# Nighttime

*Entered: in emacs on gemini pda* |
*Date: 20220524* |
*Soundtrack: Radiohead - The Bends,
Radiohead - OK Computer*

## Sitting in East Texas

I have earbuds in, listening to an album that reminds me
of the early 2000s, living in *west* Texas. It was a
different world then. Well, one of many. The world ended
in 2001, again in 2012, again in 2020... each time
leaving what preceded unrecognizable.

Traveling like I do, I am alone most of the time. A new
place, another airport, a new industrial plant with
issues... all hotel rooms are basically the same.
Especially since I generally always stay with the same
chain. In the last two years I have gathered 500,000
points at this hotel chain, after using some for free
nights even. In the same time I have gathered the same
number of air miles with the airline I use.

I have a ritual of calling my wife and youngest daughter
every night when on the road. It keeps me connected.
tonight was a treat because my son was over at the house
when I called.

Otherwise I just kind of drift through this fucked up
clown world that has sprung into being in the last
little bit. Slowly. Sometimes springing forward in a
sprint I think of these as the world ending. A new
one takes its place and things become very unlike the
previous time...

{Radiohead Street Spirit (Fade Out) is a goddamned
masterpiece, I am also very fond of the cover of this
song by the Greek black metal band Sad}

In the book the Fourth Turning the ancient concept of
the seclorum is elucidated. In a sense I hold on to the
hope that the natural cycle will reverse things. At a
certain point, however, the controllers will be able to
impose their will in opposition to any cycle. I do not
know if we are there yet. Maybe Doug Vogt is right and
the sun will micronova in 2046. I seriously doubt we
will be so lucky.

As an anarchist, I have always been in opposition to
both wings of the uniparty. I cannot find agreement with
conservatives (who conserve nothing), nor blue haired
communists (who will be up against the wall when the
revolution arives), nor libertarians (who care not that
allowing everyone to do as they please has destroyed
thousands of years of tradition that was developed for
a reason), nor monarchists (who at some level hold the
divine right of kings, but in any case root for the same
old families that have always placed their thumbs upon
us)...

Even if the micronova doesn't happen, maybe being
underground between the tropics of cancer and capricorn
isn't a bad idea. As alone as East Texas at night time.