving.
Is there anything I would have done differently? There's a few things I've
mentioned already in the phlog posts; blotters with smaller doses, starting
with a smaller microdose. The only other thing I would do different, and this
is pretty specific to my situation, is winding down the caffeine and codeine
intake rather than going cold turkey. That week was a shit and could have been
avoided if I wasn't so impatient.
Am I going to continue? No doubt. With ~15ug I feel like I've found my
groove I'm going to carry on with that. I might set myself a reminder for a
couple months' time to reflect on how it's going but for the foreseeable
future I'm going to keep it up.
I hope this has been interesting to read. To be fair, like most of the
phlog, it's as much for me as it is for the reader but I hope for someone it's
started some gears turning.
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